Pretty_Diamonds
Bluelight Crew
Does that sound completely CRAZY? Or what..?
So...,
I used to trip A LOT and had like virtually NO anxiety (well, I was a teen BUT it was only a 3-4 years ago.. )
BUT STILL.
So after a few.. experiences.. I got crazy anxiety.. into benzos (not that bad off and on and only low dose to help me sleep).
& completely stopped tripping.
With anxiety comes fears (because your brain attempts to rationalize the anxiety) such as bugs, intruders, etc.
This was all stuff that I was FINE when tripping (acid, shrooms, dxm), I was able to FACE them and center myself (refocus on something else, don't pay attention to the bugs), intruders (thinking you're in a war zone but it's OK because you're able to center yourself, position yourself away--mentally--from all the chaos).
Does that make sense? Obviously it opens you up to become even MORE traumatized but what if I was able to face my fears and get rid of my anxiety? I was just reading my "trippin notes": Focus, center, you are you, you are complete, you're OK, feel your inner self, you control YOU, let this take over, it's OK.
I was even thinking low dose hippy flip you know to kind of ensure that positive vibe? But, I feel like I should already have that in the inner ME and not even need to artificially produce that?
So...,
I used to trip A LOT and had like virtually NO anxiety (well, I was a teen BUT it was only a 3-4 years ago.. )
BUT STILL.
So after a few.. experiences.. I got crazy anxiety.. into benzos (not that bad off and on and only low dose to help me sleep).
& completely stopped tripping.
With anxiety comes fears (because your brain attempts to rationalize the anxiety) such as bugs, intruders, etc.
This was all stuff that I was FINE when tripping (acid, shrooms, dxm), I was able to FACE them and center myself (refocus on something else, don't pay attention to the bugs), intruders (thinking you're in a war zone but it's OK because you're able to center yourself, position yourself away--mentally--from all the chaos).
Does that make sense? Obviously it opens you up to become even MORE traumatized but what if I was able to face my fears and get rid of my anxiety? I was just reading my "trippin notes": Focus, center, you are you, you are complete, you're OK, feel your inner self, you control YOU, let this take over, it's OK.
I was even thinking low dose hippy flip you know to kind of ensure that positive vibe? But, I feel like I should already have that in the inner ME and not even need to artificially produce that?
