malakaix
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I haven't written a report in quite a while, but this night of events really split my mind open. - I should note that i had LSD,Mushrooms,DMT,Weed and Nitrous Oxide on 1 night.. 6 days PRIOR to this... i'll be interested if the DMT triggered this to happen with marijuana.
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So my friend J called me up and asked me to come by his place which is walking distance from mine. I get there we chat a bit before calling up our other friend P, our friend P gets here roughly 10mins later and we decide to harvest what's left of J's dead marijuana plant.
We didn't expect much from it, but we were pleasantly surprised. After the second cone (bowel) i started to feel 'more' then just stoned.. and i could tell i was transitioning into a lot more mentally then just a stoned feeling.
By the 3rd cone i was tripping extremely hard.. i could feel parts of my mind been re-adjusted, and i began to see flashing patterns, sound began to become very very crisp.. i could hear the radio of a car passing 500 meters away.. i started to explain this to J and P.. and they laughed hysterically.. this was really different then any other feeling i had felt before. The best conclusion i could come up with at the time was that i was starting to trip.
I began to remember past events in my life, my mind started to enter the core of my ego and was revealing the most extreme events that my ego has witnessed.. which evidently was my first experience's with LSD and all the confusion,paranoia and extremely awkward social situations that came with it.. this was really terrifying for me because i seemed to be within the CORE of my ego witnessing all past memories of when my ego was at its most vulnerable. This set the mood for me and my friends.. while they chatted i stared into space.. it wasn't until a few mins later that i started to hear voice's in my head yelling 'DO YOU ADMIT IT?' 2-3 times and having it echo through my mind.. which was followed by a girl's voice laughing, this was enough to make me feel like i was going to have a psychiatric snap and i said i was going to head home to P and J and started to walk home.
On the walk back.. i noticed i could see patterns running all up and down the road.. the sidewalk in the light showed different colors and patterns moving geometrically with each other. AT this point i knew i was experiencing some form of a trip which the marijuana acted as a catalyst for.
I was very very uneasy at this point and i was shaking uncontrollably, having heard voice's in my head.. i started to feel like i could be on the verge of insanity.. once i got home i went into my room and to take my mind off everything i put on some music and listened.. it was amazingly clear and crisp, my mood changed and i was happy that i was tripping so hard off of just marijuana.
I wasn't able to keep this up however and went to lay down on my bed.. i was still shaking and thinking of where my sanity is right now.. i cant quite recall what happened between now and what im about to say.. i think i may of lost track of time.
But after laying on the bed, i began thinking that i was experiencing some form of schizophrenia or split personality.. and i said to myself 'I hope i come out of this on a good personality'.. and as i said that i fell into an abyss of relaxation, i felt love and charisma overwhelm me.. it was the most wonderful feeling i've ever felt.. which ended up causing me to black out. I'm not sure how long i was out, i dont think it was longer then 3-5mins.. but i awoke to a beeping noise in my head, similar to how a heart rate monitor would sound.. except it's beeping had no pattern.. it was erratic.. the more i came back to reality.. the more the beeping started to fade away.. i had a single tear running down the side of my face from 1 eye as i started to come back.. i think this may of been a result of my ego seeing the truth of its origin.. as i became fully conscious it was only a faint faint beep in the distance of my mind.
After this i began to wonder about what just happened and started to piece together bits and pieces. I remembered that my star sign (cancer)'s 'Secret Desire is to - Cancer's Secret Desire: To feel safe (emotionally, spiritually, romantically and financially) i would say with absolute certainty that i felt all of that upon my 'death'.. which lead me to believe the meaning of life is to obtain your true desire.
The beeping noise i heard indicated to me that we're some sort of simulation plugged into a matrix.. and as i came back online the beeping started again, as i progressed further back into this 'reality' the beeping faded into the background of my mind.
This was a milestone trip for me.. whenever i trip.. i do so with the intention of exploring myself, i feel tonight i reached that goal of unlocking who/what i am in all its entirety.
After all this, are we simply just star dust that's become self-aware? As i died i felt like i merged back with my origin - 'cancer'. I want to note im not a spiritual person at all.. im very logical when i trip, and i have a scientific view towards everything that occurs.. but i cant quite ignore the amazing similarities behind the psyche and people's star signs.
Anyway, there's my attempt at a Trip Report, like i said im not too good at writing them.. im usually alot more fluent with sentence structure and how i use certain words.. but that's usually on matters that i have more of an understanding of.. this is still quite 'full on'.
