strangedays_indeed
Bluelighter
Alright, so I am new to the BL community, but I have been lurking around on BL and on erowid for many years, and have read countless trip reports. This is my first published trip report, but is very important to me. I'll try to keep the background information limited,
I'm 17, I have a good amount of experience with most common psychoactives, smoke cannabis on a daily basis (used to I guess, now in outpatient rehab). I am moderately experienced with most psychedelics, have used LSD, Psilocybin Mushrooms, 2-CI, and if you would choose to consider DXM (plays a role in this report as a matter a fact...)
Anyways, the past weekend, my friends and I got our hands on some relatively good blotters, I would guess in the 175-200 μg range per tab, but I really am not educated enough to be precise, and my source was a "middleman" like person. Nonetheless, me and my companions had a 10 strip, Jerry Garcia's face, never saw the whole sheet, but looked slightly amusing, since the Grateful Dead are one of my favorite bands of all time.
The night before my three friends and I planned on dropping the tabs, I went home at my probation curfew time at 9 o'clock, which is really awful. I knew I would be bored and anticipating the following day, so I had picked up an
z bottle of Robitussin Max Strength, since my dex habit was turning into a weekly thing, just out of boredom and inability to smoke cannabis (drug screens twice a week). I chugged the dex (aprox 700 mg) and went about my normal business that I would do while in a DXM experience; music, playing PS2, talking with friends over the internet... But that is not important, I only mention it because I'm almost positive it effected my experience the next day...
As I wake up in a complete haze from getting about 3 hours of sleep that night, I realize that I would be dropping some pretty good LSD today, HORRAY! My mind is still very scattered from the night of dex and little sleep, but I am way too used to the day after a DXM experience to think anything of it I guess.
I meet up with my friends around 11 AM and we drive over to the store to get assorted drinks, fruits, candy, cigarettes, and whatever else we feel like. I dropped my acid (2 hits of blotter described before) at around 11:30, with no food in my stomach and still feeling dumb from the dex the night before. My mood is very positvie, since I haven't been able to get LSD for a solid two months, after being in jail for a few weeks followed up by house arrest, and I was with good friends I hadn't hung out with in weeks. I have previously tripped a verity of substances with two of the friends, and the other I have known for a while but never tripped with until then, so I was comfortable with the people I was around.
We drove about 45 minutes to a forest where we have dropped LSD a few times previously, but end up getting a little bit lost and ending up at a different area of our usual forest.
T + 45 m: I am defiantly starting to feel the first alerts of the LSD, my metabolism is extremely fast, and I always come up fast, but I am coming up even faster than normal, through out the car ride really feeling the music and just loving the world as a whole. Everyone else starting to come up, we walk and look for a place to call our own. The location was hitting me pretty hard, a strange and somewhat ere feel to it for some reason, there were a lot of worms coming out of the ground, and it was pretty humid.
T + 1h 15 m: Still coming up very hard and fast, patterning starting to occur, colors looking very different, but no like any other LSD experience I've ever had. The whole feel to the trip was not what I am used to, had a sort of hard edgy feeling to it, quite noticeable nausea for LSD, and I was sweating ALOT (it was a hot day, but way more than normal). Talking is a difficult task, and I cant really form intelligent sentences like I normally can, even while on LSD.
T + 1h 45 m: As my friends and I wondered around down the relatively deserted forest path, I am tripping pretty hard at this point, I look up and two cops on bikes are staring us down. The fear that bubbled up inside of me was one of the worst feelings of my life, since I am on probation and whatnot, I CAN NOT get into more legal trouble. When we get within a few feet of them, trying to look innocent with our dilated pupils and stupid expressions, one officer says "hey, come here." I was so scared, I'm sure he could see the pure fear in my face, that is how scared I was. He asks us what were are drinking, because 3 of us have drinks in our hands, all I can manage to say is tea, which was true. My good friend has the presence of mind to say, "its not alcohol officer, we are just hiking." The officer actually laughed and said ok and started biking the other way. After they are out of sight we just start laughing geeking out, expressing how scary the whole experience was, but personally, it vibed me out SO hard.
We keep walking, I am tripping hard at this point, body load of the LSD is definitely more noticeable than usual, thoughts are moving quite fast after the encounter with the police officers, and I just want to stop somewhere and enjoy the trip, becasue I was still sweating hard and didn't have much real energy, other than what I was getting from the LSD.
