nephil
Bluelighter
Substances:
LSD: Oral, approx. 1.5 doses dropped on 'Smarties' candy
5-meo-dipt: Snorted, approx 10mg
This report is from an experience I had about a month ago. The 5-meo was left over from a previous experience, my first, which was about 3 months ago. The LSD was happened upon and stored for a rainy day some time ago.
Previous Experience
LSD: I have had a few significant experiences with LSD, all positive, all very significant to me, and life-altering in some way.
5-meo-dipt: One prior experience, which I was not very impressed with. This previous experience involved an oral dosage of approx. 20mg. and had left me feeling indifferent about the substance.
Mindset---great! I was having a marvelous day, and decided early in the evening that I was in the mood for some psychadelic activity. My roommate was out of town, I accomplished alot that day, and I was ready for a small journey. I had not planned on having a super intense experience...just a relaxed, open minded journey into music and my senses.
setting---my apartment, during the second day of a 4 day snowfall here in Colorado.
Ok, here goes it...
I was in a very good mood, excited to just chill out in my apartment by myself after an epic day on the slopes. I had not planned on leaving the house anymore, so at around 6:30pm, I was ready.
6:30pm---i placed the first smartie in my mouth, and then went on to straighten up the house, for a dirty house and tripping do not go well together for me.
7:00pm---I start looking for mild signs of what was in store. I am very familiar with the come up of acid, the body twitches, the runny eyes, the gentle pressure of my smile being spread from ear to ear...but today I felt none of this, just simple anticipation which can be felt for anything if you are excited enough. I began to wonder about the quality of the acid, as I have not had doses from this particular batch yet.
I decided to take a hot bath, and relax my muscles and my soul from a heavy day of snowboarding, and to relieve my mind from anticipation. The bath lasted about 30 min., and when finished, I made another attempt to 'search' for signs of any 'activity' in my mind.
7:30---still not much, but I am starting to feel that warm fuzzy feeling in my face. It's almost like a headache, but not quite. Just feels as if my head is being pressed on from above, and my jaw is gently being pulled back toward my ears. An odd thing happens to me when I take LSD. For some reason, every time, my right eye seems to feel "sticky". As if it is filling up with tears, but they are not being released. It only happens in my right eye, and it seems to happen relative to the intensity of my trip. The more intense, the more I notice 'the eye'. I continue to just hang around the house, chatting on AIM a bit, and just waiting.
8pm--I was now about 2 hours into this experience, and decided to bite another smartie in half, and see what happened. Just before I did this, there was a knock on my door. It was my friend K, who was just stopping by to see what I was up to. He said he was in the mood for something, and I thought that was pretty odd. I did not mention the LSD to him, because I knew I did not have enough, but, I remembered that I had 2 10mg capsules of 5-meo-dipt, and pondered letting him have some.
I sat and thought about trying the combo. It frightened me a bit, as I have never heard of anyone trying this before. I decided to check Erowid's experience Vault to see if there was any reports on this combo.
I managed to find one or two, but that was all I needed. It seemed that the experiences were fairly good and safe for the most part, so I decided to give it a whirl. However, due to my previous 5-meo experience, I did not want to ingest it orally...too much stomach discomfort, waaay too much body load. So, again I read some reports of 'snorting' 5-meo, and it didn't seem to be that terrible.
9pm--I poured out one capsule, cut it into 4 very very tiny lines and K and I snorted 2 lines each.
The burn was not terrible, but the taste was far from pleasant. However, I felt no sense of stomach discomfort whatsoever.
20 minutes later, we decide to snort the other 10 mgs. Same procedure, only this time the taste was awful.
9:30pm--I am starting to notice a fuzziness about the room. Everything around me seemed to have an orange glow to it...edges of objects appearing soft and warm, yet clear and precise in the center. Everything seemed one dimensional, like I was looking at scenic watercolor paintings of the room.
