Lack of interaction/affection

[cthulslep]

I dont know if it is the place to post this thread nor if it is smart to post it...uhuh the guy that share his fu*&?&? life to everyone.
So here I am
I got my 18 in october, working while going school.
my life was/is quite hard emotionally.
It always been characterized by a big need/lack of interaction with people.
I feel like I share no interest with MOST of the people(always asking myself if I'm mad, utopist, deseesperate or something like this xD).

I believe in drugs (not in any way of course xD);
Believe that I can be stronger with people around me;
Believe in love (not in any way,..);
Think I have something to give to others;
Think that most of the convention/human reflex/animal reflex of the humans are dumb;
And think that the life is more complex than most of the people want to believe(that is one of my main interest... maybexD).

Ufff is those characteristic make me look like someone to flee? like someone who suffer of emotional dependence? is it just a question of charisma and manipulation, the friendship?
Lol im searching for a kind of answer to my unhappyness^^. Or just an answer, whatever it is.

Alex, I wish it dont sound bad...(sorry again for bad english)

 

[Matsuo Munefusa.]

No, you dont sound like a person to flee. You sound like a young man coming of age, struggling to find his place in the world. Don't worry - every other young man will have to go through this himself to become a man...if they don't then they will stagnate in their life.

Keep your eyes open for people that will believe in you and can help you, and you them. Focus on developing your body, mind, and soul.

And dont go too hard on the drugs, ok?

 

[cthulslep]

And dont go too hard on the drugs, ok?

No, no. xD



But does my way of thinking that marginal? The real happiness, breaking the social convention and to know the real meaning of this worrld dont seem to interest lots of people, am I wrong. I have more question than answer and those are very important for me sorry xd.

 

[Matsuo Munefusa.]

your questions are your beacons in the ocean you are swimming in. Stop and contemplate them but dont stop too long or get caught up too long. Swim to the next one and continue thinking/developing.

Do you understand the metaphor?

 

[cthulslep]

yeah, unfortunately^^