To answear some questions, if I identify with any religion I guess it would have to be Esoteric Christianity. It's quite an impressive and very complex philosophical system that allows you to think and know much further than regular Christianity. I'm thinking of what was taught by Peter Deunov, for instance, (I love "The Wellspring of Good", but it costs a fortune to buy, for some reason now - see if you can find a copy of it somewhere on the Net). And those teachers always say things like "The Lord of Darkness is the true Prince of this world", so I was wondering why someone who was so close to God and claimed to be in communication with angels every day would say something like that?
Now I guess I can see what they mean but I never suggested that people should WORSHIP Lucifer. It says God "gave him the geometry to create a reverse creation", i.e. the opposite of all God already had created that was supposed to have been all perfect and good, and implies it was the way imperfection came into this creation. When I suggested you "pray for him" I didn't mean so much out of sympathy for him, more because it would be good for the whole, and maybe for ourselves. But to do that you would have to be able to feel some genuine compassion (at least that's the way I understand prayer) for it to work. I don't find that easy if I think about the way he is NOW, but if you try to think of how he used to be and maybe will become again, it can be easier to feel some sympathy.
At least that way you can think the rebellion, etc. happened for some good purpose and not just for nothing. And I guess the idea of "jealousy of angels" could make sense if you think we were both given more freedom and the chance to ultimately become greater (by choosing what is good or Godlike for ourselves). They didn't like the idea that they, who had always been perfect and "of God", could be lesser. So it says it was both real, or one third of the angels followed him (I guess he couldn't do it alone), and an alibi for something more important.
I also feel I can receive some positive energy when I'm able to hold him (Lucifer) in my heart compassionately and pray for him, though I don't know for sure what's the source of that energy. It would make more sense to me if it came from some of the positive angels as a form of reward, or maybe you can connect with God or your own soul that way, I don't really know.
But I also felt some of what I call "demon attack" when I was publicizing these ideas (i.e. they can't hurt you physically, but sometimes I get this sensation like an invisible hand clutching my heart in an emotion/energy way and just become filled with this general sense of doom). So for some reason "they" didn't like that (yea, and I know how crazy this sounds) but also that kind of makes sense as I've discovered that directing positive energy towards them in some form seems to weaken them and that's the only weapon you can use. While if you try to attack them and use negative energy in some way, like to scare them, they're so much better than you at that so there's no point in even trying. At least that's how I perceive it and how I've been able to have some spiritual peace.
Anyway, everyone experiences these things their own way, so it's kind of hard to share very well. You can't say for sure that something is real just because it appeared so within yourself. But in this situation there's not much more you can do than pray, unfortunately. That is, if you want to help weaken the negative forces of Creation or contribute to that in some way. That was the only thing I really had in mind about it. And there are quite a few sources that explain it like this. Like I said, there has been a book written about it, and I found a forum with quotes from different sources saying the same thing:
http://curezone.com/forums/am.asp?i=689571
Where you can find someone who channels both God and Lucifer about it. What is supposed to be channeled from God really explains it best, but I'm not allowed to post so many quotes again. Well, I guess I can post these.
"When, by your growth as individuals, you, humanity who are My heart, and I chose to go forth together into a far deeper relationship, a being of greatest light came forth. "Let me hold them, God," he said. "Let me be the embodiment of their bravery. Let me be the strength of their encouragement. Let me keep them safe for you. Whatever they want me to be, I will be, yet it is for you that I volunteer this." And thus did I give you into Lucifer's keeping, star of the brightest heavens.
And yes, I knew the many possibilities, including the one that has occurred. Yet you must believe that I did not know the outcome, for I truly did give you your Will to make of yourselves whatever you believed. For I had willed to love you and to learn from you, My heart, by allowing you the Will to be our own individuality.
Yet when you decided to turn from Me completely and to believe in anti-Love -- how could this be handled? How could it even occur? For I Am Only Love. There is no place in Me where darkness can even exist! Yet this is what you chose. And Lucifer, who loved you so, said, "God, I will assist. I will create within my very being a place apart from you that your children may answer this question for themselves. Show me how, my beloved God, and of my very being we will create this. I shall wrap myself around them. I will keep them safe. I will make sure the golden cords of life are ever vibrant and alive in you so their golden selves shall not be lost. Yet if you will help me, I will create for them a space apart in which to live out this question of the possibility of anti-Love. Of darkness. Of all that is the opposite of truth."
I like those quotes and they sound as if they're from someone who has focused on it more deeply. And I can't really say this makes less sense than what I've heard from any other religion or philosophical system. I thought it might begin to clear up some of the mysteries of all the evil in a creation by a good God, etc.
I also think that's the only way something like this could have happened and be sustained, i.e. for a good reason. If you don't think God is as mindless and flawed as humans can be. So even the darkest he has created has a good reason to exist. We can't really compare God to ourselves so just because we can't make any sense of it, or hasn't been taught to, that doesn't really mean there couldn't be any.
It's just the other half of the balance to the tree.
