Kicking People

[My3sons]

I am having such a hard time right now. I've been kicking my best friend/love for almost two weeks now. Our relationship is almost like a drug addiction. There are so many reasons we can't be together and hurt one another over and over. Yet we always end up back in the cycle. I don't know how to just move on. I have tried to date other people but my heart belongs to him but it can't. How do you get past this? I feel myself slipping into depression and feel like I can no longer see beauty in this world. I don't have insurance so anti depressants are a no. I am about to start decreasing my methadone after a year of being off dope. I am scared. I don't want to relapse like last time but after April will no longer be able to afford the $360 a month. I just feel so sad and miss my best friend so much and I am starting to feel that fuck it feeling slowly creeping in. I can't relapse because I will lose my kids. I just don't know what to do with myself. How have others gotten past relationships like this. I can't numb myself and really can't handle this feeling of sadness. I cannot afford Obama care. The system is not designed for people who work but don't make much and are the sole provider of the household. This is a partial vent but also looking for suggestions on how to kick a human! No mmt for that!

 

[theredgiant]

If you don't live together it's not a relationship it's a daily choice. If you do live together that shit will be very very very hard to end because people almost never let go once you move in together. If the relationship is abusive and negative that makes it even harder to end because people who treat you like shit tend to be very good at apologizing and or making you feel like you cannot do better or it's all your fault. As far as anti-depressants go....fuck that shit it will make you happy and infertile and if you ever miss a dose you will start having suicidal thoughts. Obama care is some bullshit...you will be fined $500 on your tax return if you don't have it. I suggest you block his number and unfollow and block him on social media. He will stalk you for a little while and try to have one last talk and or guilt you into feeling like it's your fault.....people are fucked up nowadays and the fact you have kids makes it worse because what happens to you happens to your kids and a bad relationship will most definitely affect them