bikki_muncher69
Bluelighter
Where the f**k’s my reality gone!!! by bikki_muncher69
LSD (second time) MDMA (experienced) Nitrous (experienced)
I’m writing this trip report to tell all you fellow bluelighters of the totally insane cosmic experience I had at a rave last weekend so here goes.
It was 9pm at the train station and the beginning of a journey that would take me to what id been waiting for all week, the rave everyone had been talking about, saying it was one of the best ones of the year and if you didn’t go to the last one this particular DJ crew were holding then you’d better not miss this one!! M and myself were so pumped up we couldn’t contain the excitement, m kept on wanting to drop her pills but I told her to wait until we got there and that she would be thanking me for it later.
At about 10.30pm after a 1 hour train ride and a taxi driver that didn’t know how to drive!! We had finally arrived at the secret warehouse venue where the rave was being held. When we got inside it was pretty empty, there were a few people scattered around the place and the people holding the event were drawing designs in white chalk on the ground of weird trippy things hat glowed under the uv light. 11pm came and M and I could no longer hold on, it was time to drop the pills. I consumed 1 ½ pills that were of a fairly decent quality (rated 8 on pillreports.com) and meg consumed 1 of the pills I had half a pill that was rated 9 on pillreports and half a speed pill.
11.30 came and my god did it hit me fast like a punch in the face in no time I was peaking off my head and I was defiantly in that perfect MDMA zone where I was energetic, tingly and wanted to shuffle my ass off(it’s a dance for you non Melbournians)!!! Not smacked out or scattered it was what I can only describe as divine ECSTACY!! Meg on the other hand was quite fucked and didn’t want to move so I left her with some kind fellow ravers and hit the dance floor. Talcum powder was put over to created a slidy surface and I practiced my shuffling skills DJ’s were pumping out some awesome jungle drum and bass sounds on a fairly decent sound system. Shuffled for a while talked to some other fellow ravers. I got back to where M was and she had recovered from her MDMA smackyness and decided we do some nitrous bulbs I was first so I loaded 3 into the chamber and right when I did that the hard trance started to play.
Took 3 big lungful’s and that was the end of me, I entered nangland and en fully understood the meaning of how trance gets its name, I went totally hypnotic, my eyes were wide open and I was traced by the lazers and beats pulsating forward I could hear meg shoving me and then the girl next to me say “haha he’s there man he is fucking there” after about a minute I came out of my trance did the rest of what was in the bulbernator and then had the most amazing dance of my life.
I went back to where the otheres were chilling and M said it was time for the acid:D. I had acquired some liquid LSD put onto sugar cubes that was about 130mic’s but from what I had been told fucking strong and that one cube was pleanty, I decided to have two at 12am seeing as a friend told me he had taken 2 cubes and had the most intence cosmic experience of his life. At around 1am what I had been waiting to hear had finally come, the Acid techno/trance set about 30 mins after that the effects of the LSD became quite apparent things were getting quite psychedelic and my thought processes were defiantly altered I danced for awhile then went back to meg and decided to have some more bulbs, which greatly intensified the acid and I started to comeup quite nicely. At around 1am I walked onto the dancefloor and I new I was there. The decorated shrooms that were drapin from the celeing started to glow from the uv lights and the raver phatties were glowing brighter than anything kind of like the glow you would imagine from nuclear radiation. Nsdead of the usual fast shuffling it was as if the ravers I were watching were flowing suspended and just gliding, one of the most incredible things I have ever experienced in my life.
The DJ started to mix the two tracks into each other, the beat was out of sync for a few seconds then he baught it together nicely and this amazing fluent sound that made my whole body shiver came across in waves and a female vocal over the top repeating “ACID TRANCE TRANCE TRANCE” I ran up to the closest person I could find grabed thair hands and started dancing and hugging them spinning around in circles experiencing this new reality my mind was creating. Twirling was amazing on the acid I had incredible ability to balance and was just flowing feeling the air not just as air, but as particle and matter there was more to everything than met the ey I could feel everything flowing through my body smell and taste everything I looked up at the dj’s and they were breathing and morphing flowing with the music like a desert mirage.
