I used MDMA for the first time about 6 months ago, and have done it about once a month since. Every experience up until the one I had last night were the most intense, spiritual, emotional experiences of my life. My first few trips were just with my friends in small groups and it felt like we were all learning so much about each other even though we were already pretty close. I remember my first time rolling I felt as if a 4 hour trip wasn't enough because I had so much to talk about :D.
Last night me and some friends went to go get more from our friend but it wasn't the same stuff (it was still powder, but much more refined than the crystalline substance we had before). He had told us it was a higher grade so my expectations were very high. Once we dropped and I was starting to feel the buzz, I was surprised at how calm it was. It was still basically the same high but not quite as overwhelming, the urge to talk was there but not near as strong. Later on we did another hit and it hit harder than the first, but still relatively calm compared to my earlier trips.
I heard people talk about loss of magic but I thought it took a while, or that you had to do it all the time. I did speed the night before last and didn't sleep and I'm wondering if that had some effect on my roll, or if it's something to do with the actual substance.
Last night me and some friends went to go get more from our friend but it wasn't the same stuff (it was still powder, but much more refined than the crystalline substance we had before). He had told us it was a higher grade so my expectations were very high. Once we dropped and I was starting to feel the buzz, I was surprised at how calm it was. It was still basically the same high but not quite as overwhelming, the urge to talk was there but not near as strong. Later on we did another hit and it hit harder than the first, but still relatively calm compared to my earlier trips.
I heard people talk about loss of magic but I thought it took a while, or that you had to do it all the time. I did speed the night before last and didn't sleep and I'm wondering if that had some effect on my roll, or if it's something to do with the actual substance.