K is now claiming to feel "something", and I suddenly remember the half dose of LSD that I had intended on taking. Before going for that dose,I first go into the bathroom. I notice the towels hanging on the rack are faintly blowing, as if some imaginary fan or vent is blowing air up underneath them, causing them to sway. At this point my mind is very clear, and I realize there is no air source in the bathroom and I get this rush of warmth and reassurance that my idea to comine these two was a good one. I go back out to the kitchen, eat the half dose, and then join K in the living room. We sit and bullshit, watch tv, listen to music for about 45 min. Then our friend J calls, asking us to come to a party. I decline, knowing that K would end up going, and leaving me to enjoy this experience in full on my own. I was more than happy to see him go, but the effects I was getting were not getting any more intense. I started wondering if maybe the 5-meo was counter-acting the LSD, and if I would just have to deal with this mellow plateau for the next few hours. I was kind of disappointed, but more like "oh well". It felt like the come up of a mushroom trip. Heavy, yet supple body, warm fuzziness all over the room, color enhancement---especially greens and reds, and still that 'eye' issue, but it lasted long enough for me to believe that that would be it.
11pm---I step out on my patio for a cigarette. As I had mentioned earlier, we were in the midst of a heavy snowfall, and the surfaces of the earth behind my house had been untouched. As soon as I step outside was when my world took a detour. The snow on the ground formed a squarish, abstract grid-like pattern of violet and yellow. The sparkling snow fall was creating a galaxy all around me. My eyes lit up in amazement, my head felt complete joy. I stood there, staring into the snowfall for quite some time when all of a sudden the world around me darkened and all I could see in front of me was this beautiful 'hole' filled with swirling purple and yellow lights. In these lights I saw the face of a woman as the lights seemed to be pulling me up toward them, pulling me up from my head, while my body seemed weightless, and even though it was about 18 degrees outside, I was completely warm and cozy in a sweatshirt and flannel pants. I came out of this 'hole' at my own will, took a drag of the cig, and then decided to go back inside feeling euphoric as hell!
For some reason, when I use LSD, I have this obsession with cleanliness. For that reason, and also for the sensory experience I decided to take another bath.
I draw the bath nice and hot and step in. I immediately submerge my whole body into the almost-scorching water. As I slowly come up, I am looking up at the ceiling, which has been becoming quite mildewy in the past few weeks. I start to sense that the mildew is eating the ceiling. In fact, at this point, I can literally see the mildew consuming the ceiling, slowly making its way into the corner, and spreading across the wall. It was as if I could see its microscopic movement in time, as if time for me had been slowed down so much that I could see the mildew in action as a living, thriving community.
I was highly entertained by this, and terribly interested in watching more. I also was delighted by the fact that my head was clearer than ever. All of my prior experiences with LSD had me in such a state of 'mindfuck' that it was difficult to instantly switch into any mode that I chose. This time was different. At any moment I had the power to change it up. No anxiety, no bad feelings, no confusion at all. I was so lucid and so completely able to decipher all of the events taking place in my mind.
about 1am---I decide to lie on my bed with my headphones on, and listen to some music. As I lie there, I stare at my starry ceiling, listening to the flow of the music. Suddenly the stars on the ceiling begin to whirl around rapidly in tiny little circles that seem to be getting bigger and bigger. At this point, they begin to form a visual rythym to flow along with the techy sounds of the drum and bass flowing into my ears. While lying there, completely still, I feel tiny little pulses moving from my left foot...up to my knee...bouncing on my thigh...hopping over to my arm...up the arm to the shoulder...tap the forehead...and then back down on the right, constantly repeating this pattern over and over. It felt as if someone was just gently pressing into my flesh with the tip of one finger, all in perfect sync with the music. At first, I had to look at my body because I thought maybe my kitten was touching me. She wasn't. So, I let it continue, for the feeling was wierd but very good indeed! When I close my eyes I am also getting an incredible show of CEV's, all in geometric, or spirographic patterns displaying a range of a hundred colors pouncing and pulsing, and morphing perfectly to the music.
After some time I open my eyes to once again witness the starry show. This time, while watching the stars spiral about the ceiling, I lose focus, and begin to be sucked back into the same hole I was experiencing outside. Colored lights in purple and yellow forming patterns, leaving dotted lines in my vision, revealing again the face of a beautiful woman. Even though I can see her face, I am mostly focused on her eyes which appear to be a dark, rich brown in color with the whitest whites. I start to wonder why this face is so significant. What in my mind brought about the face of a woman, and who is she?
