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Maturing out of drug use?

kaywholed said:
as i have matured,
i dont want to be fucked 24/7
i like being able to use my brain,
and when I do want to get fucked, i want to to be useful, not a waste of chemicals
id say ive moved on from a drug abuser to a informed occasional user
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Well said mate, this is me also.
 
As Ive gotten a wee bit older i have slacked off on the drugs a good bit. Mostly these days i just take my morphine and clonazepam scripts which only get me high on occasion. I very occasionally do coke but that drug is one that really get's to me and i try and stay away from it. I smoke cannabis alot but for me it only helps so it's not a problem.

When i was younger i was always smoking cannabis all out everyday, drinking as much as i could, taking shrooms, every pharmaceutical i could get my hands on and doing stimulants. There where a few times where i was a proper wreck and was completely fucked up and i never wanna go back there again. Ive been a alcoholic, a raging opiate addict and i have had coke benders that have left me completely broke and a horror show.The older i have gotten the worse the hangovers and comedowns have gotten and i certainly get them way worse now at 29 then i did back when i was in my early 20's I don't want to go back to any of that thank you very much. I think i went down the rabbit hole far enough and i certainly have no desire to see how bad it is even farther down the rabbit hole :\

It kinda get's boring after awile to be off your face all day everyday. Plus i have no desire to basically kill myself with every drug i can get as i have more things to live for now :)
 
Thanks for sharing pr0d1gy. :)

For me, I don't know if I have 'matured' out of drug use, just that the side effects are stronger than the positive effects now.
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hahah indeed! "I'm getting to old for this shit!"
 
Thanks for sharing that story Prodigy, I could really relate.

Having gone through a similar experience myself I can appreciate the mental transition your mind occasionally takes. I called it my moment of clarity - finally seeing everything in my life for what it is, and ultimately realising the possible implications of some of the choices I had made, and unlike any other periods of sobriety in my life I no longer feel a giant gaping void where the drugs once sat.

Wishing you the best for the future.
 
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