I went back and fell into meg in the bean bag she was lyeing in and decided to have some nitrous bulbs , I had 2 full lungfulls and entered the void, I was suspended in a place in my head where time and space had no meaning I was in the moment and was dissecting every piece of it with my increased mental abilitys, coming out of the nanghole I was expecting normality but instead I got even more MESSED UP!!! I collapsed into myself with meg all over her inside out all over we were collapsing into each other it was the most intence part of an acid tripp I have had yet, I had one more bulbs and completely let go of all my fear’s worries and let reality consume me.
After I had got a sense of how to walk talk communicate ect… I got up ad went outside to the chill area and had a chat to some psychedelic dudes about life and exsistance I said to them “what is the purpose of exsistae” and they said to me what do you think “ I just said “who cares!!” it dosent matter we are living things in this space and time so lets enjoy the moment” one of the experienced psychedelic dudes smil at me and said “good good that’s the right way to think:D” I looked at one of the other psychedelic dudes and then just opened my arms and embraced the night sky he did the same and I said “ this cant be all to exsistance, there is more to it than us, we are humans humans are stupid you put us in a place and we go”where are me man, fuck I dunno bu who cares”!! and if there was something else out there they wouldent care about us, humans think they are so special because we live on this world in the middle of nowhere but really we don’t mean anything and are exsistance means a lot less compared to the rest of the universe!. He completely agreed with me, I went and sat down next to this other tripper who was smileing and looking at things and I said to him “its not very fucking right is it!!” we both laughed at how messed up everything looked and then he peak started to begin.
It was about 3am by this stage and my goodness did things get messed up or what, I started to create this world in my head, a society for myself for which I lived in and it consisted of other trippers that I was looping with that night, we lived in a neighborhood and were going to a party. I quite like this world that I had created it was simple and easy I had friends and we were going to a party in the same neighborhood I got in some major loops with my phone (in the morning I had about 50 messages saying “hey” in my unsent message box) and with the trippers enjoying this reality then the acid peaked harder and my reality I had created got so incredibly fucked up, I knew right then something was very very very wrong and that thewre was no coming back now! The world I had created got shattered and I freaked out so hard I started crying, laughing jumping around in circles and clinging onto people babbleing random words to them. From this point on I was truly fucked up. I went into the rave and found meg babbled something about her laoding me a bulb and she understood I had that and it took me out of the shock I was still pretty damm fucked up but at least I had a sense that I was just on acid and everything was going to be allright.
It was about 4am by this time and I decided to have a dance, dancing was very fucking cool but I was continually getting more and more fucked up. I laid down for a while on a mattress on the floor then went outside and babbled stuff to other trippers and had entire conversations about the question of the question of the whatever in that place over the hill inside the moon in total babble nothing made sense but I was ok, I was dealing with it. I sat outside for a while and I was guessing it was about 5am when I went back into the rave because that’s when the psytrance started. I got a major fuckup of my senses and lost all sense of where I was in the rave I had my senses overloaded and everything was a whirr and one massive fucked up sound into one I wasn’t really freaking out as I had let go and I was coping with the acid pretty well I continued to twirl around and dance.
Then the bad thoughts started to enter my head, I thought, “what if I’m not actually at e raver anymore and all this is going on inside my head, what if I’m near a main road, the lazer lights from the rave started to resemble the lights of police cars and I could see the checkered blue and white of police cars all around me and what I though were lots of police hats but I couldn’t see police, I continuously had people coming up to me asking my name and if I was all right because I was guessing I was standing there freaking out, I didn’t want to move because I thought if I did I could walk onto the main road I thought I was on meg came up to me and kind of snapped me out of it and I realized that I was still at the rave and everything was ok but i was still kind of freaked from that but not overly.
Meg told me to grab up all my shit and that we had gotten ourselves a lift home I remember going from the inside of the dark rave to the outside where it was so light, the sun was just starting to come up. Im guessing its about 6.30 7am by this stage and I kind of lost track of memory but from what I can remember I was clinging to this girl I was sitting with in the back seat of the car saying “don’t worry everything will be ok, its allright, its ok, were all fine, don’t worry” and so on over and over again, I guess I was still kinda freaked from the slight bad tripp but I was ok dealing with it quite well. I ended up throwing up in my mouth swallowing it again then the guy who was driving us pulled over and I munted a whole lot of stomach bial which was pretty gross but I elt a lot better after that.