I rose from my bed at this point and went back outside. By this time it was about 4 am and the world was in bed. I stood on my porch, noticing again the beauty of the white blanket covering the earth, the 3 dimensional purple and yellow grid-like pattern the peaceful silence. I notice the bare trees off to the east, perfectly symmetrical, raising thier many branches in acceptance of nature's nurturing gift to them.
The trees started dancing, gently waving to the sky, when I started to become aware of their energy. The world was completely silent around me, the only noise being the constant trickle of the wind rustling the branches, the sound of the snow being blown sideways at a constant motion. I began to see sparks of blue electricity pulsing in the trees. Like little bolts of blue lightning shooting from one branch to another, and then on up to the heavens. I noticed this in every tree in my field of vision. Seeing this was on the verge of being orgasmic. I was so clear headed that I knew exactly what to make of it. I was so thankful to witness the reality of nature's energy. Everything became symmetrical, everything had a blue halo around it, all meeting up with the glow of the mountains in the horizon. The halos, however, did not outline each object individually, instead, the halos connected each object, as if they were surrounding them as a whole. At this point I began to notice how connected I felt to this world. I began to say to myself..."this is what it is all about, this is pure beauty, unscarred, untainted. This is perfection, and I am sooooo happy to be involved in it."
I stayed outside to watch the sunrise begin, unaware of time or of my other surroundings. The only thing I was aware of was the beauty that lied in front of me, and the pleasure I felt.
I just stood in awe and contemplation for a long time, pretty much until I was ready to go to sleep. For the first time in my life I realized my status on this planet. I am not here to encounter problems caused by the realities of society. I am not here to be brought down by the pressures for sucess and wealth. I am here to experience the beauty in the world in every way shape and form, and I am here to accept this gift that I have been offered...to enjoy the world and all of its living creatures, and make each and every one of them as happy as I possibly can, no matter what.
Ever since this night, I feel that my mindset, and my outlook on existence in general has been permanently altered...all for the better. I had no moments of pure transcendence, and I didn't talk to God, so to speak, but I found my own heaven, and I have been changed forever
If you made it this far, thanks for reading
[ 07 December 2002: Message edited by: nephil ]
[ 07 December 2002: Message edited by: nephil ]
LSD: Oral, approx. 1.5 doses dropped on 'Smarties' candy
5-meo-dipt: Snorted, approx 10mg
This report is from an experience I had about a month ago. The 5-meo was left over from a previous experience, my first, which was about 3 months ago. The LSD was happened upon and stored for a rainy day some time ago.
Previous Experience
LSD: I have had a few significant experiences with LSD, all positive, all very significant to me, and life-altering in some way.
5-meo-dipt: One prior experience, which I was not very impressed with. This previous experience involved an oral dosage of approx. 20mg. and had left me feeling indifferent about the substance.
Mindset---great! I was having a marvelous day, and decided early in the evening that I was in the mood for some psychadelic activity. My roommate was out of town, I accomplished alot that day, and I was ready for a small journey. I had not planned on having a super intense experience...just a relaxed, open minded journey into music and my senses.
setting---my apartment, during the second day of a 4 day snowfall here in Colorado.
Ok, here goes it...
I was in a very good mood, excited to just chill out in my apartment by myself after an epic day on the slopes. I had not planned on leaving the house anymore, so at around 6:30pm, I was ready.
6:30pm---i placed the first smartie in my mouth, and then went on to straighten up the house, for a dirty house and tripping do not go well together for me.
7:00pm---I start looking for mild signs of what was in store. I am very familiar with the come up of acid, the body twitches, the runny eyes, the gentle pressure of my smile being spread from ear to ear...but today I felt none of this, just simple anticipation which can be felt for anything if you are excited enough. I began to wonder about the quality of the acid, as I have not had doses from this particular batch yet.
I decided to take a hot bath, and relax my muscles and my soul from a heavy day of snowboarding, and to relieve my mind from anticipation. The bath lasted about 30 min., and when finished, I made another attempt to 'search' for signs of any 'activity' in my mind.
7:30---still not much, but I am starting to feel that warm fuzzy feeling in my face. It's almost like a headache, but not quite. Just feels as if my head is being pressed on from above, and my jaw is gently being pulled back toward my ears. An odd thing happens to me when I take LSD. For some reason, every time, my right eye seems to feel "sticky". As if it is filling up with tears, but they are not being released. It only happens in my right eye, and it seems to happen relative to the intensity of my trip. The more intense, the more I notice 'the eye'. I continue to just hang around the house, chatting on AIM a bit, and just waiting.
