LSD or Shrooms for Therapeutic Use Only

[TJ5]

So, I have eleven years of clean time, and I do participate in NA. They are great, along with my therapy and Reiki healer. I do one of each per week. There are still several areas in life where I feel stuck. As far as I'm concerned, I see nothing wrong with using shrooms or LSD for therapeutic purposes only. So much time has passed since I have been part of a drug culture. In 2013 and before, I would have been able to find a hallucinogen eventually. Sometimes I feel stuck in my anger at my aunt and uncle for being an obstacle to my financial freedom. It makes me fucking furious. The problem is unless I traveled to Oregon, which is another state away, I would have no idea where to buy some mushrooms. So anyway, they might help me get unstuck in areas of my life because I know how to access my spiritual guide, what questions to ask, and perhaps may find some relief from trapped energy. In the past, (except for the last time in 2006) taking shrooms was about getting high, but today it would be for a completely different reason. I know if this rage could be released, I might be able to find some solution. Without the trapped anger, circumstances sometimes change as well. For now, I have to go the slow route, meaning traditional court dates, lawyers, and judges. The problem is that this shit takes fucking forever, and the system is stacked against those of us that have limited funds. I shouldn't have to be going through this, but I am. I was pleased to hear my uncle avoided coming to my house to run an estate sale. Trust and believe I would have asked my aunt and uncle hard questions, and it would have been my pleasure to make them uncomfortable. They deserve such treatment, and I deserve to get some answers from them. So, that said I decided to get all the shit I want out of the house that I can use in my apartment on January 3. The estate sale is supposed to be set up Monday-Thursday. The actual sales are on Friday and Saturday. If I had known that I would NOT be receiving any money from these proceeds, then I never would have agreed to it. My douchebag uncle gets to control everything unless he gets removed by a judge. I am going to send my lawyer an email saying I want to cancel the estate sale and just leave a huge mess for my uncle to deal with on his own. Lawyer will most likely tell me to have it anyway because that money is supposedly going into a trust for my benefit, but what damn good does that do me if I cannot access any of it for rent? My new apartment is $3000/month, but my uncle refuses to disperse any funds for rent or moving. I would love to beat the crap out of him. I'm not sure how this situation will play out, but I wanted to have a modest living and use the savings for emergencies, but he is fucking that up for me. Due to this situation, I get flooded with anger all over again.