Misc Long term DXM effects

[ResemblesNothing]

Alright, before I get into the core details of this post I would like to say a few things.

-I am a drug addict, and I have been one for quite some time. It is debatable that drug addicts are born into this plight, but that is for another post at another time. I have been to rehab several times and to be honest I am tired of dealing with the bullshit that I have done to my mind and body in the past 9 years.
-I know some of you will look at the title of this post and get the incredibly insightful thought that you are better than me because your D.O.C. may be cocaine or heroine or some other SAFE drug. If you are one of these people please click the back button on your browser, no harm done before you want to let loose the shit frothing from your brain onto the keyboard in front of you. If you still wish to make your ignorance known to me and the masses, you will get a lengthy pm reaming you a nice new double-wide asshole about how much of a dumbass you really are.
-I shit you not people. I have seen others throw their lives away because of this very drug and several other SAFE illicit drugs, this has become very real for me over the past few months.

-This is not a life story, It is a dark period in my life where I was struggling, I am simply worried for my own well-being and would like some knowledge from others who have dealt with this sort of issue in the past.

I smoked weed and popped pills for a period of six years before I got heavy set into codeine and opana. I did opiates for about two years before I got tired of drug dealers pan-handling and nickle and dimming for every bit of money I had. I got paranoid, I thought all of my friends were only there to get high, and all of my drug dealers wanted to fuck me out of my money, so I let that shit go. I started lying to doctors to try and get pills, but it simply was not possible for a perfectly healthy, 21 year old man to get a legitimate script for pain medication. I began looking everywhere I could for euphoria and stumbled across good ol' DXM. Safe to say I thought it was an answer from god. I could go to a store and get as high as I wanted without hassle from any other person. Dealing with cops? non existent. Dealers fucking me over? not anymore. I started using it everyday in doses of 750 mg or more depending on how I felt. This went on for four months before I realized I was fucked. My hands constantly shook, I had snowy vision, and was severed from all emotional ties. I had made myself a zombie. This was last December, almost to the very day. Since then I have accepted what my issues are and am dealing with them head on.

-I am still experiencing some slurred speech, my hands still shake (violently at times), my vision can be blurred and snowy at times, and I have incredibly bad anxiety. I hate dealing with other people. If someone or a group of people show interest in me, I become paranoid, always looking for the reason of why they show this "interest" in me. I still struggle everyday and would consider myself to be "unstable" based on some of my actions in the past, the last time I touched the stuff was the 15th of last December. I have been sober ever since.

-So there you have it. Any advice would be truly appreciated. Thank you in advance.

 

[Thorns Have Roses]

DXM is an SNRI, and your symptoms seem to fit those of withdrawal (and high dose use), though the duration of adverse symptoms seems unusually long.

Also please check out the long term effects of DXM thread.

 

[4evrLkn]

I don't really have any advice for you, except that you are doing a great job staying clean and realize what kind of situation you put yourself in. A lot of people don't until its too late. I am too an addict, and know how hard it is to steer clear of your DOC. I just really encourage you to keep in the clean path you're on, and just take it one day at a time. I've never done DXM but one time, so I can't really speak to all the side effects that come with it, but an addiction is an addiction, so keep your head up, and stay on the path you're on. Good job!

 

[Ketamike]

I didn't read your thread but I figure I'd share that I've heard numerous people say that they dry heave when they walk down the cold and cough aisle of a drug store.... y'know.. after immersing themselves in the legal high culture... I'm told I'm an addict.

 

[Flabu]

YOU SUCK AT DRUGS! DXM IS T()()B OF N()()B!

Heh, I just am curious to the gigantic ass reaming I will get =].

It sounds like you are having a very hard time. I myself have many of the same feelings as you, although DXM is not my bread and butter.

I think you should try to talk to a doctor or multiple doctors about your symptoms and emotional issues.

Did you have any of these issues prior to binging on the DXM? Whatever you do, do NOT NOT NOT NOT smoke pot. It will make your anxiety and paranoia so much worse to the point of major panic attacks.

I wish the best for you bud, I really do. It sucks that we already have to pay for our mistakes by being named social outcasts by the majority and having many of our family and friends ditch us, but also having to deal with the long term effects of our substance abuse.

Hit me up if you want to chat about ANYTHING! Nothing you say will scare me off and I will NEVER judge.

