Today was good day. I don't know why but it was good and ended on very good note. Very strange considering way that I been feeling. Walked into town to get something to drink and then headed over to market to see girlfriend. However brief, enjoyed time we got to see each other. Walking outside market with arms around each other the clouds were a color of pink unlike any other that I have seen and bursted with an aura of serenity that was unreal. Then walking home afterward with crisp yet warm air... Crazy how such a simple short moment and sight can be so beautiful. Left me with feeling that I thought I lost forever years ago. So many beautiful things as of late and moments of joy that were once so fleeting amidst wake of chaos that has subsided over past year. Future still uncertain. Still not sure how life will turn out and how will end. Perhaps not by own hands as I always thought.