The car ride was weird yet beautiful, the sunrise and clouds were amazing and I just kept repeating wow, this is amazing wow, wow and I can remember looping in the car tripp, it was like I would see the sing go over the hill, see the sign go over the hill and that was basically all I remember from the car Trip. We ended up at a train station and I had no idea what to do from there M was telling me to go home but I had no idea what that meant so they waited at the station until the train came and then put me on a train heading to the city.
On the train ride nothing made sense, I was on a line I don’t normally take and I had no idea what I was doing there or why I was on this train then things started to get weird again. I came slightly out of th tripp for a little while and had time to regain my bareings and what had happened in the night and everything was making sense so I thought oh yea sweet its all good now, well what had happened was the train was stuck on the station and wasent moving anywhere so I got up opened the doors of the train to have a look and I asked this woman why the train wasn’t going (this is where I think reality has ended) for people who have done acid in public before you will probably know that when your on acid you think that everyone else is tripping well this woman said to me looking like she was tripping balls “the train cant move if the driver dosent know how to drive the train” (I think she said something like that) and then I looked at other people on the train and thought they were all tripping as well. I started laughing like a madman and seriously thought that while I had been at the rave reality had just fucked up and everything just gone wrong because when I asked other people on the train why it wasn’t moving they did that typical “I don’t know why the things not moving” I was laughing so hard people were looking at me funny by now. I was seriously expecting the train driver to say “ahhhhh, I don’t know what I’m supposed to do to make this thing in this place move hahahahha” I asked the woman on the train “did you go through it as well!!! Do you notice somthings really wrong here!!! Because something seems very fucked up” she gave me a weird look then I relised that I was the one that was tripping”
The train finally started moving again and before I knew it I was in the city, I was standing in the middle of the platform watching all the people walk in and out of the train rushing and hurrying and I was totally gob smacked, I was this observer of life, I saw people that were confused and that look of human stupidity the look of “what am I meant to do living here in this moment of space and time look” and it was on so many people faces, just not knowing what to do or whats coming next.
I proceeded to get some food from macdonalds and on the way I saw some Goths and thinking, hmm yea they might have tried acid I went up to them and asked “have you ever woken up one day to find that there is something really messed up with reality” they kinda looked at me weird and mumbled yea, I guess I must have been looking pretty shocking with a pale face and crazy acid eyes. I went into MacDonald’s baught a bacon and egg mc muffin befre getting in strange loops around the city and every time I tried to eat my muffin I would be put off by the salts raising up and morphing into all these odd patterns and eyes and weird ancient letters.
I couldn’t work out how to get home by train so I caught a cab home and had an interesting talk with the driver about existence and reality ect…. When I got home it was about 8.30 9.00am and I tried to sleep without success and to my surprise I had one box of nitrous bulbs left in my bag, I charged up 4 bulbs into the soda dispenser and took 4 deep lungfulls and figured out the ultimate question to life, the question of the question of the question of the question to keep on questioning the question that can only keep questioning
and the shape of the question as well…….. ill explain it. After I had the bulb I heard in my head what sounded like Hebrew jewish type speaking(im in no way Jewish or do I know any Jews which is why this is weird) it was something that sounded like vavooshca or baboooscha and I saw this shape which was this line that had what looked like waves, 3 wave’s to be excact and this word and line went on for eternity in my head until it was just a small pinging noise. I’ve worked out that the jewish people knew something about the start of exsistence but I’m not convinced of any god ect… its just they know something about the question and why the question is the question it is but in no way know the answer but that my just theory:D
We’ll I hope you enjoyed the read, here are some pic’s sorry if the story is abit scattered but im telling it like it was, its been a week since the experience and I am very spiritually enlightened, the part of the bad trip that I had helped me to relies I needed to fix some things in my life and I have done so and have come off a much better person:D remember with acid you must be carefull in most cases with acid less is better than more and higher doses should only be taken by people that are very strong mentally, even if you think you can handle it be aware if you disrespect acid, acid will disrespect you :D
LSD (second time) MDMA (experienced) Nitrous (experienced)
I’m writing this trip report to tell all you fellow bluelighters of the totally insane cosmic experience I had at a rave last weekend so here goes.
