It's awesome you're able to take good care of yourself with this. It makes all the difference.
LOL very fair about going out. I did enjoy getting all layers up to go for a walk in the snow when I was kicking and lived in Connecticut or Massachusetts briefly. It can be so beautiful outside in the forest when it snows, definitely a good way to distract one's self. But iono about how cold it gets in Poland? (looks like it is 1* or 2* C in Warsaw, so that isn't
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That said, maybe you can give yourself a hot bath? That helps a lot with linger RLS and general stress. Great thing to do right before bed. Do they sell something called Tiger Balm where you are? It's something with a lot of menthol that helps with muscles spasms and injuries, and it absolutely lovely to use while kicking to get a better night sleep/relax.
One day I want to visit Poland and then Lithuania (where my mom's family is from). Politics seem a little nutty right now, but that seems like the case everywhere at the moment. Maybe if I visit MR for their wedding I can swing my by my literal motherland. And German and Switzerland would be fun too. I can try and find all the beautiful "foreign" women I've met on meditation retreats who live out there.
Switzerland seems like a really odd country, given how simultaneous liberal and conservative the culture is. But now I'm getting waaaaay off track.
OT: I always preferred to kick in the winter as opposed to the summer, as the cold seems to make it more bearable in the sense I can always add or remove extra layers depending on how I feel. And I think I just do better in colder climates.
How is your appetite doing? Eating well, three times a day, with fruit and veggies and complex carbs helps a lot with recovery from withdrawal. It really is under emphasizes, same with hydration. Especially give how small you are, you'd probably benefit from eating a little healthier (I mean I have no idea really, and no judgement from me about this).
Anyways, kicking is a great time to start implementing healthier eating habits. Ever try muesli? That stuff makes for a good and fairly healthy breakfast. And it's tasty as hell with a little yogurt or even cooked using hot milk (good for the winter). I rediscovered how amazing quality oatmeal is (like the kind that isn't as processes as much as instant oatmeal, where each out is really hearty). Such a wonderful, healthy and good for you comfort food
All this babbling on from me just means I'm happy to see you're on the mend and handling your situation really well. You deserve a lot of credit for that. So much of recovery is "mental" or psychological, so if you can begin mastering that aspect it will take you very far.