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adrenaline - alcohol -ketamine -1st time hole and traumatic stress
ok to set the scene it was a friday before a bank holiday last year in june, me and my housemate were travelling to see our boyfiends on the motorway. K's car span out of control on the motorway at around 6.30pm lets just put it like this we are very lucky to be alive and not to have even had a scratch.
our immediate reaction was to shake how we have never shaken before, the police and ambulance crew saw to us then me and K experienced the most wonderful, natural high i didnt think it would be possible to feel that way without chemicals.
we knew that this would be due to the massive surge of adrenaline we had just had.
it was now around 7.30pm we felt invincible, on top of the world, like it was every birthday, christmas and good night out rolled into one. neither of us felt so alive and havent since. we got to K's friends house and we both had a few big shots of vodka as we were still quite shaky. i was dropped off at my b/fs house at about 9 and i had never been so relieved to see anyone in my life.
that night i had a bit of a cry, but soon was laughing again and making plans for what i hoped would be the best weekend i had ever had (surely the most appreciated weekend i had ever had).
between the 2 of us we drank a 75cl bottle of vodka and went to bed, slightly drunk at midnight.
we then got a phonecall at 3 am from my b/fs mates asking us if they could come round and do some ket with us. i was still in invincible mood so i said why not?
at about 3.30 am they arrived with 1g of ket between 4 of us, my bf choosing to remain straight. i did not feel drunk at all anymore as i had slept it off so i joined in.
to start with i had a very small line, testing the water to see if it would make me sick, it didnt so then about 20 mins later i snorted a line that must have been about 150 mg. i wasnt very experienced with ket but the invinciblity was still there so without a thought i snorted it.
i entered my first k-hole there and then with the room changing shape and size constantly i actually felt like i was in a fast lift in a department store, we all did, it kinda freaked me out, instead of just going with it i couldnt help but think that feeling like i was in a lift was making me sick, so i screamed to get out.
then it was just back to the changing room/shape and music made me feel sick.
when i could move i got up to go outside because i needed to be sick, but was embarassed to be in front of everyone, they followed me however, i kept it in longer but i felt that because M was so fucked it was making me feel sicker in some weird kind of way. i threw up. i felt better immediately and went back inside to do a small line this time. that made me feel better still and i got the wicked floaty feeling back, now its 7am approx and we decide to go to bed, and i shut my eyes and have some nice visuals before i drift off.
after about 4 hours sleep, i wake up and feel fantastic, invincible but in a 'ket hangover' kind of way.
anyway to cut a long story short throughout that weekend i cried more and more and when it was time for me to leave my boyfriend i couldnt, i broke down and he didnt know what to do, for whatever reason i physically felt that i couldnt ever go back to my job or life in the different city, i couldnt stay with him for much longer as he was due to be moving out soon, so i went home to my parents where i was diagnosed with having post traumatic stress syndrome, this can be due to having such massive adrenaline levels, but as i found out the other day it can also be a side affect of ketamine.thats why i decided to post this here.
what happened i'll never know but i thought i would share this with you. please forgive me if some of this report is sketchy and its also my first trip report. thank you for listening.
L
ok to set the scene it was a friday before a bank holiday last year in june, me and my housemate were travelling to see our boyfiends on the motorway. K's car span out of control on the motorway at around 6.30pm lets just put it like this we are very lucky to be alive and not to have even had a scratch.
our immediate reaction was to shake how we have never shaken before, the police and ambulance crew saw to us then me and K experienced the most wonderful, natural high i didnt think it would be possible to feel that way without chemicals.
we knew that this would be due to the massive surge of adrenaline we had just had.
it was now around 7.30pm we felt invincible, on top of the world, like it was every birthday, christmas and good night out rolled into one. neither of us felt so alive and havent since. we got to K's friends house and we both had a few big shots of vodka as we were still quite shaky. i was dropped off at my b/fs house at about 9 and i had never been so relieved to see anyone in my life.
that night i had a bit of a cry, but soon was laughing again and making plans for what i hoped would be the best weekend i had ever had (surely the most appreciated weekend i had ever had).
between the 2 of us we drank a 75cl bottle of vodka and went to bed, slightly drunk at midnight.
we then got a phonecall at 3 am from my b/fs mates asking us if they could come round and do some ket with us. i was still in invincible mood so i said why not?
at about 3.30 am they arrived with 1g of ket between 4 of us, my bf choosing to remain straight. i did not feel drunk at all anymore as i had slept it off so i joined in.
to start with i had a very small line, testing the water to see if it would make me sick, it didnt so then about 20 mins later i snorted a line that must have been about 150 mg. i wasnt very experienced with ket but the invinciblity was still there so without a thought i snorted it.
i entered my first k-hole there and then with the room changing shape and size constantly i actually felt like i was in a fast lift in a department store, we all did, it kinda freaked me out, instead of just going with it i couldnt help but think that feeling like i was in a lift was making me sick, so i screamed to get out.
then it was just back to the changing room/shape and music made me feel sick.
when i could move i got up to go outside because i needed to be sick, but was embarassed to be in front of everyone, they followed me however, i kept it in longer but i felt that because M was so fucked it was making me feel sicker in some weird kind of way. i threw up. i felt better immediately and went back inside to do a small line this time. that made me feel better still and i got the wicked floaty feeling back, now its 7am approx and we decide to go to bed, and i shut my eyes and have some nice visuals before i drift off.
after about 4 hours sleep, i wake up and feel fantastic, invincible but in a 'ket hangover' kind of way.
anyway to cut a long story short throughout that weekend i cried more and more and when it was time for me to leave my boyfriend i couldnt, i broke down and he didnt know what to do, for whatever reason i physically felt that i couldnt ever go back to my job or life in the different city, i couldnt stay with him for much longer as he was due to be moving out soon, so i went home to my parents where i was diagnosed with having post traumatic stress syndrome, this can be due to having such massive adrenaline levels, but as i found out the other day it can also be a side affect of ketamine.thats why i decided to post this here.
what happened i'll never know but i thought i would share this with you. please forgive me if some of this report is sketchy and its also my first trip report. thank you for listening.
L