It was 9pm at the train station and the beginning of a journey that would take me to what id been waiting for all week, the rave everyone had been talking about, saying it was one of the best ones of the year and if you didn’t go to the last one this particular DJ crew were holding then you’d better not miss this one!! M and myself were so pumped up we couldn’t contain the excitement, m kept on wanting to drop her pills but I told her to wait until we got there and that she would be thanking me for it later.
At about 10.30pm after a 1 hour train ride and a taxi driver that didn’t know how to drive!! We had finally arrived at the secret warehouse venue where the rave was being held. When we got inside it was pretty empty, there were a few people scattered around the place and the people holding the event were drawing designs in white chalk on the ground of weird trippy things hat glowed under the uv light. 11pm came and M and I could no longer hold on, it was time to drop the pills. I consumed 1 ½ pills that were of a fairly decent quality (rated 8 on pillreports.com) and meg consumed 1 of the pills I had half a pill that was rated 9 on pillreports and half a speed pill.
11.30 came and my god did it hit me fast like a punch in the face in no time I was peaking off my head and I was defiantly in that perfect MDMA zone where I was energetic, tingly and wanted to shuffle my ass off(it’s a dance for you non Melbournians)!!! Not smacked out or scattered it was what I can only describe as divine ECSTACY!! Meg on the other hand was quite fucked and didn’t want to move so I left her with some kind fellow ravers and hit the dance floor. Talcum powder was put over to created a slidy surface and I practiced my shuffling skills DJ’s were pumping out some awesome jungle drum and bass sounds on a fairly decent sound system. Shuffled for a while talked to some other fellow ravers. I got back to where M was and she had recovered from her MDMA smackyness and decided we do some nitrous bulbs I was first so I loaded 3 into the chamber and right when I did that the hard trance started to play.
Took 3 big lungful’s and that was the end of me, I entered nangland and en fully understood the meaning of how trance gets its name, I went totally hypnotic, my eyes were wide open and I was traced by the lazers and beats pulsating forward I could hear meg shoving me and then the girl next to me say “haha he’s there man he is fucking there” after about a minute I came out of my trance did the rest of what was in the bulbernator and then had the most amazing dance of my life.
I went back to where the otheres were chilling and M said it was time for the acid:D. I had acquired some liquid LSD put onto sugar cubes that was about 130mic’s but from what I had been told fucking strong and that one cube was pleanty, I decided to have two at 12am seeing as a friend told me he had taken 2 cubes and had the most intence cosmic experience of his life. At around 1am what I had been waiting to hear had finally come, the Acid techno/trance set about 30 mins after that the effects of the LSD became quite apparent things were getting quite psychedelic and my thought processes were defiantly altered I danced for awhile then went back to meg and decided to have some more bulbs, which greatly intensified the acid and I started to comeup quite nicely. At around 1am I walked onto the dancefloor and I new I was there. The decorated shrooms that were drapin from the celeing started to glow from the uv lights and the raver phatties were glowing brighter than anything kind of like the glow you would imagine from nuclear radiation. Nsdead of the usual fast shuffling it was as if the ravers I were watching were flowing suspended and just gliding, one of the most incredible things I have ever experienced in my life.
The DJ started to mix the two tracks into each other, the beat was out of sync for a few seconds then he baught it together nicely and this amazing fluent sound that made my whole body shiver came across in waves and a female vocal over the top repeating “ACID TRANCE TRANCE TRANCE” I ran up to the closest person I could find grabed thair hands and started dancing and hugging them spinning around in circles experiencing this new reality my mind was creating. Twirling was amazing on the acid I had incredible ability to balance and was just flowing feeling the air not just as air, but as particle and matter there was more to everything than met the ey I could feel everything flowing through my body smell and taste everything I looked up at the dj’s and they were breathing and morphing flowing with the music like a desert mirage.