8pm--I was now about 2 hours into this experience, and decided to bite another smartie in half, and see what happened. Just before I did this, there was a knock on my door. It was my friend K, who was just stopping by to see what I was up to. He said he was in the mood for something, and I thought that was pretty odd. I did not mention the LSD to him, because I knew I did not have enough, but, I remembered that I had 2 10mg capsules of 5-meo-dipt, and pondered letting him have some.
I sat and thought about trying the combo. It frightened me a bit, as I have never heard of anyone trying this before. I decided to check Erowid's experience Vault to see if there was any reports on this combo.
I managed to find one or two, but that was all I needed. It seemed that the experiences were fairly good and safe for the most part, so I decided to give it a whirl. However, due to my previous 5-meo experience, I did not want to ingest it orally...too much stomach discomfort, waaay too much body load. So, again I read some reports of 'snorting' 5-meo, and it didn't seem to be that terrible.
9pm--I poured out one capsule, cut it into 4 very very tiny lines and K and I snorted 2 lines each.
The burn was not terrible, but the taste was far from pleasant. However, I felt no sense of stomach discomfort whatsoever.
20 minutes later, we decide to snort the other 10 mgs. Same procedure, only this time the taste was awful.
9:30pm--I am starting to notice a fuzziness about the room. Everything around me seemed to have an orange glow to it...edges of objects appearing soft and warm, yet clear and precise in the center. Everything seemed one dimensional, like I was looking at scenic watercolor paintings of the room.
K is now claiming to feel "something", and I suddenly remember the half dose of LSD that I had intended on taking. Before going for that dose,I first go into the bathroom. I notice the towels hanging on the rack are faintly blowing, as if some imaginary fan or vent is blowing air up underneath them, causing them to sway. At this point my mind is very clear, and I realize there is no air source in the bathroom and I get this rush of warmth and reassurance that my idea to comine these two was a good one. I go back out to the kitchen, eat the half dose, and then join K in the living room. We sit and bullshit, watch tv, listen to music for about 45 min. Then our friend J calls, asking us to come to a party. I decline, knowing that K would end up going, and leaving me to enjoy this experience in full on my own. I was more than happy to see him go, but the effects I was getting were not getting any more intense. I started wondering if maybe the 5-meo was counter-acting the LSD, and if I would just have to deal with this mellow plateau for the next few hours. I was kind of disappointed, but more like "oh well". It felt like the come up of a mushroom trip. Heavy, yet supple body, warm fuzziness all over the room, color enhancement---especially greens and reds, and still that 'eye' issue, but it lasted long enough for me to believe that that would be it.
11pm---I step out on my patio for a cigarette. As I had mentioned earlier, we were in the midst of a heavy snowfall, and the surfaces of the earth behind my house had been untouched. As soon as I step outside was when my world took a detour. The snow on the ground formed a squarish, abstract grid-like pattern of violet and yellow. The sparkling snow fall was creating a galaxy all around me. My eyes lit up in amazement, my head felt complete joy. I stood there, staring into the snowfall for quite some time when all of a sudden the world around me darkened and all I could see in front of me was this beautiful 'hole' filled with swirling purple and yellow lights. In these lights I saw the face of a woman as the lights seemed to be pulling me up toward them, pulling me up from my head, while my body seemed weightless, and even though it was about 18 degrees outside, I was completely warm and cozy in a sweatshirt and flannel pants. I came out of this 'hole' at my own will, took a drag of the cig, and then decided to go back inside feeling euphoric as hell!
For some reason, when I use LSD, I have this obsession with cleanliness. For that reason, and also for the sensory experience I decided to take another bath.
I draw the bath nice and hot and step in. I immediately submerge my whole body into the almost-scorching water. As I slowly come up, I am looking up at the ceiling, which has been becoming quite mildewy in the past few weeks. I start to sense that the mildew is eating the ceiling. In fact, at this point, I can literally see the mildew consuming the ceiling, slowly making its way into the corner, and spreading across the wall. It was as if I could see its microscopic movement in time, as if time for me had been slowed down so much that I could see the mildew in action as a living, thriving community.
