I knew exactly what you meant, PhreeX. I was afraid that my response would come off like it did, actually. I was just trying to clarify that I don't get fucked up at all compared to how I used to because I have been diagnosed as I have and I don't want to fuck up any kind of treatment that I am attempting to receive.
The thing I was trying to get at in the second or third reply was that Vicodin, not Oxycontin or Morphine or Dilaudid, is the only thing that I have taken in my memorable recollection that has tamed my moods as well as alleviated my headaches. Of course, I don't want to fuck up my body from the APAP or become some Vicodin junkie, but this is the only thing that I know can help me, and I can't have it. I've been laughed at before because I suggested it, although I really do have a legit problem. Why do doctors think that Vicodin or its equals are such a terrible thing? They're taught to prescribe Semi-synthetic opioid painkillers like they're their pharmaceutical virgin daughters. I'm sick of it. Just fucking give people the shit they know they need. Personally, I'd rather be addicted to painkillers and feel alright than be in the shitty spot I'm in right now. Opiates are truly the best medicine, if you ask me. Why don't doctors look into opiates for depression? You know, I heard on Loveline tonight that some little bitch got prescribed Vicodin for her headaches? Maybe she was lying, but it pisses me off just the same. Poor little bitch, have some Vicodin. I wish I was that poor little bitch. Peace.