Last night's "The Walking Dead" -incredibly moving for this addict.

[whataboutringo]

Just wondering if any others saw last night's Morgan backstory episodes... and even if you don't watch The Walking Dead, it pretty much spoils
nothing and is a standalone type episode. Anyone can enjoy it!

Moving on... I found last night's episode to be a beautiful interpretation of opiate/opioid withdrawal, withdrawal in general, fear of the unknown, and letting go of one's past... yes! All these themes in a zombie themed television show. I am sure a bit of it is that I am detoxing myself atm, so everything is kind of sensitive to me and I'm probably reading between the lines... still, if anyone out there has the time and interest, seek out the "Here's not here" episode of TWD on couch tuner or something. It seriously helped me so much and put things into perspective. I really would not post about a TV show here on Bluelight if I didn't think the message wasn't strong enough to help others.

Anyways, I am day 6 off suboxone... this is my 2nd sub detox and I have been using kratom to try and mitigate the withdrawals a bit and while my system is still being stimulated by kratom's opioids, I still feel it is worth the tradeoff. I have been using low doses as well the last few days (never more than 4g kratom) and am still quite surprised at how much it is helping. I still have to go through the kick, no doubt... but I think I have an edge this time. I jumped off at about .5 mg suboxone so I imagine that the half life has stepped down quite in the last 6 days. Not out of the woods! But much more hopeful... so I hope someone can glean something from this post! Best wishes to all of you.

 

[Carl Landrover]

For those of us who don't watch TWDs what happened in the episode that was so moving?

 

[whataboutringo]

There was a character (Morgan) who got splintered from the main group for some time... lost his wife and child during the process and was seen briefly again as having gone insanely, batshit crazy... then after a time jump it showed him again, in control of his mind and with a zen like aura about him. This episode explained how he regained control of himself and became somewhat enlightened...

Basically, the character has severe PTSD and meets a man in an isolated area. He tries to kill the guy initially but is overtaken and kept prisoner... the guy is cool, though. He feeds Morgan, gives him "The Art Of Peace" and has a bunch of really humorous quips. Eventually of course he reveals his own fucked up past and you begin to see the man had to struggle to achieve his relaxed state of mind. It's hard for me to put into words... Morgan is very stuck in the past for the first few days locked in the man's cell, still quite mental and livid. Eventually he recovers though, and the guy made this really great metaphor about PTSD (or anyone who is stuck in their own mind) about being trapped in "a room", seeing the doorway out, running through it only to find yourself back in the room, over and over and over and over until finally you just decide to sit in the room and quit doing "through the door". He then gets a serious look and assures Morgan that sooner or later, one of those doors DOES lead out of the room. I really can't do it justice, sorry... but I hope that at least shed some light on it. There was also an underlying "all life is precious" message throughout the episode... but mostly the theme wasn't so much zombies, or PTSD, or the art of peace... it was about whether we as humans can move on from our past, and whether or not we have to lose some of our humanity, or regain it, to achieve that. Truly was an incredible episode, and aside from a few zombie kills, the whole thing reminded me of some arthouse type flick. I strongly recommend it! Mostly I just think it was the new character and the way he phrased things, it just really spoke to me at a time when I'm full of self doubt, yet also convinced I know everything.

Also I can't tell on my little screen but I think you have a Charlie Kelly avatar? Very cool. I was working on a local NIGHTMAN COMETH production for a local theater... hasn't came to fruition but great shit nonetheless.

 

[manboychef]

That was a very poignant episode. Transformation themes and all.

another theme. Sometimes what is lost can never be regained and must be moved on from however not forgotten.

 

[whataboutringo]

Well said, poignant is a good word for it. It really was surprising. I like the message of moving on but remembering what is lost, and being at peace with it. Humans, man... such baggage. Yet it's all part of the experience.