At the end of last summer i was introduced to Crack. The first time I tried hard was in an upstairs apartment with my friend Josh with a couple of long term Crack users. I was drunk and feeling more then a little inquisitive. my first hit was like a breath of fresh air in the middle of winter; the hit blew my eyes wide and my state of being into the sky. however I realized that I felt that Crack was a hollow experience. I used it with Josh and the people upstairs on the occasions that him and I went to party with his dad ( his dad lives in the downstairs apartment) and the people upstairs.
Everything was fine until Josh moved into his dads apartment about 6 or 7 months ago. I broke up with my girl friend around that time and i felt that she took all of my friends away except for Josh. i increasingly started to hang out with Josh until it became a near everyday thing. The relationship became a sickly relationship (although i failed to realize it) Josh became addicted to me because i was his only friend and i became addicted to him because i felt good that some one needed me. when I started my late Febuary semester at college for some credits before i moved away for college in september i started to hang out with Josh less and less in order to preform well in school. In lieu of my presence Josh started to venture to the upstairs more often. with drugs Josh hit the ground not jogging not even running, but sprinting; he would work all week and then spend it on friday, and have nothing left for Saturday. he neg;ected to pay for rent or even buy food which lead to his dad becoming vitamin B-12 defficent. I didnt know how bad his addiction was until I started hanging around him more during the middle of the semester. in short i lent in 500 which he has only paid back a portion. he borrowed money off of various loan stores and his bank.
He told me everything would get better once he moved because he would be away from it. I being naive belived him. when he moved into his new apartment he brought the dealers number with him. he has lived there for only a month and has no food and now probably can not afford his apartment for the next month because he goes on binges when ever he gets paid and blows his money his money, and because of last night; him and I went through 300-400 of crack 90% of it being his money. I try to monitor it and help him, but it never works. I got over to his house and we hang out and i say i dont want to do it and that he shouldnt either, but slowly wears me down every single time until i cave in
He is one of my best friends, but im thinking that the time has come to cut him lose out of my life completely because he offers nothing positive to my life except friendship, however that friendship is starting pale in comparison the negative effects his crack addiction has taken on me. lastly his crack addiction is also a constant reminder to my own painfull addiction to MDMA and anything that would get me higher of off MDMA ( Yes you can be addicted to MDMA and it is a terrible expereince)
Do any of you have advice on the subject?
Everything was fine until Josh moved into his dads apartment about 6 or 7 months ago. I broke up with my girl friend around that time and i felt that she took all of my friends away except for Josh. i increasingly started to hang out with Josh until it became a near everyday thing. The relationship became a sickly relationship (although i failed to realize it) Josh became addicted to me because i was his only friend and i became addicted to him because i felt good that some one needed me. when I started my late Febuary semester at college for some credits before i moved away for college in september i started to hang out with Josh less and less in order to preform well in school. In lieu of my presence Josh started to venture to the upstairs more often. with drugs Josh hit the ground not jogging not even running, but sprinting; he would work all week and then spend it on friday, and have nothing left for Saturday. he neg;ected to pay for rent or even buy food which lead to his dad becoming vitamin B-12 defficent. I didnt know how bad his addiction was until I started hanging around him more during the middle of the semester. in short i lent in 500 which he has only paid back a portion. he borrowed money off of various loan stores and his bank.
He told me everything would get better once he moved because he would be away from it. I being naive belived him. when he moved into his new apartment he brought the dealers number with him. he has lived there for only a month and has no food and now probably can not afford his apartment for the next month because he goes on binges when ever he gets paid and blows his money his money, and because of last night; him and I went through 300-400 of crack 90% of it being his money. I try to monitor it and help him, but it never works. I got over to his house and we hang out and i say i dont want to do it and that he shouldnt either, but slowly wears me down every single time until i cave in
He is one of my best friends, but im thinking that the time has come to cut him lose out of my life completely because he offers nothing positive to my life except friendship, however that friendship is starting pale in comparison the negative effects his crack addiction has taken on me. lastly his crack addiction is also a constant reminder to my own painfull addiction to MDMA and anything that would get me higher of off MDMA ( Yes you can be addicted to MDMA and it is a terrible expereince)
Do any of you have advice on the subject?
