Mental Health Kinda confused. Need help.

[sonicwhite]

Okay back in 05 when I went thru a psychosis, they said it was caused by meth. Okay I was smoking meth like everyday for two months with little spurts of sleep here and there. But when I really started to lose it I went to jail for two months.....I was still psychotic even after abstaining from meth. and then another five months after that i was still sick. Now I thought amp psychosis lasted as long as the drug is in your system and I got a false positive because the day I got out of jail and was nut's. My friend gave me a bump of ICE and that really thru me into psychotic mania. Now the next day they decide to take me to the psych ward. Okay and they take my blood and say I have meth in me not knowing I was in jail for two months detoxing.....A meth induced psychosis isn't supposed to last seven moths but only as long as the drug is in your system. before all this scrambled crap happened I was using mollies and shrooms weed pain killers coke and I was using seroquel to help me sleep. Now I can see this combo really messing someone up. Thankfully I didn't die but I think I got a wrong dx from the IP doc's

 

[missmeyet?]

What exactly is your question dear?

And were you saying you kep testing positive for meth for months (how many? 2,5?) After you didn't have any? I'm not sure I understand.

I do know that residual effects of some drugs can long outlast the drug actually being in your system.

 

[sonicwhite]

No for two months I was in jail detoxing. So I had no access to meth. Then I get out july 3rd and do a dump....and then july fourth they take me into see the doc so that whole time I was psychotic from last of april to july 3 I was clean. And they said it was a meth induced psychosis because on the day I got out I did a bump and it showed up in the labs. Now I know not drinking or eating and just making poor choices led up to whatever i went thru whether it be drug induced or not....I'm just saying from what I have read that in most cases when meth use is stopped, then the psychosis starts to fade but in my case I was in jail and getting worse. So I do not know whther I was predisposed to a MI because my mema has Bipolar and my dad does too.....Or I just really messed my brain up that bad.


EDIT. What I'm trying to say is. What was it a meth induced psychosis or schizophrenia maybe drawn out by the meth?. I know no body here can really answer that question but I am always thinking what the heck happened.

 

[Allein]

It's not really possible to accurately attribute these longer term issues to specific drugs or experiences, it would be nothing more than speculation.

When you experience something like psychosis you are truly in tha mental space, regardless of root causes and whilst stopping taking something like meth is going to help in recovery it may not fullyresolve the now existing issue.

I'd stop focusing on the causes and concentrate and improving your situation, we are all dealt a hand or propensity to develop a range of conditions it may be you have triggered something with your meth use or maybe it was already there.

Seek treatment and work on improving you state of mind by what ever means you feel comfortable with, but don't blame yourself for previous bad decisions that cannot be undone, I'm betting that your meth use was not all bad and you learnt some things from it, it is part of your past and needs to be integrated.

I used MDMA heavily for many years, I estimate at least 500 doses ( I not bragging here, just context ) and now suffer from depression, whilst my use did start to become problematic I do not think it played a major part chemically in my depression, in fact I believe my love of the drug was rooted in my inability to feel happiness. Psychologically it left me feeling for along time that nothing would ever compare to the bliss I experienced and that maybe id seen the best of my life.

We are a product of our past which we cannot change but the future is within our gift to influence

 

[Jerry Atrick]

I know there is talk in another thread about not telling your docs about illegal drug use and I, for the most part, agree. However OP in your case, since they did a blood test and already know you use, I would go ahead and tell them everything you told us. Have you tried that yet?

If you didn't tell your doc you were in jail detoxing for 2 months immediately prior to the drug test, then your doc is missing a huge piece of the puzzle. I don't know much about meth, but quitting cold turkey for two months while in jail has got to be hell on the body and mind. Not to mention quitting the seroquel and other drugs.

 

[Jerry Atrick]

I'd stop focusing on the causes and concentrate and improving your situation

While I agree with this sentiment and live by it, I have also been diagnosed MI for a handful of years. And it took years to finally get to the point where I could accept myself for who I am and to start working on my future instead of past. But in the OP's case, sonicwhite has not been in this state for very long, relative to people who have suffered for years. I think it is essential to try find the root cause of the psychosis especially in the beginning stages because it will directly influence what treatment plan will be most appropriate from a medical and mental health perspective.

If the OP's doctor did not know sonicwhite was detoxing for two months prior to using the day before he was tested, the doc may be prescribing incorrect doses of the wrong type of med. Or not. But who the hell knows?

 

[herbavore]

^ That is a very good point about how the roots affect treatment.