Okay, so where I left off- me and my two best friends had become pot heads, smoked everyday together and we were really into vaporizers, pieces, etc. It was probably one of the happiest times of my life. I felt like I finally found myself, that this was what i wanted to be. Being friends with these two older guys made me feel "special." Looking back, all I ever cared about was my image. Being the "cool guy" and it was really all a front. That year was awesome, we all played lacrosse - after every lax practice i would host small poker games as well. I met some connects through hosting poker games, and found out one of our friends sold oxy 80s. We all decide one day to try them, I think we each got one. We each blow 15 mg and feel amazing, it was awesome. Things were fine, we liked it a lot but just bought one on friday nights and that would be it. Occasionally during that period I would dabble with cocaine as well. Unfortunately, I cant stop once I start using coke. I would do it on weeknights into the early am, and end up at school at 9 am coked out of my mind, paranoid, twitchy. One of the most memorable experiences of that matter was in my 10th grade English class. We were studying Dantes Inferno and our teacher was just talking about different themes in it. It was the last class of the day, I had been up all night blowing coke and was blowing it throughout the school day. I was anxious to get out, I knew I looked geeked. So she is talking about sins in Dantes Inferno - She lists a few and then looks me in the eye and says stimulants. I freaked inside but just nodded. Hahaha. Never ended up getting in trouble for that. I was starting to live two different lives - except my "drug life" was starting to interfere. It became noticable that I was high at school, and my reputation was interesting to say the least.
I started talking to this girl in my grade, Valerie. We hung out once and she blew me, then I dodged her for a few days for fear of commitment. she was pissed. Eventually we hang out a few more times and both start crushing on eachother. She said before she started talking to me that she was scared of me... wtf? We were awesome together, the whole "in love" phase. One day she was over and I asked her if she wanted to try oxycontin, she said sure! That night we were high as hell...And that is the first time I told her I loved her. That relationship was doomed from the start. We start dabbling with it together, and of course when we were both on it we "loved" eachother more.
I started talking to this girl in my grade, Valerie. We hung out once and she blew me, then I dodged her for a few days for fear of commitment. she was pissed. Eventually we hang out a few more times and both start crushing on eachother. She said before she started talking to me that she was scared of me... wtf? We were awesome together, the whole "in love" phase. One day she was over and I asked her if she wanted to try oxycontin, she said sure! That night we were high as hell...And that is the first time I told her I loved her. That relationship was doomed from the start. We start dabbling with it together, and of course when we were both on it we "loved" eachother more.