Project Will
Bluelighter
I haven't been active on here in ages. Anyway, I quit using hard opiates about a year ago (~1g H insufflated at peak) daily equivalent, also using the old formula 80 OC, the old yellow stop sign 40mg Opanas before they fucked up and made OPs and new Opana. but never got into needles (thank Christ!)
Believe it or not, I only used lopermide. I never had any withdrawal symptoms, but I've been using loperamide ever since. I also know many people here won't believe me, and if you are one of those people I respectfully ask that you not comment.
Every time I try to get off, I go through these insanely long withdrawals. I've lowered the dose down from a staggering 400mg a day to 150mg a day. Even tapering down to where I am now has sucked.
I know its not funny, but counting out each pill (when they are 2mg pills) takes a while, so its +/- 6mg daily. I know I need to do a longer taper but I also have to get through the day without looking like a sweating, shitting, anxious, dysphoric mess. It feels like I'm on a constant hallucinogen comedown if you know what I mean (big pupils, clammy hands, weird feeling/flushed face, looking in the mirror and you see a weird version of yourself.)
The job I have is a great one, and I can't lose it over this shit. I read so many posts and been around BL for so long I know I just need to fucking deal with it - there is no magic cure.
Moral of the story: Loperamide WD is real and it is fucking terrible. If you use it to get off opiates, use it sparingly and for a short period of time.
Believe it or not, I only used lopermide. I never had any withdrawal symptoms, but I've been using loperamide ever since. I also know many people here won't believe me, and if you are one of those people I respectfully ask that you not comment.
Every time I try to get off, I go through these insanely long withdrawals. I've lowered the dose down from a staggering 400mg a day to 150mg a day. Even tapering down to where I am now has sucked.
I know its not funny, but counting out each pill (when they are 2mg pills) takes a while, so its +/- 6mg daily. I know I need to do a longer taper but I also have to get through the day without looking like a sweating, shitting, anxious, dysphoric mess. It feels like I'm on a constant hallucinogen comedown if you know what I mean (big pupils, clammy hands, weird feeling/flushed face, looking in the mirror and you see a weird version of yourself.)
The job I have is a great one, and I can't lose it over this shit. I read so many posts and been around BL for so long I know I just need to fucking deal with it - there is no magic cure.
Moral of the story: Loperamide WD is real and it is fucking terrible. If you use it to get off opiates, use it sparingly and for a short period of time.