I went back and fell into meg in the bean bag she was lyeing in and decided to have some nitrous bulbs , I had 2 full lungfulls and entered the void, I was suspended in a place in my head where time and space had no meaning I was in the moment and was dissecting every piece of it with my increased mental abilitys, coming out of the nanghole I was expecting normality but instead I got even more MESSED UP!!! I collapsed into myself with meg all over her inside out all over we were collapsing into each other it was the most intence part of an acid tripp I have had yet, I had one more bulbs and completely let go of all my fear’s worries and let reality consume me.
After I had got a sense of how to walk talk communicate ect… I got up ad went outside to the chill area and had a chat to some psychedelic dudes about life and exsistance I said to them “what is the purpose of exsistae” and they said to me what do you think “ I just said “who cares!!” it dosent matter we are living things in this space and time so lets enjoy the moment” one of the experienced psychedelic dudes smil at me and said “good good that’s the right way to think:D” I looked at one of the other psychedelic dudes and then just opened my arms and embraced the night sky he did the same and I said “ this cant be all to exsistance, there is more to it than us, we are humans humans are stupid you put us in a place and we go”where are me man, fuck I dunno bu who cares”!! and if there was something else out there they wouldent care about us, humans think they are so special because we live on this world in the middle of nowhere but really we don’t mean anything and are exsistance means a lot less compared to the rest of the universe!. He completely agreed with me, I went and sat down next to this other tripper who was smileing and looking at things and I said to him “its not very fucking right is it!!” we both laughed at how messed up everything looked and then he peak started to begin.
It was about 3am by this stage and my goodness did things get messed up or what, I started to create this world in my head, a society for myself for which I lived in and it consisted of other trippers that I was looping with that night, we lived in a neighborhood and were going to a party. I quite like this world that I had created it was simple and easy I had friends and we were going to a party in the same neighborhood I got in some major loops with my phone (in the morning I had about 50 messages saying “hey” in my unsent message box) and with the trippers enjoying this reality then the acid peaked harder and my reality I had created got so incredibly fucked up, I knew right then something was very very very wrong and that thewre was no coming back now! The world I had created got shattered and I freaked out so hard I started crying, laughing jumping around in circles and clinging onto people babbleing random words to them. From this point on I was truly fucked up. I went into the rave and found meg babbled something about her laoding me a bulb and she understood I had that and it took me out of the shock I was still pretty damm fucked up but at least I had a sense that I was just on acid and everything was going to be allright.
It was about 4am by this time and I decided to have a dance, dancing was very fucking cool but I was continually getting more and more fucked up. I laid down for a while on a mattress on the floor then went outside and babbled stuff to other trippers and had entire conversations about the question of the question of the whatever in that place over the hill inside the moon in total babble nothing made sense but I was ok, I was dealing with it. I sat outside for a while and I was guessing it was about 5am when I went back into the rave because that’s when the psytrance started. I got a major fuckup of my senses and lost all sense of where I was in the rave I had my senses overloaded and everything was a whirr and one massive fucked up sound into one I wasn’t really freaking out as I had let go and I was coping with the acid pretty well I continued to twirl around and dance.
Then the bad thoughts started to enter my head, I thought, “what if I’m not actually at e raver anymore and all this is going on inside my head, what if I’m near a main road, the lazer lights from the rave started to resemble the lights of police cars and I could see the checkered blue and white of police cars all around me and what I though were lots of police hats but I couldn’t see police, I continuously had people coming up to me asking my name and if I was all right because I was guessing I was standing there freaking out, I didn’t want to move because I thought if I did I could walk onto the main road I thought I was on meg came up to me and kind of snapped me out of it and I realized that I was still at the rave and everything was ok but i was still kind of freaked from that but not overly.
Meg told me to grab up all my shit and that we had gotten ourselves a lift home I remember going from the inside of the dark rave to the outside where it was so light, the sun was just starting to come up. Im guessing its about 6.30 7am by this stage and I kind of lost track of memory but from what I can remember I was clinging to this girl I was sitting with in the back seat of the car saying “don’t worry everything will be ok, its allright, its ok, were all fine, don’t worry” and so on over and over again, I guess I was still kinda freaked from the slight bad tripp but I was ok dealing with it quite well. I ended up throwing up in my mouth swallowing it again then the guy who was driving us pulled over and I munted a whole lot of stomach bial which was pretty gross but I elt a lot better after that.
