Kicking oxycodone, really could use support. Day 2

[whatthehey]

Been a oxycodone addict for 5 years. I remember the day it started. I skipped martial arts for 1 line of fun.

Now I skip life and adult choices to make my family starve. As long as I get my fix, I don't give two shits. That's why I here. Trying to change it


Last dose of 12mg oxycodone was yesterday at 9am.. withdrawals started yesterday around 4pm. It's 1:45pm the next day.

Just signing up here pissed me off


As you probably already know. Here are my current symptoms

Annoyance
Legs twitching
Nausea
Hot cold chills.
Heart palpitations and fast heart beat. Better know as anxiety.
Sweating
The shits
Crawling skin

Yep, the whole 9 yards.

I know about ways to mitigate this such as kratom, loperamide, going to the hospital and them shooting me with dilaudid lol but I want to do this for the last time. I'm completely sick of putting what I want in front of my 17 month old daughter. My fiance is also pregnant with twins.

I've tried many times to no avail to kick this demon. Ever only made it to day 4. I just started feeling better physically. Well, I have no choice this time my only two hookups are gone. One moved 7 hours away and one is in jail for 10 years.

This is life's way of saying here, you want to quit. I'll help you.

I'm here for moral support and people to smack me if I talk about going to find some. I want to stop and I'm already half way in, and I know that if I find a way to get more that'll only help for a few days and the stash always runs out.... yes, the stash always goes dry. Ain't that some BS. lol

Here goes nothing..... help!

 

[Erikmen]

Congratulations for your decision!!
And welcome to Blue Light
I've been there, done that. This phase will pass rather quickly.
Stay strong and remember that cravings do not last that long.
If it's too hard to live one day at a time. Split the day in three, or four.
You'll get this!! Remember that you have the power to determinate how this goes.
Keep up with the good work!
Erik

 

[whatthehey]

I need to figure out a way to not talk myself into going to the hospital. The hospital WILL give me dilaudid. I drug seek at the er twice a week and they always give me that shit as soon as I get there.... I know it's a quick out but then I'll have to start back over. I can't concentrate. I have an anxiety disorder and it's really kicking my butt right now. Even my child's laugh is annoying me right now. I know that sounds horrible and makes me possibly the worst dad in the entire world but I can't help it

 

[whatthehey]

I'm into day 3 and not feeling as bad as I thought I would. Still have cold chills and stomach pain but I've smiled a few times today and not at lethargic.

 

[bonomoopiojo55]

Stay strong whatthehey. Hope you are hanging in there. I am on day 6 and it aint easy and it aint fun. I know what you mean about caving but just try and remember how bad you feel and you dont have to feel like this again.

 

[KratomDemon]

So much this! ^^^^^

Find solace in that the worst is behind you and that the only way you need to go through this hell again is if you choose to by using again. You have the power to crush this addiction once and for all!!