.....why she doesn't go to weight watchers and have an exersise regime and take long walks in nature......as i'm stewing like FUCK that i didn't call her a useless fat cunt, after all i call the nice people at my doctors surgery useless fucking cunts when they are actually trying to help.....but after her waste of fucking time session where i tell her in detail lots of traumatic events in my life, impulse behaviour that's been very self distructive but unplanned and was so openly honest about everything thinking that that would clesrly be the obvious way of getting the correct help from them....she see's 'help' carved into my arm with other freshly cut inflictions...see's that i am unkempt...but after stopping me at various places and asking and looking sympathetically bemused that i hadn't been offered help or assistance at various stages after certain incidents....she asks me if i know what CBT and DBT are, i tell her i've heard about them when ive watched programmes on borderline personality disorder.....then at the end of an hour and a half of telling her how desperate i am....she tells me to get back to nature, go out and make friends and join some addiction groups ...oh and have an excersize programme.....this is coming from a patronising fat fuck who....when telling her about various stages of my life such as dropping out of school at 14 and binge eating and ballooning in weight....Mum drops in 'oh you weren't that big, just a little chubby'.....i'm just about to add that no i was bursting out of size 16 clothes and....then i notice her feet bulging out of her shoes and get what my mother is trying to do....so on realising that here was a very fat woman who i'm now (due to all manner of eating disorders over the years from bulimia to anorexia) about a size 8-10 maybe less as have not been eating at all recently....and i'm telling her that i was once fat...so i decide to skip over the eating disorders that have been a big part of my life.....so at the end she tells me they can't do anything for me...then suggests daft obvious factors that any person of sane mind knows are part and parcel of healthy living but a person with a mental disorder is not able to achieve as they have A FUCKING MENTAL DISORDER......but they can't help me, no i just need a nice walk and basically...find a good NA (narcotics annonymous ) group....which actually would be a fantastic way of getting some drug contacts.....i mean i don't have to go to a fucking therapist to be told how to live a healthy lifestyle....i don't live a healthy lifestyle cos i do not have the functionality to do so....hence why i am there....so
i decided i would call to speak to Alison <snip> the fat cunt who is so fat her feet bulge out of her shoes , she looks like a walking breezeblock in a dress.....she was with a client....so i very nicely ask for her to call me back....when she does i shall ask her why it was that she said they were unable to help me....and what in her opinion is wrong with me....is it just that i don't just 'snap out of it' because if that is the case and things are that easy then why does she not cut down on what she eats? because she could certainly do with an exercise regime and some group therapy with other fat people like herself as she should just stop putting her hand in the fucking fridge and stealing staff members food and gobbling down a family meal for 6 by her fat self, what kind of role model is she to her kids and if she herself has fat kids its all because she wants them to be fat like her so that she does not feel so fucking fat....yes i shall direct my rage in the right direction, but i shall try my hardest to compose myself so that i am able to fully put accross these healthy suggestions to her and tell her to snap out of being fat and useless.
i decided i would call to speak to Alison <snip> the fat cunt who is so fat her feet bulge out of her shoes , she looks like a walking breezeblock in a dress.....she was with a client....so i very nicely ask for her to call me back....when she does i shall ask her why it was that she said they were unable to help me....and what in her opinion is wrong with me....is it just that i don't just 'snap out of it' because if that is the case and things are that easy then why does she not cut down on what she eats? because she could certainly do with an exercise regime and some group therapy with other fat people like herself as she should just stop putting her hand in the fucking fridge and stealing staff members food and gobbling down a family meal for 6 by her fat self, what kind of role model is she to her kids and if she herself has fat kids its all because she wants them to be fat like her so that she does not feel so fucking fat....yes i shall direct my rage in the right direction, but i shall try my hardest to compose myself so that i am able to fully put accross these healthy suggestions to her and tell her to snap out of being fat and useless.
