Background:
My self and my girlfriend had been out at an all night event. During that time we consumed about half a point of speed and a little GHB. We got back to a friends house for a little recovery and proceeded to have a small amount of Xanax a bit of pot. In the afternoon we went home, had a little bit more G, dallied around in bed for a bit and had a rest. Later on towards the evening my gf starts bugging me for K, so I source some and we went to her place to listen to some music in the dark - Art of Trance "There can not be no Armageddon" on Platipus (its an amazing K CD)
I have had K on numerous occasions, although I would not call my self an expert I'm no novice. I have an experiences in the past from being a little floaty, to having my mind become a liquid that sloshed around
T+0 - (8.pm) We put on the CD in the lounge room, pull up a matress and some blankets and snort about 3/4 of a point. I decide 'lets put on some TV whilst we wait for the effect', we put it on a very good comedy show that last half an hour. After that time we are definantly starting to notice the K effects.
T+0.30 - TV goes off and we finish off the remaining 1/4 of a point. We line up another point 'just in case we want a bump' later. CD goes back on, lights out and into the matress we go.
T+1.00 - Hmmmmm this is not quite as fun as I remember it to be. Getting very disslocated from reality, although the shape my mind takes as the music swells and generates soundscapes is a bit fun. My mind seems to be going from one reality to the next, although it is not a true reality as you would see it with your eyes, its more of the reality you have when you are thinking deeply about something and you get interrupted. I'm not really enjoying it at this stage, thinking once 'Hang on, what are we actually trying to achieve here on the matress with the music. This is K I'm doing yeah? Jeez I feel odd.' Another phase shift again - almost like you view reality as a cube, you walk along one side of the cube, you turn the corner and are shifted into another reality/way of thinking. Something funny happens, I can't remember what, and I giggle a little.
T+1.15 - We both get up to go to the toilet. Walking is difficult which is to be expected. Legs feel like I'm just walking on stumps. I look at my gf with one eye and laugh - she looks giant one instant and tiny the next although she keeps the same proportion to the room. She then says 'lets have this other point'. I think at this stage I'd forgotten that I had not been having a real good time of it
T+2.00 We both have another half a point each. I restart the CD which is nearly on the last track. I have 3 Kava kava complex capsuals (the amount it says to have on the bottle before you sleep) that I bought from the chemists to relax me a little.
T+2.15 I start to worry. Things aren't quite right. The disslocation is a too extreme and I worry that I've had too much. I start to remember my good friend Bill who had just died 2 weeks ago slipping over at a bush party. I sense an essense of Bill in my reality - which is not a good thing, because I associate Bill with death. I breath and thinking "I'm breathing", then think "Did I just breath because I thought to do it? I hope I'm not too anethatised to stop breathing unless I think to do it!" I take a couple of deep breaths and my mind state has another phase shift again. Its hard to remember what is going on sometimes from one state to the next, and I'll arrive thinking 'how the hell was I just thinking I was in that particular state before', then promptly forget and have to deal with the new reality.
T+2.30 I start to panic a bit more. Not a good thing. My mind shifts around and I think I could be dead. I'm so dislocated that I thought there was a chance that prehaps I had died, and my little sense of mind that I had left exists alone in this state of limbo. Nothing else in my brain is working. I wonder if the bit of consiousness that is defines 'you' goes not noware now as brain activity stops, but you are still aware. Am I alone, trapped in my own dead universe for evermore because I'm dead?
T+2.35 I remember somehow my gf could be around somewhere! I call out her name softly a couple of times - if she answers perhaps I'm not dead! Perhaps I'm not alone trapped in myself! She answers - its not quite an all conquoring breathrough that sets everything right, it just pulled me back a little bit more to the path. I start to feel a little queezy and she helps be to the kitchen sink where I'm not sure if I was sick or not . I don't think I was. I am very confused to what is going on. Time means nothing and is totally unfathomable. My girlfriend is not much better considering we had the same amount of K. She comforts me a little and she takes me to sit down on a chair. I ask "Are we still fucked on K"? She answers that we are and its OK. I sit a little, sob problably twice and then walk (it seems on my stumpy legs!) to the toilet. I look in the mirror there, feeling a little better, and am amazed the effect K has on your perception of things, my face, whilst was me, did not look like me. My hand which is my hand, doesn't look right, the fingers look squat. I remember this effect from previous K experiences. I still feel very shaken from the last hour.
T+2:45 My gf leads me to bed and I sit in the bed with the lights on for a little while. I manage to speak a little, telling her in part of what I was feeling, asked a couple of times "what happened?". She listens and comfort me. I am still experiencing K effects although not as strong as before. I look at the roof and marvel at the effects of K on vision. My prior understanding of K is that is basically stops messages from being recieved to parts of your brain, so your consiousness basically fills it in. I marvel and play around a little with this effect on my vision. I can see a blotchy spot in the middle of my vision where it looks like sand, the same colour as the roof intermittently gets sprinkled on the roof. I think to myself again"Its like my brain is filling in the gaps where the K is!" and am just content to use this effect.
