I've had kundalini rising since I was a kid. The only thing that has changed is the intensity as I've gotten older and sorted out a lot of my shit and my understandings of things. Psychedelics brought attention to the many areas that needed help and just how far I've yet to go. Just because the pathway upward isn't totally clear doesn't mean you can't do it. Some people have past life knowledge and skills that have carried over to this one. Some people are born with the channel at least partly open, and with refinement it can become stronger. I didn't even know I was having kundalini when I was 6 years old, I just thought it was something amazing that happened where I was no longer me anymore and God was talking to me.
Saying there is only one way to achieve kundalini is the same as saying there is only one way to achieve enlightenment. The truth is that there are many ways. People have become enlightened across many diverse life circumstances. You have the tools to your elevation right where you are. There is no "right way" and the proof is in the results.
If you use the yogic schools to achieve kundalini, many of them will hold back knowledge from you until they feel you are ready to go the next step. For instance, the 7 chakra system is very basic. There are other chakras along the way, such as the antakharana, or the Llana chakra. These are considered "secret chakras" that the masters won't tell their students about until they feel that the students have gotten to the adequate level.
Yet in the western world, we have people doing things like ayahuasca, LSD, and other strong psychedelics in order to discover these chakras and upper realms for themselves. Some people want or need the middle man to tell them what to do. Others instinctively seem to follow a path that leads them to the answers.
tl;dr version: you can't force a seed to sprout, but if it is sprouting then the time is right, and the time is now.
I feel I've been "open" since the day I was born. I've always, always, always, felt basically the same as I do right now. Bored with the world as presented to me, feeling there is something so much more.
I remember about 8 years ago, took some mushrooms. Felt it start deep in my gut, rise, with the most intense pleasure imagineable, slowly up my spine. I felt it begin to fill my brain, until it was completely full and resonating with the most intensely bright/pure light imagineable. That night I had intense visions of a native american society, and how they were "right". I then flipped to a futuristic world, and got nothing but negative feelings from it. I had been desperately searching through all of academic psychology for an answer up til this point. I "realized" I was NOT "add, bipolar" etc etc. There was just something with the world I was told to fit into, and that I was allready made perfectly.
I had a most intense trip once. The MOST terrifying one I've ever had. I KNEW I was God, KNEW I had attained enlightment. I had the most fucked, intense, vision of rapidly flipping back and forth between a super spy (trapped in quite a precarious and deadly situation) and myself, with the clock counting down, EVERYTHING in me screaming I need to wake up before my spy self died. I almost lost my mind that night. I ended up hurting myself quite badly phsyically in an attempt to 'wake up' to whatever I was supposed to be waking up to. I mean, I KNEW I had to DIE to wake up from the dream I was in. As the morning light began to pour into my bedroom, I KNEW I was saved. I had the most intense feeling, that if the light would just fully emerge, I would be saved. It was so shining and radiant, and again, I KNEW I was God. I could do whatever I wanted.
Unfortunatly, I was interpreting all that literally. This shortly led to me jumping out a second floor window and suffering some broken parts of me. I just remember being so sure I had to die to wake up from the nightmare (very true, just not literally), and that the light seemed so inviting. Breaking out half my window panes, and jumping out my window directly into the light seemed like a steallar idea. Looking back now, I see what I should have seen, and feel so much sorrow for how confused I was at that point. I actually posted a TR of this experience a while back under a different name. I'm not linking to it, if you find it you'll know. The way I view it now though, I am no longer ashamed. It is, in retrospect, a beautiful experience I can only use to further good and beauty in this world.
When applied to my true self, it is the most straightforward thing I can imagine. I now sit and laugh with joy at what was shown me. The pain I've dealt with in the interim is nothing, just a blip of existense. Having nightmarish visions that make you think you're insane, turn into the most sensible and direct truths you've ever known is quite a liberating experience.
It is funny though. Maybe not even two weeks previous, I had the most beautiful experience. I thought I had fucked up my dose, and was going to redose, then something told me jsut to let what will be, BE. Almost immediatly, pleasures upon pleasures began multiplying in my body. This increased until my body felt like nothing but illuminated, brilliant whitelight. I felt it radiating from every single pore in my body. My head so free and clear, that in and of itself was most pleasureable. The white light and peace that filled me was just icing on top.
I became a few different people,and felt their emotions fully. Some I knew, some I didn't. All helped me to understand more how I should treat people, by feeling the effects of my treatment. It was the most beautiful and moving experience, where I just KNEW I had all the answers. When it was recediing, I felt the familiar pressure take hold of my head, and though, "you have known for years meditation and yoga will help clear this from you, DO IT NOW" Good ole chakra blockage... you fucker!
Now two weeks after this, I feel I still need MORE. Show me MORE, Let me figure it out. Be careful what you wish for, you might be shown more than you can understand. In my case, it made me jump out of a window in an effort to acheive the "death to self" one needs to master their true self.
I wish there would have been someone to explain exactly what that meant to me years ago. I could have been saved so much heartache and struggle.
So many things have been fitting together for me recently. I've come to realize I had these experiences so I could truly LEARN them, feel the hopelessness and pain. Now, I am more able to help others, understand their pain, see what they are going through. I feel like it's my purpose in life to live every day in an attempt to more fully awaken myself. By doing this, I should dedicate my life to helping others as well, most specifically with this problem. I see how much better my life would have been had I had someone to tell me exactly what was going on. I want to be that person in other's life. This should be ALL our goals.
It took so long to realize exactly what I was awakening to though. The serpent within us all. Life is so beautiful, once you realize the purpose.
Also, there is a lot of disinformation out there. It is hard to disseminate. Just remember what you know, and who showed it to you, YOU did, your SELF did. ANYTHING you are told that goes against that can simply not be true.
Happy living
