I lost everything through drinking. It was not until i had nothing, that i realised i have a problem.I ran my own cleaning business and employed 25 people at peak times. As the pressure rose i began experimenting with strong lager as i was drinking too much 4-5 % lagers. I began drinking kestrel super, only 1 in the morning and 1 at lunch to begin with. As time wore on i began drinking more. At the peak of my drinking problem i was drinking 8-10 cans per day, everyday. I was a complete mess. I lost my wife, she had an affair with my best friend, who took advantage of my drink problem. I started sleeping with some of my female employees, who also took advantage of my vulnerability as an alcoholic.. I lost my house in a messy divorce, now worth £760,000. I just signed it over to the ex, as i was so pissed all the time i did not care. I declared myself bankrupt 12 months ago due to massive business debt, £278,000, all caused by being too pissed all the time. I live in a hostel for the homeless and cannot begin to explain how stupid i feel. I cannot blame the beer, as i was the one pouring it down. What i can say, is, enjoy a drink but dont let it take over your life.
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Lost everything to the drink
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tripnotyzm
Bluelighter
Sorry about your situation man.
Seems like the drink has brought you down to rock bottom
You're not alone.
It is very common for people to fall victim to alcoholism and run off the tracks like this.
Now that you are at a dead end, with no where really to go, you need to start planning your next moves.
Are you still drinking frequently now that you are bankrupt & living in a hostel??
If you are, you know this is not going to help your situation.
You should consider attending a nearby AA meeting..
It may not really be your thing. But it will more than likely help if you can express your self and relate to a room full of other people who are suffering in much similar ways to you.
Alcohol is a killer. It has damaged many people around me...
But you still have time for another chance. You just have to build your sober self back up
Hang in there dude. The day will come when you can look back on these days and thank the universe for a second chance.
Seems like the drink has brought you down to rock bottom
You're not alone.
It is very common for people to fall victim to alcoholism and run off the tracks like this.
Now that you are at a dead end, with no where really to go, you need to start planning your next moves.
Are you still drinking frequently now that you are bankrupt & living in a hostel??
If you are, you know this is not going to help your situation.
You should consider attending a nearby AA meeting..
It may not really be your thing. But it will more than likely help if you can express your self and relate to a room full of other people who are suffering in much similar ways to you.
Alcohol is a killer. It has damaged many people around me...
But you still have time for another chance. You just have to build your sober self back up
Hang in there dude. The day will come when you can look back on these days and thank the universe for a second chance.
Vaya
Bluelight Crew
I am going to move this to Sober Living, with the highest of hopes that you may find the support network you needed so desperately right now... my heart goes out to you.
As an aside, i, too, am picking up the pieces of my life after a DUI conviction in December. It has been, without a doubt, the roughest time of my life. But recall this: "What we can do is to change ourselves. For if we keep doing what we are doing, we will continue getting what we've gotten."
~ Vaya
my heart goes out to you.As an aside, i, too, am picking up the pieces of my life after a DUI conviction in December. It has been, without a doubt, the roughest time of my life. But recall this: "What we can do is to change ourselves. For if we keep doing what we are doing, we will continue getting what we've gotten."
~ Vaya
mrflowers00
Ex-Bluelighter
what you went through is why i hate most women but don't give up on happiness because you were with a woman to self absorbed to try to get you help for your drinking that instead fucked your friend and took your home you will eventually find a good, honest, and most importantly loving woman
Thanks for the kind words everyone, it really does help and its nice to know i'm not alone, I've been cutting down on my drink gradually, i was only drinking 2 cans per day and i haven't had a drink since 2 days ago, This feels like hell and the thought of not drinking alcohol again is hard to take in as it doesn't seem like it will ever happen. But i'm sticking at it because if i don't ill never get up from rock bottom.
aliencowstorm
Bluelighter
One thing about rock bottom is there's only one direction from there. Have you also thought about checking out an AA meeting? It might help as well.
aliencowstorm
Bluelighter
I love that one. It works really well for me this early in sobriety. It's yet another way to keep things simple.
aliencowstorm
Bluelighter
I'm starting to get a feeling of peace now that I've got a little time under my belt.
Man, you remind me of just how much my current addiction stems from not addressing old issues with women. I can really relate to what mr. flowers is saying here, and I agree with you on this. dicanio66 , don't give up because of what this one woman has done. The best thing I've been able to do for myself after getting fucked over by girlfriends and having bad luck in relationships is just to let it go, and forgive them. It might take time, but it can be done. That doesn't mean you have to associate with them or fuck them or anything. Just forgiving them, and realizing that its a choice they made and had nothing to do with you.
I'm sorry, I don't mean to derail. Anyway, I am in a similar situation with dicanio66. Do anything you can to get your dopamine flowing and take your mind off the immediate suckiness of life. Like, for example I've been just riding my bike long distances because I've been so broke/strung out/depressed and lots of other crappy things that going on a little excursion on my bike really helps clear my head and get my MIND off the SHITTINESS.....I think what we decide to focus on really does make a difference.