Tagged by Xorkoth
substancecode_marijuana
substancecode_cannabis
explevel_experienced
exptype_positive
exptype_glowing
exptype_spiritual
roacode_smoked
roacode_inhaled
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So my friend J called me up and asked me to come by his place which is walking distance from mine. I get there we chat a bit before calling up our other friend P, our friend P gets here roughly 10mins later and we decide to harvest what's left of J's dead marijuana plant.
We didn't expect much from it, but we were pleasantly surprised. After the second cone (bowel) i started to feel 'more' then just stoned.. and i could tell i was transitioning into a lot more mentally then just a stoned feeling.
By the 3rd cone i was tripping extremely hard.. i could feel parts of my mind been re-adjusted, and i began to see flashing patterns, sound began to become very very crisp.. i could hear the radio of a car passing 500 meters away.. i started to explain this to J and P.. and they laughed hysterically.. this was really different then any other feeling i had felt before. The best conclusion i could come up with at the time was that i was starting to trip.
I began to remember past events in my life, my mind started to enter the core of my ego and was revealing the most extreme events that my ego has witnessed.. which evidently was my first experience's with LSD and all the confusion,paranoia and extremely awkward social situations that came with it.. this was really terrifying for me because i seemed to be within the CORE of my ego witnessing all past memories of when my ego was at its most vulnerable. This set the mood for me and my friends.. while they chatted i stared into space.. it wasn't until a few mins later that i started to hear voice's in my head yelling 'DO YOU ADMIT IT?' 2-3 times and having it echo through my mind.. which was followed by a girl's voice laughing, this was enough to make me feel like i was going to have a psychiatric snap and i said i was going to head home to P and J and started to walk home.
On the walk back.. i noticed i could see patterns running all up and down the road.. the sidewalk in the light showed different colors and patterns moving geometrically with each other. AT this point i knew i was experiencing some form of a trip which the marijuana acted as a catalyst for.
I was very very uneasy at this point and i was shaking uncontrollably, having heard voice's in my head.. i started to feel like i could be on the verge of insanity.. once i got home i went into my room and to take my mind off everything i put on some music and listened.. it was amazingly clear and crisp, my mood changed and i was happy that i was tripping so hard off of just marijuana.
I wasn't able to keep this up however and went to lay down on my bed.. i was still shaking and thinking of where my sanity is right now.. i cant quite recall what happened between now and what im about to say.. i think i may of lost track of time.
But after laying on the bed, i began thinking that i was experiencing some form of schizophrenia or split personality.. and i said to myself 'I hope i come out of this on a good personality'.. and as i said that i fell into an abyss of relaxation, i felt love and charisma overwhelm me.. it was the most wonderful feeling i've ever felt.. which ended up causing me to black out. I'm not sure how long i was out, i dont think it was longer then 3-5mins.. but i awoke to a beeping noise in my head, similar to how a heart rate monitor would sound.. except it's beeping had no pattern.. it was erratic.. the more i came back to reality.. the more the beeping started to fade away.. i had a single tear running down the side of my face from 1 eye as i started to come back.. i think this may of been a result of my ego seeing the truth of its origin.. as i became fully conscious it was only a faint faint beep in the distance of my mind.
After this i began to wonder about what just happened and started to piece together bits and pieces. I remembered that my star sign (cancer)'s 'Secret Desire is to - Cancer's Secret Desire: To feel safe (emotionally, spiritually, romantically and financially) i would say with absolute certainty that i felt all of that upon my 'death'.. which lead me to believe the meaning of life is to obtain your true desire.
The beeping noise i heard indicated to me that we're some sort of simulation plugged into a matrix.. and as i came back online the beeping started again, as i progressed further back into this 'reality' the beeping faded into the background of my mind.
This was a milestone trip for me.. whenever i trip.. i do so with the intention of exploring myself, i feel tonight i reached that goal of unlocking who/what i am in all its entirety.
After all this, are we simply just star dust that's become self-aware? As i died i felt like i merged back with my origin - 'cancer'. I want to note im not a spiritual person at all.. im very logical when i trip, and i have a scientific view towards everything that occurs.. but i cant quite ignore the amazing similarities behind the psyche and people's star signs.
Anyway, there's my attempt at a Trip Report, like i said im not too good at writing them.. im usually alot more fluent with sentence structure and how i use certain words.. but that's usually on matters that i have more of an understanding of.. this is still quite 'full on'.
Tagged by Xorkoth
substancecode_marijuana
substancecode_cannabis
explevel_experienced
exptype_positive
exptype_glowing
exptype_spiritual
roacode_smoked
roacode_inhaled
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