I was highly entertained by this, and terribly interested in watching more. I also was delighted by the fact that my head was clearer than ever. All of my prior experiences with LSD had me in such a state of 'mindfuck' that it was difficult to instantly switch into any mode that I chose. This time was different. At any moment I had the power to change it up. No anxiety, no bad feelings, no confusion at all. I was so lucid and so completely able to decipher all of the events taking place in my mind.
about 1am---I decide to lie on my bed with my headphones on, and listen to some music. As I lie there, I stare at my starry ceiling, listening to the flow of the music. Suddenly the stars on the ceiling begin to whirl around rapidly in tiny little circles that seem to be getting bigger and bigger. At this point, they begin to form a visual rythym to flow along with the techy sounds of the drum and bass flowing into my ears. While lying there, completely still, I feel tiny little pulses moving from my left foot...up to my knee...bouncing on my thigh...hopping over to my arm...up the arm to the shoulder...tap the forehead...and then back down on the right, constantly repeating this pattern over and over. It felt as if someone was just gently pressing into my flesh with the tip of one finger, all in perfect sync with the music. At first, I had to look at my body because I thought maybe my kitten was touching me. She wasn't. So, I let it continue, for the feeling was wierd but very good indeed! When I close my eyes I am also getting an incredible show of CEV's, all in geometric, or spirographic patterns displaying a range of a hundred colors pouncing and pulsing, and morphing perfectly to the music.
After some time I open my eyes to once again witness the starry show. This time, while watching the stars spiral about the ceiling, I lose focus, and begin to be sucked back into the same hole I was experiencing outside. Colored lights in purple and yellow forming patterns, leaving dotted lines in my vision, revealing again the face of a beautiful woman. Even though I can see her face, I am mostly focused on her eyes which appear to be a dark, rich brown in color with the whitest whites. I start to wonder why this face is so significant. What in my mind brought about the face of a woman, and who is she?
I rose from my bed at this point and went back outside. By this time it was about 4 am and the world was in bed. I stood on my porch, noticing again the beauty of the white blanket covering the earth, the 3 dimensional purple and yellow grid-like pattern the peaceful silence. I notice the bare trees off to the east, perfectly symmetrical, raising thier many branches in acceptance of nature's nurturing gift to them.
The trees started dancing, gently waving to the sky, when I started to become aware of their energy. The world was completely silent around me, the only noise being the constant trickle of the wind rustling the branches, the sound of the snow being blown sideways at a constant motion. I began to see sparks of blue electricity pulsing in the trees. Like little bolts of blue lightning shooting from one branch to another, and then on up to the heavens. I noticed this in every tree in my field of vision. Seeing this was on the verge of being orgasmic. I was so clear headed that I knew exactly what to make of it. I was so thankful to witness the reality of nature's energy. Everything became symmetrical, everything had a blue halo around it, all meeting up with the glow of the mountains in the horizon. The halos, however, did not outline each object individually, instead, the halos connected each object, as if they were surrounding them as a whole. At this point I began to notice how connected I felt to this world. I began to say to myself..."this is what it is all about, this is pure beauty, unscarred, untainted. This is perfection, and I am sooooo happy to be involved in it."
I stayed outside to watch the sunrise begin, unaware of time or of my other surroundings. The only thing I was aware of was the beauty that lied in front of me, and the pleasure I felt.
I just stood in awe and contemplation for a long time, pretty much until I was ready to go to sleep. For the first time in my life I realized my status on this planet. I am not here to encounter problems caused by the realities of society. I am not here to be brought down by the pressures for sucess and wealth. I am here to experience the beauty in the world in every way shape and form, and I am here to accept this gift that I have been offered...to enjoy the world and all of its living creatures, and make each and every one of them as happy as I possibly can, no matter what.
Ever since this night, I feel that my mindset, and my outlook on existence in general has been permanently altered...all for the better. I had no moments of pure transcendence, and I didn't talk to God, so to speak, but I found my own heaven, and I have been changed forever
If you made it this far, thanks for reading
[ 07 December 2002: Message edited by: nephil ]
[ 07 December 2002: Message edited by: nephil ]