T + 2h 30 m: After looking for a good place to chill and set up "camp," we actually climbed a really high bunch of large boulders, which was a pretty intense and awesome climb itself, to the peak of the boulders. The view was so spectacular, and my visuals where looking very nice at this point, and the music flowing into my ears so gently and smoothly, as it always does while on LSD.
T + 3h 30 m: As we sat on top of our mountain with no one else in sight for miles, my friends speaker system put me into another dimension. There is nothing better to me than the sound of music when I am on LSD, and I was just lying there with my good friends, talking about so much, enjoying the many colors and patterns I was experiencing OEV and CEV. The visuals were quite good, especially for a day trip, I always seem to have better visuals with LSD at night, but these were quite something. I would say I was at a ++++ at this point, everything was great.
T + 4h 30m: We decided to go walking around since we would like to explore the area more, so we walk, and this is when my trip really hits me. I am thinking very hard as I always do while on LSD, about so many things. Visual portion of the trip still going very strong, stronger than normal for me, and I start to slip...
T+ 5h: THIS IS VERY HARD TO PUT INTO WORDS. I will try to do it, but honestly words can not describe the place in my brain where I went for the next 4 hours. As we walked around the forest, my thoughts racing, I could not comprehend reality anymore. I knew I was tripping, but at the same time, I did not believe a reality existed, or myself existed. I know myself very well, and have tripped many times, but only once before have I been to this place in my mind. I was no longer a human, but I was a soul. I had very little control over my body at this point. No one really noticed I was tripping VERY hard, so everyone decided to go back to the car and go to my friends community pool. I somehow climbed back down the mountain we had been tripping on top of, getting very dirty in the process, tripping very hard the whole walk back to the car, thinking we had left my friend back in the forest (who wasn't even with us to begin with).
The car ride back to our area was extremely strange. I was so convinced we lived in a city that we didn't live in, and that we had lost one of my friends. It was a somewhat frightening experience, since I believed we had lost one of my best friends in the forest while he was on some strong LSD. I was completely in a daze at this point, with no perception of what reality actually was. I can't put my thoughts into words, since I was tripping so hard, but some things I can say are the following:
I was 100% sure that my life away from that day was completely fake, like a fake implanted memory, and that the trip was my whole life. My perception of time was COMPLETELY gone, and I guess its what I deserve since my line is that "there is no time." I am actually now sure that time is completely fake. I did not really know who I was, so I really wanted to smoke cannabis, and I kept saying I wanted to, even though I know, and my friends, who were NOT tripping nearly as hard as me at this point, knew I couldn't. The rest of the physical details are not really important to the reader, but I was doing some ridiculous stuff while in this "haze" state.
One example, just for fun
. I was given a skateboard by a friend of mine who knew I was tripping hard and wanted me to enjoy myself I guess, and I was skating around and a man and his son riding a moped ran into me going a good speed (I was in probably in their way). I didn't really notice, and went back over to my friends who were hysterically laughing, I burst out laughing and give all my friends daps for no reason. (My friend told me this the next day, I only slightly remember).
T+ 8h: I eventually come out of this state of totally destroyed reality, but slowly. For the next hour I sit with my friends while they are smoking cannabis, trying to figure out if anything that just happened was real. I floated back into the trip on and off for the next hour or so, and eventually have to go home because of curfew. I was completely drained physically, psychologically, emotionally and in every way possible.
Looking back on this trip, I have mixed feelings. All my conceived knowledge of my universe has been smashed to pieces by this experience. I learned alot about myself, and alot about the power of LSD. I went into the trip with the desire to trip hard, and I tripped harder than I would have ever thought possible from two tabs.
Personally, I have many questions to the BL community about this trip.
First, what is anyones experience of going so deep into your own mind that you don't know what reality is, because I would like feedback on other peoples experiences with this aspect of my trip.
Second, WHY was the trip so powerful? Did the DXM use the night before boost the LSD's effects on me? That is what I thought, but I do not know. I have used LSD many times previous to this trip and never tripped close to this hard. (the only other time was when I ate an 8th of VERY potent dried mushrooms)...