The car ride was weird yet beautiful, the sunrise and clouds were amazing and I just kept repeating wow, this is amazing wow, wow and I can remember looping in the car tripp, it was like I would see the sing go over the hill, see the sign go over the hill and that was basically all I remember from the car Trip. We ended up at a train station and I had no idea what to do from there M was telling me to go home but I had no idea what that meant so they waited at the station until the train came and then put me on a train heading to the city.
On the train ride nothing made sense, I was on a line I don’t normally take and I had no idea what I was doing there or why I was on this train then things started to get weird again. I came slightly out of th tripp for a little while and had time to regain my bareings and what had happened in the night and everything was making sense so I thought oh yea sweet its all good now, well what had happened was the train was stuck on the station and wasent moving anywhere so I got up opened the doors of the train to have a look and I asked this woman why the train wasn’t going (this is where I think reality has ended) for people who have done acid in public before you will probably know that when your on acid you think that everyone else is tripping well this woman said to me looking like she was tripping balls “the train cant move if the driver dosent know how to drive the train” (I think she said something like that) and then I looked at other people on the train and thought they were all tripping as well. I started laughing like a madman and seriously thought that while I had been at the rave reality had just fucked up and everything just gone wrong because when I asked other people on the train why it wasn’t moving they did that typical “I don’t know why the things not moving” I was laughing so hard people were looking at me funny by now. I was seriously expecting the train driver to say “ahhhhh, I don’t know what I’m supposed to do to make this thing in this place move hahahahha” I asked the woman on the train “did you go through it as well!!! Do you notice somthings really wrong here!!! Because something seems very fucked up” she gave me a weird look then I relised that I was the one that was tripping”
The train finally started moving again and before I knew it I was in the city, I was standing in the middle of the platform watching all the people walk in and out of the train rushing and hurrying and I was totally gob smacked, I was this observer of life, I saw people that were confused and that look of human stupidity the look of “what am I meant to do living here in this moment of space and time look” and it was on so many people faces, just not knowing what to do or whats coming next.
I proceeded to get some food from macdonalds and on the way I saw some Goths and thinking, hmm yea they might have tried acid I went up to them and asked “have you ever woken up one day to find that there is something really messed up with reality” they kinda looked at me weird and mumbled yea, I guess I must have been looking pretty shocking with a pale face and crazy acid eyes. I went into MacDonald’s baught a bacon and egg mc muffin befre getting in strange loops around the city and every time I tried to eat my muffin I would be put off by the salts raising up and morphing into all these odd patterns and eyes and weird ancient letters.
I couldn’t work out how to get home by train so I caught a cab home and had an interesting talk with the driver about existence and reality ect…. When I got home it was about 8.30 9.00am and I tried to sleep without success and to my surprise I had one box of nitrous bulbs left in my bag, I charged up 4 bulbs into the soda dispenser and took 4 deep lungfulls and figured out the ultimate question to life, the question of the question of the question of the question to keep on questioning the question that can only keep questioning
and the shape of the question as well…….. ill explain it. After I had the bulb I heard in my head what sounded like Hebrew jewish type speaking(im in no way Jewish or do I know any Jews which is why this is weird) it was something that sounded like vavooshca or baboooscha and I saw this shape which was this line that had what looked like waves, 3 wave’s to be excact and this word and line went on for eternity in my head until it was just a small pinging noise. I’ve worked out that the jewish people knew something about the start of exsistence but I’m not convinced of any god ect… its just they know something about the question and why the question is the question it is but in no way know the answer but that my just theory:DWe’ll I hope you enjoyed the read, here are some pic’s sorry if the story is abit scattered but im telling it like it was, its been a week since the experience and I am very spiritually enlightened, the part of the bad trip that I had helped me to relies I needed to fix some things in my life and I have done so and have come off a much better person:D remember with acid you must be carefull in most cases with acid less is better than more and higher doses should only be taken by people that are very strong mentally, even if you think you can handle it be aware if you disrespect acid, acid will disrespect you :D
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