Jabberwocky
Frumious Bandersnatch
Your situation sounds similar to mine in that we both lost ourselves and something we've worked hard for. I'm day 4 into sobriety. Have attended 2 AA meetings this week and will probably attend some more as I don't want to be relapsing. I see the meetings more of a support group and it makes me feel like I'm not the only one who struggles whilst I also enjoy hearing the stories from the older people as it serves as a reminder of where my future will lay if I don't take action etc....
Am 28 now and alcohol has robbed me enough I finished my masters of business in management 2 years ago and still haven't used it as in my last semester I was drinking like crazy and speeding all the time. As such when I finished I took 2 months off and after that I began applying for work but got nothing and whilst this was all going on I drank like a MF, 12 - 18 beers a day seemed to be the average. Any how I watched my days go by as I became more and more of a slob and when I couldn't afford the booze I borrowed off others as I haven't been working. Shit at home also got bad, the folks couldn't understand why I'm not working etc...Whilst all of this was going on my depression and anxiety kept on growing until eventually I couldn't take it no more and I moved out telling family and friends I was staying at a friends whilst in reality I've been living in my car for the last 3 months.
Am back on track now sort of, have been doing a taxi course and once I begin working and paying off debts, I'll look at getting back to a office job or opening up something myself.
Overall this drug is a piece of shit, I wouldn't recommend it to anyone. I still have ex drinking buddies who'll never get out of this and whilst they keep on drinking themselves to death they fail to realise that they are robbing themselves day in, day out.
Don't let this sad piece of shit liquid get to you !!!
Am 28 now and alcohol has robbed me enough I finished my masters of business in management 2 years ago and still haven't used it as in my last semester I was drinking like crazy and speeding all the time. As such when I finished I took 2 months off and after that I began applying for work but got nothing and whilst this was all going on I drank like a MF, 12 - 18 beers a day seemed to be the average. Any how I watched my days go by as I became more and more of a slob and when I couldn't afford the booze I borrowed off others as I haven't been working. Shit at home also got bad, the folks couldn't understand why I'm not working etc...Whilst all of this was going on my depression and anxiety kept on growing until eventually I couldn't take it no more and I moved out telling family and friends I was staying at a friends whilst in reality I've been living in my car for the last 3 months.
Am back on track now sort of, have been doing a taxi course and once I begin working and paying off debts, I'll look at getting back to a office job or opening up something myself.
Overall this drug is a piece of shit, I wouldn't recommend it to anyone. I still have ex drinking buddies who'll never get out of this and whilst they keep on drinking themselves to death they fail to realise that they are robbing themselves day in, day out.
Don't let this sad piece of shit liquid get to you !!!
LilbabiC
Bluelighter
Hey OP don't feel stupid because you are learning something that many people who have never had an addiction will never grasp. Through recovery you are learning self awareness. That is such a valuable gift.
Six years, six months and 22 days ago I reached rock bottom with a heroin addiction. I lost everything, house, cars, kids, career, and self-respect. I thought I'd never be able to find my way back to a good life. But, I got it all back and more through hard work. You can you do it too, so good luck and always stay positive.
Six years, six months and 22 days ago I reached rock bottom with a heroin addiction. I lost everything, house, cars, kids, career, and self-respect. I thought I'd never be able to find my way back to a good life. But, I got it all back and more through hard work. You can you do it too, so good luck and always stay positive.
alexvolume2
Bluelighter
I've been struggling with alcohol addiction as well for the last 7 years or so, but really badly in the past 5, and terribly in the last 2. I'm afraid of what's coming next, quite frankly. I calculated my loss of my relationship of 7 years to the woman I love, my DWI arrest, crack addiction, heroin addiction, getting the living shit beaten out of me, and numerous hospitalizations and short (thankfully) stints of homelessness...and you know what? My abuse of alcohol is the thread that runs through it all.
Right now I live with my mother, and unemployed, and am coming out of another serious alcohol related depression. Alcohol makes my symptoms much worse to the point of suicidal thinking and a complete inability to function. I had 60 days 5 years ago, 45 days since April 4th, and now two days since I fell off when I got out of rehab on the 15th of May.
It sucks, but I'm more motivated now to get my life on track since I've so little now that it is hard for it to be worse ATM. I go to AA, express myself and my struggles there and it really helps. I've finally been able to be open at meetings and it is a great catharsis. I am not a Christian and struggle with the 12 steps, but I am a spiritual person and I still pray with the group at meetings if simply for the whole of the group. I hope you feel better soon OP, after a period of not drinking I think you will. Medications can help as well. Best wishes.
Right now I live with my mother, and unemployed, and am coming out of another serious alcohol related depression. Alcohol makes my symptoms much worse to the point of suicidal thinking and a complete inability to function. I had 60 days 5 years ago, 45 days since April 4th, and now two days since I fell off when I got out of rehab on the 15th of May.
It sucks, but I'm more motivated now to get my life on track since I've so little now that it is hard for it to be worse ATM. I go to AA, express myself and my struggles there and it really helps. I've finally been able to be open at meetings and it is a great catharsis. I am not a Christian and struggle with the 12 steps, but I am a spiritual person and I still pray with the group at meetings if simply for the whole of the group. I hope you feel better soon OP, after a period of not drinking I think you will. Medications can help as well. Best wishes.
It may get to the point where you dont actually want a drink at all ,As odd as this sounds it may actually be somewhat repulsive to you .