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Dissociatives Ketamine makes me delusional

Higherfocus420

Higherfocus420

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Recently I went on a binge where I had a half oz of ketamine and I wasn't in the best place mentally. During the binge I had multiple delusions one of them was where i thought I was in a parallel universe and was saying weird shit to people in my shared house about how i was in a parallel universe. I was also walking round naked telling g people I've been liberated and thought at the time I had a revelation about reincarnation don't ask me what it was as I don't remember I just remember the feeling. Another delusion I had was when I was round a mates house and i was having massive lines and smoking crack with it all of a sudden I started getting paranoid and was convinced my mates were planning to kill me or attack me since the binge I've not felt right like I can't think straight and have bad depression and anxiety and feel massive brain fog like I'm not in the present constaly over thinking that I make mistakes at work and can't socilize as well and like to much stimulation causes my brain to freeze up and i do stupid shit but I have adhd so maybe the stress of the trips has made my adhd worse
 
That's just NMDA receptor antagonists in general for you. Scientists give them to animals every day for extended period of times to simulate the development of schizophrenia and try to research how to treat it. Similarly to the very real threat of organ damage, this often gets swept under the rug by people who use them every day, I imagine just because they don't want to think about the risks because they like the highs too much.

There's probably not much you can do other than just take time off from ketamine and other dissociatives trying to get back into normal healthy routines, like making sure you get enough exercise, eat healthy, take vitamins, and so on - I know not all of that is something everyone does all the time but it will probably all help. Some people may tell you about supplements that may or may not help in certain ways but I don't think there's anything like that scientifically proven yet.

For what it's worth I think you can probably get better if you just don't trip again for a while and let your brain start forming some normal neural connections again, because I'm guessing that's mainly what it's lacking when you're constantly on ketamine since your NMDA receptors are normally used for syncing up different types of neural activity and forming memories and such. In someone who has a genetic problem with these processes their brains will just lack this ability but for someone who just has it happen through drug use, you made just need time to get back to normal.

I hope you do feel better eventually regardless.
 
Kaleida said:
That's just NMDA receptor antagonists in general for you. Scientists give them to animals every day for extended period of times to simulate the development of schizophrenia and try to research how to treat it. Similarly to the very real threat of organ damage, this often gets swept under the rug by people who use them every day, I imagine just because they don't want to think about the risks because they like the highs too much.

There's probably not much you can do other than just take time off from ketamine and other dissociatives trying to get back into normal healthy routines, like making sure you get enough exercise, eat healthy, take vitamins, and so on - I know not all of that is something everyone does all the time but it will probably all help. Some people may tell you about supplements that may or may not help in certain ways but I don't think there's anything like that scientifically proven yet.

For what it's worth I think you can probably get better if you just don't trip again for a while and let your brain start forming some normal neural connections again, because I'm guessing that's mainly what it's lacking when you're constantly on ketamine since your NMDA receptors are normally used for syncing up different types of neural activity and forming memories and such. In someone who has a genetic problem with these processes their brains will just lack this ability but for someone who just has it happen through drug use, you made just need time to get back to normal.

I hope you do feel better eventually regardless.
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I'm starting to feel better but still don't feel my everyday self. I know I will be fine eventually I've had many a moments where I've felt I've permanently fucked my brains cognitive abilities from too many drugs or from overdoses but like you say eating properly having g routines and exercise eventually you heal to some extent I just feel like I'm winging everything at the moment t like work and social interactions I've been doing a lot of drugs lately though 2cb, lsd, ket ,speedballs of heroin and crack, pregablins smoking synthetic cannabanoids but its the ket that has affected my mental health the most. It's strange I never thought it was that sinister of a drug and always viewed it as safe and benign I think I'm quite stressed as at the moment as well as have a few personal problems so using a poweful dissociative isn't probably the best set and setting for it to be therapeutic more likely to have a bad trip which leads to psychosis if you abuse it to escape your reality.
 
Take as much time with NO drugs as necessary and you should hopefully slowly heal. Also, exercise, and eat and sleep as well as possible. I wish you success on your recovery.
 
Higherfocus420 said:
I'm starting to feel better but still don't feel my everyday self. I know I will be fine eventually I've had many a moments where I've felt I've permanently fucked my brains cognitive abilities from too many drugs or from overdoses but like you say eating properly having g routines and exercise eventually you heal to some extent I just feel like I'm winging everything at the moment t like work and social interactions I've been doing a lot of drugs lately though 2cb, lsd, ket ,speedballs of heroin and crack, pregablins smoking synthetic cannabanoids but its the ket that has affected my mental health the most. It's strange I never thought it was that sinister of a drug and always viewed it as safe and benign I think I'm quite stressed as at the moment as well as have a few personal problems so using a poweful dissociative isn't probably the best set and setting for it to be therapeutic more likely to have a bad trip which leads to psychosis if you abuse it to escape your reality.
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Indeed. Gotta somehow find a way to escape towards reality with psychoactives, or you create a hole you have to climb out of later. And that's difficult if you can't rely on being attentive at the right moments.

If it's any consolation, your trip report doesn't contain elements I haven't experienced myself. I'm not going to go into how you can integrate such experiences, I don't think that's the right thing to focus on at the moment. Just saying, I see no indication you're only going to heal "to some extent", provided you heed the warning you've given yourself. <3
 
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