 

[ResemblesNothing]

Thanks for the kind words folks, I really appreciate it. I have a good group of doctors, but the only thing they have recommended is SSRI treatment, which I have tried before in many different forms (Zoloft, Paxil, Celexa, etc...) and I can't say they have worked for me in the slightest bit. Since I am labelled by the medical world as a drug abuser, this narrows the results of medical treatment close to nil. Flabu, I completely agree with you on the cannabis matter, it started making me paranoid when I began combining several drugs together including DXM. It isn't the sole culprit of paranoia, but it is a huge benefactor. I have done my best to stay sober in the past year with only a few hiccups using amphetamines to rid myself of this perpetual mental fog I seem to always be stuck in. I never over-do it for fear of my inner fiend to rear its ugly head again. As long as I keep my head up with my gaze on my future in professional writing, I think I can beat this thing back to manageability. I need to just figure out what to say to a doctor to get them to figure out what exactly I'm dealing with and how they can help through this period.

-To answer your question Flabu, no I didn't have symptoms as severe as I do now (before heavy DXM use), but they have always been there, just very quiet and subtle

 

[laCster]

Kk I can relate a lot man! I can empathiZe how you are feeling, I was one of the few bluelight users that iabused dxm. I.never took doses about 200mg but I took it to potentiate my other drugs like bupre and temazepam and to reduce tolerance. Also I didn't have to fuck with annoying dealers running on.niggah time lol. It was legal, fairly cheap, and sadly I I would want to save my money for weed or heroin and would often steal bottles of delsym and that is desperation, like who the fuck steals dxm multiple tines, I mean its not heroin? I , would use daily and go through bottles every week. I really liked dxm with weed and sometimes I.took.second plateau levels sometimes, but didn't like the trip part of dxm because it.is.a dirty drug, what I mean by that is that it targets multiple receptors in the brain giving an unclean experience from.different parts.

At 200 mgs and below, dxm primarily acts as a SNRI and sigma-1 agonist, withx somewhat minimal NMDA antagonism, the problem starts when you take above 200 mgs daily because then it has stronger nmda blocker efficiency and just like using ketamine or mxe daily, nmda antagonist daily will fuck with your brain. Luckily for youx me and mostly everyone else. The brain has amazing capabilities to direct othe functions of one part of the cns to another part, and it has amazing properties to repair itself which is called plasticity. I would suggest taking a month off dxm and seeing if you find positive results, and if not go back to using, but please don't use daily as you know it really fucks with how you feel. The sucky part is that because dxm acts on soo many receptors, you can get an intense withdrawal comming off nmda antagonism, SNRI properties and such.

Man I belive you are close to Getin sober because it sounds like you havehad a sufficient as whooping which gives you desire to stop.
The long tern effects are similar to using ketamine or.mxe daily, they really impair memory, but on top.of that dxm has the snri properties and it sounds like you are going through snri wd which sucks, you will get better with more clean time, I promise! Dxm is soo easy to abuse because of the availability, cheapness, and being legal...but man I had to wake up and see that dxm was stupid, like drinking cough syrup sounds childish and that is how I felt. I still take it from time to time potentiate and synergize withs my other drugs, but I am cutting back...


If you ever want to talk in all modesty I would be the best and I want to support you because I am one of the long time bluelight users whto had abused dxm and I totally I really so feel with you and I could go into how I want to rehab, how I was homeless without car or phone , slept in bathrooms, got arrested and shit. I am on bupre now and my family and everyone around me noticed how much better I have gotten, but I stillz got a lot of work in front me of and I feel that I will never esxape and be free from drug addiction,

It takes time it has been almost a year, and I am.a l. ot better about getting high and using heroin and I feel a lot better, but it does take time, like multiple years. I can promise it does get better if you put work in, and I believe in you! Definitely try posting in the dark side there are so many intelligent and helpful peppe there!

I will end my ramble with one last point to sum up the most important points


Ask yourself, are you going to chose to stay in your comfort zone and keep getting high, or you can chose to the harder route which is character building by pushing yourself to new limits in sobriety and become the amazing person I know you will become!. I promise you will see amazing results and be soo happy.a. keep trucking! It's gojng to suck bad for the first month or so, but after you will be reborn and have another chance to limit your trueself shine.build your confidencr by overcoming this , find a nice intimate partner to spend your time with

Pm me anytime, id love to talk with you because yoi and I have similar stories and I get itx I've been there

-lac