I have been working on my social anxiety with my phych for a couple months now he keeps pushing me to confront my fears. He says in order to get better I have to put myself in social situations that make me uncomfortable he says by doing that gradually my anxiety will decrease. Well tonight I got thrown in one of those situations I was with this dude I just met and apperantly he talks to everyone he sees. It was really uncomfortable he would like stop to talk to someone while we were walking and I would just stand there like wtf then I would try and introduce myself it was awkward at first. Then we are heading in from smoking and he starts talking to these 2 girls he knows who are smoking cigs on this bench. This girl captured my mind like she starts talking some anthropology and history and I was hooked.
She is gorgeous to but not in the conventional way shes small great legs short brown hair quick sarcastic wit. So you know im nervous and stoned but I got a read on her we had alot in common and I could tell she was feeling what I was saying. The best part is I recognized the signals I took what I had learned about body language and was able to recognize what she was feeling. So things are going well we talk as a group for like an hour and the conversation starts losing steam and im thinking im gonna get her number. so we get up to go a say "Let me get your number" shes like sure.
Then I made a mistake a really bad mistake I fucked up like just writing this im pissed at myself for celebrating too soon. After I get her a number I say it was cool meeting you and start walking away. She goes "I was gonna get a hug but I gotta go" in a kind of sarcastic tone. Fuck. It was like I got distracted I was high and I was thinking about asking for her number so hard that I didnt even think about what I would do if she said yes.But I am going to stay positive maybe she will forget about it and see me again. Im going to text her tommorow.
She is gorgeous to but not in the conventional way shes small great legs short brown hair quick sarcastic wit. So you know im nervous and stoned but I got a read on her we had alot in common and I could tell she was feeling what I was saying. The best part is I recognized the signals I took what I had learned about body language and was able to recognize what she was feeling. So things are going well we talk as a group for like an hour and the conversation starts losing steam and im thinking im gonna get her number. so we get up to go a say "Let me get your number" shes like sure.
Then I made a mistake a really bad mistake I fucked up like just writing this im pissed at myself for celebrating too soon. After I get her a number I say it was cool meeting you and start walking away. She goes "I was gonna get a hug but I gotta go" in a kind of sarcastic tone. Fuck. It was like I got distracted I was high and I was thinking about asking for her number so hard that I didnt even think about what I would do if she said yes.But I am going to stay positive maybe she will forget about it and see me again. Im going to text her tommorow.
