joeyfornowya
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- Dec 29, 2018
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I was using Oxy for about two years.
I got off that and was fine except I always felt like I needed to drink alcohol because I wasn't right. It was like my mind could never relax. I think this is because the Oxy rewired my brain after it was in my system for so long. I rarely used Oxy to get high, I would use it to just feel relaxed and was fine with that. I guess we're all different. I was stressed, so that was my way to de-stress.
Now that everything in my life is stable, all good I have been on Suboxone for about 3 years.
I am tapering off, I don't have cravings I just get off of whatever I am using and taking meds doesn't do jack for me. Anti-depressants do not make me feel better. So, I usually start drinking just so I can relax.
I feel like I need to be on Suboxone for the rest of my life just to feel normal and happy. When I take it I am 100% functional as I have ever been. I actually feel great. It's like my own form of an anti-depressant. I do not use it to get high and I have no desire to get "high". I have a desire to be successful, I am driven but I know when I am off suboxone I will feel like I can't relax again, my doctor will give me some shit anti-depressant and I will feel like garbage again.
What can I take or exercise can I do to feel better? My doctors tried every med. for depression but that is not the solution? Will working out and doing a ton of cardio do that trick? Whatever I need to do, I will do it. I just don't know what to do.
I got off that and was fine except I always felt like I needed to drink alcohol because I wasn't right. It was like my mind could never relax. I think this is because the Oxy rewired my brain after it was in my system for so long. I rarely used Oxy to get high, I would use it to just feel relaxed and was fine with that. I guess we're all different. I was stressed, so that was my way to de-stress.
Now that everything in my life is stable, all good I have been on Suboxone for about 3 years.
I am tapering off, I don't have cravings I just get off of whatever I am using and taking meds doesn't do jack for me. Anti-depressants do not make me feel better. So, I usually start drinking just so I can relax.
I feel like I need to be on Suboxone for the rest of my life just to feel normal and happy. When I take it I am 100% functional as I have ever been. I actually feel great. It's like my own form of an anti-depressant. I do not use it to get high and I have no desire to get "high". I have a desire to be successful, I am driven but I know when I am off suboxone I will feel like I can't relax again, my doctor will give me some shit anti-depressant and I will feel like garbage again.
What can I take or exercise can I do to feel better? My doctors tried every med. for depression but that is not the solution? Will working out and doing a ton of cardio do that trick? Whatever I need to do, I will do it. I just don't know what to do.