THE_REAL_OBLIVION
Bluelight Crew
Alright, a month ago I've used my dexedrine script, which I rarely do, but I still accumulate boatloads of it, hey it's free. After that occurence, maybe it's because of the autumn/winter being practically here and barely any light being around, but I get so TIRED afterwards it's criminal. I can sleep 18 to 20 hours a day...normally I'd do that but only once or twice and then be back with my regular energy/awake schedule. I get up to eat and do minimal stuff and then I can just unhealthily sleep those hours, it's been a week now since I've been up for 2 days after using around 60-70mg of dexedrine IR and spansules. I've taken just 10mg IR tonight because I have shit to do, I have a brand new bed for my messed up back and I can't be arsed to install it and get that shit futon out of my bedroom. I know that back pain can cause bad sleep, all to well, and this could make things worse. I decided to take max 30mg today (my script calls for 30mg, 2x10mg spansules in the morning, 10mg IR at 3-4pm) just so I can see if I can get out of this fog...it worked the 2 last times, but then i pushed it and went to "recreational" doses. (I don't see what is recreational with obsessively classing all my data on all my hard drives, even accidentally deleting my random funny image folder...I noticed that today, wtf?) Last time I stayed up for 3 days and a half in fact and I was feeling HORRIBLE at the end, it took 2mg of xanax and some hydroxyzine to kill the extreme panic just one hit of weed I had before deciding to go to bed. So let's say I learned my lesson, I may be getting too old to stay up for days on Dex.
Now how do I get back to normal? I take all the other meds I should be taking which are supposed to be give me energy (weekly shot of testosterone), hydrocortisone 10mg pills bid.... In fact after I had that Cortef scripted to me I became so much more the real me, but just for a short amount of time, my girlfriend is starting to be annoyed by my desolate state of hypersomnia/anhedonia. Same for me. Co-Q10 did a good job in the past but I have to have the pharmacy order it for me, no pharmacy stocks it under usual circumstances around here. I'm sick of feeling like I have shit-for-brains and a body made of molasses.
Now how do I get back to normal? I take all the other meds I should be taking which are supposed to be give me energy (weekly shot of testosterone), hydrocortisone 10mg pills bid.... In fact after I had that Cortef scripted to me I became so much more the real me, but just for a short amount of time, my girlfriend is starting to be annoyed by my desolate state of hypersomnia/anhedonia. Same for me. Co-Q10 did a good job in the past but I have to have the pharmacy order it for me, no pharmacy stocks it under usual circumstances around here. I'm sick of feeling like I have shit-for-brains and a body made of molasses.
