Its weird, because for most of my life I didnt believe in love. I didn't see it or feel it, I didn't want it or deny it, I simply did not conceive the concept or idea of it.
It was last year that I first got a glimpse of it for the first time. I met a girl, and she was the most amazing girl I had ever met. I loved her, I really did, but she didn't love me. It was a one way street. The feeling was horrible when she told me she didn't feel the same, and my world began to spiral downwards. I felt worse than I did in my whole life. I pretended I was OK, I told people I was, I smiled and laughed when I really didn't want to.
I got over her, I wrote letter after letter, which I never sent to her, and after reading all of them, I realized... fuck that bitch. Yeah she is a nice girl, with an honest heart and good intentions, and yeah maybe im just not her type or whatever. But seriously... fuck her. She fucked me over, she knew
I was falling for her, she knew how I felt, yet she strung me along because she loved all the things I did for her, the way I treated her, the way I made her feel. She fucked me, then avoided me for a month only to never be the same again.
But this girl... this girl I met about 5 months ago, whom at first I didn't really pay that much attention to, has got me all flustered and has my heart beating faster just thinking about her. Shes amazing in every way. Shes everything I want in a girl and more. Not only is she intelligent, funny, caring, and any other awesome trait you can think of, but she is the most beautiful girl I have ever met. I look at her and... words cannot even begin to describe her... whether its her amazing eyes that change colour, her distinctively blonde hair or the most awesome body i've ever known.. it all just, turns me on so fucking much.
We have been hanging out for the last 3 or 4 weeks regularly, probably every 2nd day if not more, and yet unlike other people, especially girls, I just never get sick of her. We hung out for 4 days strait last week and... I still enjoyed her company as much as I did the first day if not more.
Had sex for the first time with her last week, and it was truly amazing. We've done it a few times since and each time it just gets better and more intense. I dont think I've ever had sex like this with anyone else.
And its funny, because everytime we spooned before we started having sex, I never ever could get an erection. Like I mean, she is so hot, and her body is so good, and I could just not get it up with her, until she kissed me for the first time. And since then, my libido has come back. Its like I knew subconsciously that she was not just a piece of meat like all the other girls, but that she was something different, something special, and that I wanted to love her, not fuck her.
She does so many amazing things for me and always makes me feel good about who I am as a person. It's all been honest too, and I havnt lied to her once. I see no need, and no reason too. This is one of the things I love the most about her - That she accepts and appreciates, me for who I truly am.
I'm truly attached, and I'm loving it. I'm loving her, and I'm loving love.
It was last year that I first got a glimpse of it for the first time. I met a girl, and she was the most amazing girl I had ever met. I loved her, I really did, but she didn't love me. It was a one way street. The feeling was horrible when she told me she didn't feel the same, and my world began to spiral downwards. I felt worse than I did in my whole life. I pretended I was OK, I told people I was, I smiled and laughed when I really didn't want to.
I got over her, I wrote letter after letter, which I never sent to her, and after reading all of them, I realized... fuck that bitch. Yeah she is a nice girl, with an honest heart and good intentions, and yeah maybe im just not her type or whatever. But seriously... fuck her. She fucked me over, she knew
I was falling for her, she knew how I felt, yet she strung me along because she loved all the things I did for her, the way I treated her, the way I made her feel. She fucked me, then avoided me for a month only to never be the same again.
But this girl... this girl I met about 5 months ago, whom at first I didn't really pay that much attention to, has got me all flustered and has my heart beating faster just thinking about her. Shes amazing in every way. Shes everything I want in a girl and more. Not only is she intelligent, funny, caring, and any other awesome trait you can think of, but she is the most beautiful girl I have ever met. I look at her and... words cannot even begin to describe her... whether its her amazing eyes that change colour, her distinctively blonde hair or the most awesome body i've ever known.. it all just, turns me on so fucking much.
We have been hanging out for the last 3 or 4 weeks regularly, probably every 2nd day if not more, and yet unlike other people, especially girls, I just never get sick of her. We hung out for 4 days strait last week and... I still enjoyed her company as much as I did the first day if not more.
Had sex for the first time with her last week, and it was truly amazing. We've done it a few times since and each time it just gets better and more intense. I dont think I've ever had sex like this with anyone else.
And its funny, because everytime we spooned before we started having sex, I never ever could get an erection. Like I mean, she is so hot, and her body is so good, and I could just not get it up with her, until she kissed me for the first time. And since then, my libido has come back. Its like I knew subconsciously that she was not just a piece of meat like all the other girls, but that she was something different, something special, and that I wanted to love her, not fuck her.
She does so many amazing things for me and always makes me feel good about who I am as a person. It's all been honest too, and I havnt lied to her once. I see no need, and no reason too. This is one of the things I love the most about her - That she accepts and appreciates, me for who I truly am.
I'm truly attached, and I'm loving it. I'm loving her, and I'm loving love.