malakaix
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Disclaimer: I'm not usually very good at writing trip reports.. and i often end up writing them the day after coming down, i've waited a week to write this.. because it had such an impact on my life.. that i felt i needed to piece it back together thoroughly.
Background Info: This is really just what happened prior too where my trip really took off, but it still plays a minor role in my experience, you can skip this if you want.
My friend and i decided too check out a Psy Party going on about an hour out of town.. we headed down there around 10:30pm.. got there around 11:30pm and checked out the place, met up with some friends.. and i bought a few strawberry tabs from one of my friends. My friend had never tried LSD, and wasn't keen.. so we continued to look for ecstasy for him without luck.. i decided to drop two tabs around 12:00 midnight. Around 12:45am i started to feel nausea coming on.. and started to feel the LSD kick in.. we walked into the venue where the music was playing.. and i could feel the waves of music come over me and move my body.. the vibration of the bass felt enormously strong.. i was getting lots of fun visuals all around me.. even audio hallucinations.
We decided to leave early as he was sober and wanted to do something else.. i was tripping quite hard at this point and agreed to anything.. we left around 1:30am, he had to drive my car back as i was too far out of it.. i had never peaked on LSD whilst in a car.. but it was truly a magical experience.. it felt as if we were driving into mirrors, the road was endless, and eternity of distance, no corners, bends or curves.. just an eternal distance in front of us..
I grabbed a taxi back from his place and got home around 2:30am, i knew that i was still on the peak or yet too see the full extent of my trip.. so i settled in for what i knew was going to be an intense next 10hours exploring inside my mind.
The Beginning of a Self Discovery Journey:
This is where my self destruction and rebirth began.
I wasn't sure how this was going too go, i had always been keen to try tripping on my own.. and now i was experiencing it. I decided the first thing i wanted to do was put on some Psytrance music to tune my mind into.. at this point i wasn't getting anything very 'psychological' but i was getting some very fun visuals.. i continued to listen and watch as my reality slowly deconstructed itself.
I went too the bathroom around 3:00am and (as you do) i kinda got trapped in there been amused by what i was seeing.. i realized at one point i was moving my head faster then my sight could keep up.. which fascinated me. Almost like a time distortion.. I came back too my room about 10mins later and continued to just analyze everything that was going on around me.. it wasn't untill i noticed 3 puppies.. 1 with a bone in its mouth running towards me on my bedsheets that my mind suddenly snapped and i just became overwhelmed with thoughts.. so many thoughts i couldn't process what they were i just knew that i was over-thinking about everything.
I continued to sit there, confused, curious, anxious.. indescribable? The longer i sat there the more anxious and worried i became, worried about what? I couldn't even tell you.. i couldn't process what my mind was worrying over, fearing or trying to understand. It was as if it was stripping away my ego piece by piece.. i started to shake uncontrollably as if i had Parkinson's disease, i was grinding my teeth and looking all around me with my eyes.. i didn't know this place.. or why i was here. I was in a truly terrified state.. and i couldn't figure out why.. i didn't even know what i was terrified of or anxious about.. but it was happening.. i lay curled up on my bed shaking staring up at the ceiling.. and then it happened.. i died.
My entire self identity just disappeared.. i don't even remember what happened between then and when i opened my eyes.. all i remember is opening my eyes.. and looking down at my toes.. wiggling them and laughing, i sat forward and felt like a 3yr old kid in an adults body.. i felt 're-born' i stared in amusement at my surroundings.. my body, my fingers.. everything.. it felt like my mind was very rapidly re-learning.. i felt like i was piecing my ego back together the way i wanted it. I had just deconstructed and shattered my ego into pieces.. and now i was reconstructing it in the order i wanted.
Music quickly became an important factor in my reconstruction as i watched it bounce off my walls.. i held my hands into the air and watched them get sucked in too my headphones hanging a few meters from me like a black hole.. Sound sounded all so very clear and crisp.. i grabbed my headphones and put on a long psytrance set.. closed my eyes, and basically let it fine-tune my mind. I watched behind my eyelids the patterns of the music, and how it was re-organizing my mind.. building my ego back together.. making me strong minded.. (Opposed too the breaking point i was at before i lost my ego).
Because i was using headphones the sound waves of the music were flowing directly into my mind (instead of coming out of speakers from a distance) this caused my mind to connect onto the sound waves of the music.. allowing maximum flexibility with my body and all my muscles.. i couldn't believe how physically fit i felt.. i was able to bend my body in ways that were impossible before, instead of the music pulling me in that would normally occur with speakers.. it became part of me. I continued dancing and just truly having the most unbelievable feeling of satisfaction achievable, i felt like i accomplished something incredible.. i went to the deepest corners of my mind that it broke me down too nothing and returned stronger then before.. this overwhelming feeling of happiness, accomplishment and joy persisted throughout the morning and into the day.
I felt so fantastic i went on a 1hour walk in the sun too another suburb to collect my car from my friends house.. i couldn't keep the grin off of my face while walking down the street, the beauty of everything, life and all. I felt better then any ecstasy pill I've had.. once i collected my car i drove into the city.. and walked past the 'Earth from Above' public exhibition.. images of different parts of the world from an aerial perspective.. some of them were just breathtaking.. i was in the zone of the appreciation of life and nature.. so this just blew my mind. This finished off my trip.. i went home feeling amazing, a truly life-changing experience.. i see the world in a different light almost.