T+2:50 I panic a little as some earlier thoughts manifest in my mind. I call out for my gf who had just wandered into the next room. She comes quickly to me and I am comforted somewhat.
T:3.30 I had apparenty not said anything for a long long time. I was sitting up just staring into space. I don't remember this part at all.
Conclusion - I don't really remember going to sleep at all. My gf said she actually woke me up once because I was not moving at all and she was worried that I could be dead, which of course I was not - remember, she was having K as well so little unrealities have to be delt with as if they were a true reality. A theme perhaps for the whole experience? I find that K is not very relaxing sometime. You can't 'escape' my switching your mind off, but at the same time you can't concentrate on anything at all. As you try and deal with one reality, it moves around and shift in your mind that one mine set to another is totally different. I woke up at 7pm, it was still dark but I hear a town hall clock chime in the distance. I think to myself that I'm glad its over and cuddle up to my gf some more.
We both get up about 10am as I explain some of the experience to her. She said I was doing fine until after I had the bump of K, and it was after then I started making noises like I was a little upset - like if your partner accidently steals the blankes. She wants a pie from the pie shop for breakfast (we didn't eat much the day before from the effects of the speed from the previous night, and the fact we were going to have K that evening) and I have a shower, get dressed and wander down to buy a couple of pies.
I sit here now its 3:47pm the same day. I feel fine, a little bit of a headache from last night, little bit of a hungover effect. I don't feel really bad mentally at all, like from a bad acid experience. I will still be having K again, although I will problably keep the initial intake a little less than last time. The K was rather strong - it had been cooked u p from a vial and not cut at all, this I was expecting. I can't really say I learned much or gained a lot, I wasn't setting out to either. I was expecting to have a pleasent recreational experience letting my mind create landscapes in time and synch with the music, as I had done in previous experiences. There are problably a few factors that caused the unpleasent time - My friend Bill's death certainlty tops the list, the fact that I had been out on speed and not slept could be another, the fact that my mind already had to deal with the bit of pot and the xanax early on. Perhaps I will be a bit more choosy for the next setting of K and any substances that I might have had earlier. A edgy post speed state vs a nice post MDMA state are quite different, I think I will consumed my next bit of K after going on on MDMA.
Hope you enjoyed
[ 30 March 2002: Message edited by: Soma ]
My self and my girlfriend had been out at an all night event. During that time we consumed about half a point of speed and a little GHB. We got back to a friends house for a little recovery and proceeded to have a small amount of Xanax a bit of pot. In the afternoon we went home, had a little bit more G, dallied around in bed for a bit and had a rest. Later on towards the evening my gf starts bugging me for K, so I source some and we went to her place to listen to some music in the dark - Art of Trance "There can not be no Armageddon" on Platipus (its an amazing K CD)
I have had K on numerous occasions, although I would not call my self an expert I'm no novice. I have an experiences in the past from being a little floaty, to having my mind become a liquid that sloshed around
T+0 - (8.pm) We put on the CD in the lounge room, pull up a matress and some blankets and snort about 3/4 of a point. I decide 'lets put on some TV whilst we wait for the effect', we put it on a very good comedy show that last half an hour. After that time we are definantly starting to notice the K effects.
T+0.30 - TV goes off and we finish off the remaining 1/4 of a point. We line up another point 'just in case we want a bump' later. CD goes back on, lights out and into the matress we go.
T+1.00 - Hmmmmm this is not quite as fun as I remember it to be. Getting very disslocated from reality, although the shape my mind takes as the music swells and generates soundscapes is a bit fun. My mind seems to be going from one reality to the next, although it is not a true reality as you would see it with your eyes, its more of the reality you have when you are thinking deeply about something and you get interrupted. I'm not really enjoying it at this stage, thinking once 'Hang on, what are we actually trying to achieve here on the matress with the music. This is K I'm doing yeah? Jeez I feel odd.' Another phase shift again - almost like you view reality as a cube, you walk along one side of the cube, you turn the corner and are shifted into another reality/way of thinking. Something funny happens, I can't remember what, and I giggle a little.
T+1.15 - We both get up to go to the toilet. Walking is difficult which is to be expected. Legs feel like I'm just walking on stumps. I look at my gf with one eye and laugh - she looks giant one instant and tiny the next although she keeps the same proportion to the room. She then says 'lets have this other point'. I think at this stage I'd forgotten that I had not been having a real good time of it
T+2.00 We both have another half a point each. I restart the CD which is nearly on the last track. I have 3 Kava kava complex capsuals (the amount it says to have on the bottle before you sleep) that I bought from the chemists to relax me a little.