Thanks for reading, feedback would be great, feel free to ask any questions because I know I left some stuff out, hopefully nothing too important...
Peace and Love.
I'm 17, I have a good amount of experience with most common psychoactives, smoke cannabis on a daily basis (used to I guess, now in outpatient rehab). I am moderately experienced with most psychedelics, have used LSD, Psilocybin Mushrooms, 2-CI, and if you would choose to consider DXM (plays a role in this report as a matter a fact...)
Anyways, the past weekend, my friends and I got our hands on some relatively good blotters, I would guess in the 175-200 μg range per tab, but I really am not educated enough to be precise, and my source was a "middleman" like person. Nonetheless, me and my companions had a 10 strip, Jerry Garcia's face, never saw the whole sheet, but looked slightly amusing, since the Grateful Dead are one of my favorite bands of all time.
The night before my three friends and I planned on dropping the tabs, I went home at my probation curfew time at 9 o'clock, which is really awful. I knew I would be bored and anticipating the following day, so I had picked up an
z bottle of Robitussin Max Strength, since my dex habit was turning into a weekly thing, just out of boredom and inability to smoke cannabis (drug screens twice a week). I chugged the dex (aprox 700 mg) and went about my normal business that I would do while in a DXM experience; music, playing PS2, talking with friends over the internet... But that is not important, I only mention it because I'm almost positive it effected my experience the next day...As I wake up in a complete haze from getting about 3 hours of sleep that night, I realize that I would be dropping some pretty good LSD today, HORRAY! My mind is still very scattered from the night of dex and little sleep, but I am way too used to the day after a DXM experience to think anything of it I guess.
I meet up with my friends around 11 AM and we drive over to the store to get assorted drinks, fruits, candy, cigarettes, and whatever else we feel like. I dropped my acid (2 hits of blotter described before) at around 11:30, with no food in my stomach and still feeling dumb from the dex the night before. My mood is very positvie, since I haven't been able to get LSD for a solid two months, after being in jail for a few weeks followed up by house arrest, and I was with good friends I hadn't hung out with in weeks. I have previously tripped a verity of substances with two of the friends, and the other I have known for a while but never tripped with until then, so I was comfortable with the people I was around.
We drove about 45 minutes to a forest where we have dropped LSD a few times previously, but end up getting a little bit lost and ending up at a different area of our usual forest.
T + 45 m: I am defiantly starting to feel the first alerts of the LSD, my metabolism is extremely fast, and I always come up fast, but I am coming up even faster than normal, through out the car ride really feeling the music and just loving the world as a whole. Everyone else starting to come up, we walk and look for a place to call our own. The location was hitting me pretty hard, a strange and somewhat ere feel to it for some reason, there were a lot of worms coming out of the ground, and it was pretty humid.
T + 1h 15 m: Still coming up very hard and fast, patterning starting to occur, colors looking very different, but no like any other LSD experience I've ever had. The whole feel to the trip was not what I am used to, had a sort of hard edgy feeling to it, quite noticeable nausea for LSD, and I was sweating ALOT (it was a hot day, but way more than normal). Talking is a difficult task, and I cant really form intelligent sentences like I normally can, even while on LSD.
T + 1h 45 m: As my friends and I wondered around down the relatively deserted forest path, I am tripping pretty hard at this point, I look up and two cops on bikes are staring us down. The fear that bubbled up inside of me was one of the worst feelings of my life, since I am on probation and whatnot, I CAN NOT get into more legal trouble. When we get within a few feet of them, trying to look innocent with our dilated pupils and stupid expressions, one officer says "hey, come here." I was so scared, I'm sure he could see the pure fear in my face, that is how scared I was. He asks us what were are drinking, because 3 of us have drinks in our hands, all I can manage to say is tea, which was true. My good friend has the presence of mind to say, "its not alcohol officer, we are just hiking." The officer actually laughed and said ok and started biking the other way. After they are out of sight we just start laughing geeking out, expressing how scary the whole experience was, but personally, it vibed me out SO hard.
We keep walking, I am tripping hard at this point, body load of the LSD is definitely more noticeable than usual, thoughts are moving quite fast after the encounter with the police officers, and I just want to stop somewhere and enjoy the trip, becasue I was still sweating hard and didn't have much real energy, other than what I was getting from the LSD.