Thank you for anyone who read this far.. it was kind of long, and not that well written out, but i really wanted to share this experience for it had the most incredible impact on my life.
Background Info: This is really just what happened prior too where my trip really took off, but it still plays a minor role in my experience, you can skip this if you want.
My friend and i decided too check out a Psy Party going on about an hour out of town.. we headed down there around 10:30pm.. got there around 11:30pm and checked out the place, met up with some friends.. and i bought a few strawberry tabs from one of my friends. My friend had never tried LSD, and wasn't keen.. so we continued to look for ecstasy for him without luck.. i decided to drop two tabs around 12:00 midnight. Around 12:45am i started to feel nausea coming on.. and started to feel the LSD kick in.. we walked into the venue where the music was playing.. and i could feel the waves of music come over me and move my body.. the vibration of the bass felt enormously strong.. i was getting lots of fun visuals all around me.. even audio hallucinations.
We decided to leave early as he was sober and wanted to do something else.. i was tripping quite hard at this point and agreed to anything.. we left around 1:30am, he had to drive my car back as i was too far out of it.. i had never peaked on LSD whilst in a car.. but it was truly a magical experience.. it felt as if we were driving into mirrors, the road was endless, and eternity of distance, no corners, bends or curves.. just an eternal distance in front of us..
I grabbed a taxi back from his place and got home around 2:30am, i knew that i was still on the peak or yet too see the full extent of my trip.. so i settled in for what i knew was going to be an intense next 10hours exploring inside my mind.
The Beginning of a Self Discovery Journey:
This is where my self destruction and rebirth began.
I wasn't sure how this was going too go, i had always been keen to try tripping on my own.. and now i was experiencing it. I decided the first thing i wanted to do was put on some Psytrance music to tune my mind into.. at this point i wasn't getting anything very 'psychological' but i was getting some very fun visuals.. i continued to listen and watch as my reality slowly deconstructed itself.
I went too the bathroom around 3:00am and (as you do) i kinda got trapped in there been amused by what i was seeing.. i realized at one point i was moving my head faster then my sight could keep up.. which fascinated me. Almost like a time distortion.. I came back too my room about 10mins later and continued to just analyze everything that was going on around me.. it wasn't untill i noticed 3 puppies.. 1 with a bone in its mouth running towards me on my bedsheets that my mind suddenly snapped and i just became overwhelmed with thoughts.. so many thoughts i couldn't process what they were i just knew that i was over-thinking about everything.
I continued to sit there, confused, curious, anxious.. indescribable? The longer i sat there the more anxious and worried i became, worried about what? I couldn't even tell you.. i couldn't process what my mind was worrying over, fearing or trying to understand. It was as if it was stripping away my ego piece by piece.. i started to shake uncontrollably as if i had Parkinson's disease, i was grinding my teeth and looking all around me with my eyes.. i didn't know this place.. or why i was here. I was in a truly terrified state.. and i couldn't figure out why.. i didn't even know what i was terrified of or anxious about.. but it was happening.. i lay curled up on my bed shaking staring up at the ceiling.. and then it happened.. i died.
My entire self identity just disappeared.. i don't even remember what happened between then and when i opened my eyes.. all i remember is opening my eyes.. and looking down at my toes.. wiggling them and laughing, i sat forward and felt like a 3yr old kid in an adults body.. i felt 're-born' i stared in amusement at my surroundings.. my body, my fingers.. everything.. it felt like my mind was very rapidly re-learning.. i felt like i was piecing my ego back together the way i wanted it. I had just deconstructed and shattered my ego into pieces.. and now i was reconstructing it in the order i wanted.
Music quickly became an important factor in my reconstruction as i watched it bounce off my walls.. i held my hands into the air and watched them get sucked in too my headphones hanging a few meters from me like a black hole.. Sound sounded all so very clear and crisp.. i grabbed my headphones and put on a long psytrance set.. closed my eyes, and basically let it fine-tune my mind. I watched behind my eyelids the patterns of the music, and how it was re-organizing my mind.. building my ego back together.. making me strong minded.. (Opposed too the breaking point i was at before i lost my ego).
Because i was using headphones the sound waves of the music were flowing directly into my mind (instead of coming out of speakers from a distance) this caused my mind to connect onto the sound waves of the music.. allowing maximum flexibility with my body and all my muscles.. i couldn't believe how physically fit i felt.. i was able to bend my body in ways that were impossible before, instead of the music pulling me in that would normally occur with speakers.. it became part of me. I continued dancing and just truly having the most unbelievable feeling of satisfaction achievable, i felt like i accomplished something incredible.. i went to the deepest corners of my mind that it broke me down too nothing and returned stronger then before.. this overwhelming feeling of happiness, accomplishment and joy persisted throughout the morning and into the day.
I felt so fantastic i went on a 1hour walk in the sun too another suburb to collect my car from my friends house.. i couldn't keep the grin off of my face while walking down the street, the beauty of everything, life and all. I felt better then any ecstasy pill I've had.. once i collected my car i drove into the city.. and walked past the 'Earth from Above' public exhibition.. images of different parts of the world from an aerial perspective.. some of them were just breathtaking.. i was in the zone of the appreciation of life and nature.. so this just blew my mind. This finished off my trip.. i went home feeling amazing, a truly life-changing experience.. i see the world in a different light almost.
Thank you for anyone who read this far.. it was kind of long, and not that well written out, but i really wanted to share this experience for it had the most incredible impact on my life.