T+2.15 I start to worry. Things aren't quite right. The disslocation is a too extreme and I worry that I've had too much. I start to remember my good friend Bill who had just died 2 weeks ago slipping over at a bush party. I sense an essense of Bill in my reality - which is not a good thing, because I associate Bill with death. I breath and thinking "I'm breathing", then think "Did I just breath because I thought to do it? I hope I'm not too anethatised to stop breathing unless I think to do it!" I take a couple of deep breaths and my mind state has another phase shift again. Its hard to remember what is going on sometimes from one state to the next, and I'll arrive thinking 'how the hell was I just thinking I was in that particular state before', then promptly forget and have to deal with the new reality.
T+2.30 I start to panic a bit more. Not a good thing. My mind shifts around and I think I could be dead. I'm so dislocated that I thought there was a chance that prehaps I had died, and my little sense of mind that I had left exists alone in this state of limbo. Nothing else in my brain is working. I wonder if the bit of consiousness that is defines 'you' goes not noware now as brain activity stops, but you are still aware. Am I alone, trapped in my own dead universe for evermore because I'm dead?
T+2.35 I remember somehow my gf could be around somewhere! I call out her name softly a couple of times - if she answers perhaps I'm not dead! Perhaps I'm not alone trapped in myself! She answers - its not quite an all conquoring breathrough that sets everything right, it just pulled me back a little bit more to the path. I start to feel a little queezy and she helps be to the kitchen sink where I'm not sure if I was sick or not . I don't think I was. I am very confused to what is going on. Time means nothing and is totally unfathomable. My girlfriend is not much better considering we had the same amount of K. She comforts me a little and she takes me to sit down on a chair. I ask "Are we still fucked on K"? She answers that we are and its OK. I sit a little, sob problably twice and then walk (it seems on my stumpy legs!) to the toilet. I look in the mirror there, feeling a little better, and am amazed the effect K has on your perception of things, my face, whilst was me, did not look like me. My hand which is my hand, doesn't look right, the fingers look squat. I remember this effect from previous K experiences. I still feel very shaken from the last hour.
T+2:45 My gf leads me to bed and I sit in the bed with the lights on for a little while. I manage to speak a little, telling her in part of what I was feeling, asked a couple of times "what happened?". She listens and comfort me. I am still experiencing K effects although not as strong as before. I look at the roof and marvel at the effects of K on vision. My prior understanding of K is that is basically stops messages from being recieved to parts of your brain, so your consiousness basically fills it in. I marvel and play around a little with this effect on my vision. I can see a blotchy spot in the middle of my vision where it looks like sand, the same colour as the roof intermittently gets sprinkled on the roof. I think to myself again"Its like my brain is filling in the gaps where the K is!" and am just content to use this effect.
T+2:50 I panic a little as some earlier thoughts manifest in my mind. I call out for my gf who had just wandered into the next room. She comes quickly to me and I am comforted somewhat.
T:3.30 I had apparenty not said anything for a long long time. I was sitting up just staring into space. I don't remember this part at all.
Conclusion - I don't really remember going to sleep at all. My gf said she actually woke me up once because I was not moving at all and she was worried that I could be dead, which of course I was not - remember, she was having K as well so little unrealities have to be delt with as if they were a true reality. A theme perhaps for the whole experience? I find that K is not very relaxing sometime. You can't 'escape' my switching your mind off, but at the same time you can't concentrate on anything at all. As you try and deal with one reality, it moves around and shift in your mind that one mine set to another is totally different. I woke up at 7pm, it was still dark but I hear a town hall clock chime in the distance. I think to myself that I'm glad its over and cuddle up to my gf some more.
We both get up about 10am as I explain some of the experience to her. She said I was doing fine until after I had the bump of K, and it was after then I started making noises like I was a little upset - like if your partner accidently steals the blankes. She wants a pie from the pie shop for breakfast (we didn't eat much the day before from the effects of the speed from the previous night, and the fact we were going to have K that evening) and I have a shower, get dressed and wander down to buy a couple of pies.
I sit here now its 3:47pm the same day. I feel fine, a little bit of a headache from last night, little bit of a hungover effect. I don't feel really bad mentally at all, like from a bad acid experience. I will still be having K again, although I will problably keep the initial intake a little less than last time. The K was rather strong - it had been cooked u p from a vial and not cut at all, this I was expecting. I can't really say I learned much or gained a lot, I wasn't setting out to either. I was expecting to have a pleasent recreational experience letting my mind create landscapes in time and synch with the music, as I had done in previous experiences. There are problably a few factors that caused the unpleasent time - My friend Bill's death certainlty tops the list, the fact that I had been out on speed and not slept could be another, the fact that my mind already had to deal with the bit of pot and the xanax early on. Perhaps I will be a bit more choosy for the next setting of K and any substances that I might have had earlier. A edgy post speed state vs a nice post MDMA state are quite different, I think I will consumed my next bit of K after going on on MDMA.
Hope you enjoyed
[ 30 March 2002: Message edited by: Soma ]
