Space__Kitten
Bluelighter
I had posted this elsewhere but it really belongs here. Ok I'm just now starting to come down (almost 24 hours later) . It started around 8 yesterday at fist I took the morning glory, 10.5 of seeds. I felt odd right away and that stayed with me the next several hours. I had my alarm ok my phone set, at the hour mark I made been smoking weed and waiting for the morning glories still, I decided to eat the edibles. After eating the edibles I have small nausia pains and still feel a bit off so I just chill. I had my alarm set again @ the 2 hour mark, when I was going to take my dxm. I'm just now really starting to feel a synergy and I notice everything is moving and flowing, I get up and decided to go get my dxm going. When I first started tripping I was in aw of the trails and the pure pleasure I felt, I wanted to never leave here. There were colorful puzzle pieces spinning on the celieng and the room kept on warping out of shap. My bf was tripping hard at this point. I kept feeling myself burst from the past and then to the present and future. I watched passed life's with my significant other, then going deep in space and then going on set of a weastern. I kept repeating that everyone needs to do this, feel complete bliss. Even the thought of things like eating and food and sex seem so small and insignificant and like primal animal that if aliens visited us this night they would have seen humans as emotional simple animals that sit and worry about the most silly things. Like how children irrationally cry over spilled milk and humans cry over broken relationships...well aliens, cry over nothing. I saw them visiting us and how easy they could kill us, they don't represent guilt or anything like that.
During this whole time my bf and I are struggling to roll a ciggerette by bf is convinced that things against him and some force wasn't allowing himself to create it. So I tried and tried also and realized I think the packer is broken. I still try to make a usable ciggerette, I go and sit outside and smoke but honestly I can't even feel myself smoke but I have a sense of pleasure. I repeatedly keep seeing lights and thinkgs out of the corner of my eye, I felt like we might have been turned in to someone. I went inside and had the realization that if this is what brain dead is like, I choose being brain dead, if this is what forgetting about every trouble and worry in my life then this is the option. I couldn't think about work or my family, all I knew about was the greater good. My bf and I keep randomly crying, I see myself with my eyes open on the streets strung out like this, brain dead useless, crap of society and in this complete bliss...strangers pass, even people I know, but I don't care, I am too content here, I wanna stay like this for the rest of my lift. Through out the night we randomly turn the lights on then off then in again, testing the intensity of everything. At one point I was smoking outside again but something scared me and I went back inside and brought the ciggerette, by bf mentioned it (we don't smoke inside) I just let him know I had to come back inside. Right now I just sort of woke up from my trip, I'm still in a fog, after glory like hell except I'm for some reason really hungry, I might try to smoke again. Oh btw I learned like the meaning behind every gorillaz song and that was intense. Ill get back on here later when I come down some
During this whole time my bf and I are struggling to roll a ciggerette by bf is convinced that things against him and some force wasn't allowing himself to create it. So I tried and tried also and realized I think the packer is broken. I still try to make a usable ciggerette, I go and sit outside and smoke but honestly I can't even feel myself smoke but I have a sense of pleasure. I repeatedly keep seeing lights and thinkgs out of the corner of my eye, I felt like we might have been turned in to someone. I went inside and had the realization that if this is what brain dead is like, I choose being brain dead, if this is what forgetting about every trouble and worry in my life then this is the option. I couldn't think about work or my family, all I knew about was the greater good. My bf and I keep randomly crying, I see myself with my eyes open on the streets strung out like this, brain dead useless, crap of society and in this complete bliss...strangers pass, even people I know, but I don't care, I am too content here, I wanna stay like this for the rest of my lift. Through out the night we randomly turn the lights on then off then in again, testing the intensity of everything. At one point I was smoking outside again but something scared me and I went back inside and brought the ciggerette, by bf mentioned it (we don't smoke inside) I just let him know I had to come back inside. Right now I just sort of woke up from my trip, I'm still in a fog, after glory like hell except I'm for some reason really hungry, I might try to smoke again. Oh btw I learned like the meaning behind every gorillaz song and that was intense. Ill get back on here later when I come down some
