Hello,
I think have a bad relation with caffeine. I have used and abused it for most of my life (I think ca 20 years), I'm 35 now and suffer from depression and anxiety for many years now. Antidepressants don't help at all. I think I may react to caffeine differently than most people. Initially, when I started doing it, it gave me lots of focus, feeling of strength and confidence. It diminished over time and instead I got more and more anxious, my sleep became too short and I didn't feel refreshed. Later I've been feeling more and more zombie-like up to a point when my performance was very poor even on caffeine.
Now without it I feel weak, anxious, foggy and can only feel normal after a few days of abstinence, exercise and of course - caffeine.
My question - is it possible I am metabolizing the drug differently than most people? And what can I do to recover besides abstinence? Perhaps some meds from my psychiatrist could help? I think he doesn't really link my caffeine usage (about two cups a day last month, now 0) to depression I suffer, and to be honest - I'm also not sure what to think about all this. My symptoms also overlap with a thing called "adrenal fatigue" in it's severe form (I'm skinny, can't gain weight, have bad temperature regulation, I could faint when quickly changing position from lying to standing). My symptoms improved a bit since my latest abstaining attempt, but I still feel like I am a bit dead inside. Writing this post was a chore, and surely contains grammar errors
I will be grateful for any input, also from someone with past amphetamine or other stimulant chronic use.
Best regards and wishes for all members
I think have a bad relation with caffeine. I have used and abused it for most of my life (I think ca 20 years), I'm 35 now and suffer from depression and anxiety for many years now. Antidepressants don't help at all. I think I may react to caffeine differently than most people. Initially, when I started doing it, it gave me lots of focus, feeling of strength and confidence. It diminished over time and instead I got more and more anxious, my sleep became too short and I didn't feel refreshed. Later I've been feeling more and more zombie-like up to a point when my performance was very poor even on caffeine.
Now without it I feel weak, anxious, foggy and can only feel normal after a few days of abstinence, exercise and of course - caffeine.
My question - is it possible I am metabolizing the drug differently than most people? And what can I do to recover besides abstinence? Perhaps some meds from my psychiatrist could help? I think he doesn't really link my caffeine usage (about two cups a day last month, now 0) to depression I suffer, and to be honest - I'm also not sure what to think about all this. My symptoms also overlap with a thing called "adrenal fatigue" in it's severe form (I'm skinny, can't gain weight, have bad temperature regulation, I could faint when quickly changing position from lying to standing). My symptoms improved a bit since my latest abstaining attempt, but I still feel like I am a bit dead inside. Writing this post was a chore, and surely contains grammar errors

I will be grateful for any input, also from someone with past amphetamine or other stimulant chronic use.
Best regards and wishes for all members