xxsicknessxx
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So because many of my blood tests came back low, iron, copper, protein, calcium, or because I was hit by a car four years ago crossing the street or because I've been sober the longest ever at a year and a half or maybe when my heart stopped and I had to be shocked back alive. Maybe bath salts did it? It's sometimes terrifying, I get this feeling like I might forget who I am or instead of what I suffer with my short term memory loss I might get long term memory loss. I can work im a waiter and I have done it my entire life so I guess I can't forget. But other things like normal everyday things escape me. It's like I smoked weed but I didn't. It's like I waste three trips into the kitchen every time forgetting a to get a soda and that when I get scared and frustrated. I am in the middle of tests to see if it's from the accident. I did have brain swelling and in terrified I really am it's going to get worse. In fact right now I spend a lot of time hiding my memory loss from my parents and family. I dunno it happens so much in used to it but if I could go back to normal I would go back to church. Really. I take everything required to live, I follow all my doctor's orders and I'm going to stay sober. But I'm too weak to work out or I'm very lazy or I think I just keep forgetting everything. Like I think I even eat then forget so I eat again. I had gastric bypass so I don't basic weight just because I eat more. But we're I a normal person I think I would be eating way too much. I dunno this might be a little scattered I just want to say it's hard having memory loss, and I feel for old people.