T + 2h 30 m: After looking for a good place to chill and set up "camp," we actually climbed a really high bunch of large boulders, which was a pretty intense and awesome climb itself, to the peak of the boulders. The view was so spectacular, and my visuals where looking very nice at this point, and the music flowing into my ears so gently and smoothly, as it always does while on LSD.
T + 3h 30 m: As we sat on top of our mountain with no one else in sight for miles, my friends speaker system put me into another dimension. There is nothing better to me than the sound of music when I am on LSD, and I was just lying there with my good friends, talking about so much, enjoying the many colors and patterns I was experiencing OEV and CEV. The visuals were quite good, especially for a day trip, I always seem to have better visuals with LSD at night, but these were quite something. I would say I was at a ++++ at this point, everything was great.
T + 4h 30m: We decided to go walking around since we would like to explore the area more, so we walk, and this is when my trip really hits me. I am thinking very hard as I always do while on LSD, about so many things. Visual portion of the trip still going very strong, stronger than normal for me, and I start to slip...
T+ 5h: THIS IS VERY HARD TO PUT INTO WORDS. I will try to do it, but honestly words can not describe the place in my brain where I went for the next 4 hours. As we walked around the forest, my thoughts racing, I could not comprehend reality anymore. I knew I was tripping, but at the same time, I did not believe a reality existed, or myself existed. I know myself very well, and have tripped many times, but only once before have I been to this place in my mind. I was no longer a human, but I was a soul. I had very little control over my body at this point. No one really noticed I was tripping VERY hard, so everyone decided to go back to the car and go to my friends community pool. I somehow climbed back down the mountain we had been tripping on top of, getting very dirty in the process, tripping very hard the whole walk back to the car, thinking we had left my friend back in the forest (who wasn't even with us to begin with).
The car ride back to our area was extremely strange. I was so convinced we lived in a city that we didn't live in, and that we had lost one of my friends. It was a somewhat frightening experience, since I believed we had lost one of my best friends in the forest while he was on some strong LSD. I was completely in a daze at this point, with no perception of what reality actually was. I can't put my thoughts into words, since I was tripping so hard, but some things I can say are the following:
I was 100% sure that my life away from that day was completely fake, like a fake implanted memory, and that the trip was my whole life. My perception of time was COMPLETELY gone, and I guess its what I deserve since my line is that "there is no time." I am actually now sure that time is completely fake. I did not really know who I was, so I really wanted to smoke cannabis, and I kept saying I wanted to, even though I know, and my friends, who were NOT tripping nearly as hard as me at this point, knew I couldn't. The rest of the physical details are not really important to the reader, but I was doing some ridiculous stuff while in this "haze" state.
One example, just for fun
. I was given a skateboard by a friend of mine who knew I was tripping hard and wanted me to enjoy myself I guess, and I was skating around and a man and his son riding a moped ran into me going a good speed (I was in probably in their way). I didn't really notice, and went back over to my friends who were hysterically laughing, I burst out laughing and give all my friends daps for no reason. (My friend told me this the next day, I only slightly remember).T+ 8h: I eventually come out of this state of totally destroyed reality, but slowly. For the next hour I sit with my friends while they are smoking cannabis, trying to figure out if anything that just happened was real. I floated back into the trip on and off for the next hour or so, and eventually have to go home because of curfew. I was completely drained physically, psychologically, emotionally and in every way possible.
Looking back on this trip, I have mixed feelings. All my conceived knowledge of my universe has been smashed to pieces by this experience. I learned alot about myself, and alot about the power of LSD. I went into the trip with the desire to trip hard, and I tripped harder than I would have ever thought possible from two tabs.
Personally, I have many questions to the BL community about this trip.
First, what is anyones experience of going so deep into your own mind that you don't know what reality is, because I would like feedback on other peoples experiences with this aspect of my trip.
Second, WHY was the trip so powerful? Did the DXM use the night before boost the LSD's effects on me? That is what I thought, but I do not know. I have used LSD many times previous to this trip and never tripped close to this hard. (the only other time was when I ate an 8th of VERY potent dried mushrooms)...
Thanks for reading, feedback would be great, feel free to ask any questions because I know I left some stuff out, hopefully nothing too important...
Peace and Love.
