gotsushi
Greenlighter
Why is anyone surprised at the negative repercussions of using drugs? I was born in the seventies, and even then, in the dark ages, there
was a pretty strong anti-drug campaign. Nope to dope, ugh to drugs, anyone?
I understand drinking alcohol, because it is nationally/internationally accepted. Maybe even weed. There isn't the negative stigma associated with it, other than the remnants of the reefer madness era propaganda. But cocaine, meth, opiates, and to a lesser extent
hallucinogenics? There is a high percentage that you will become addicted to amphetamines and opiates after only a couple of uses, and
more than enough anecdotal evidence that you will fry your brain and end up with flashbacks or worse, HPPD, after frequent use of
hallucinogens. Why take the chance?
I guess I'm a nerd because I was afraid to try that line I was offered in high school, or to drop that hit of acid at my first Grateful Dead
show. I had a couple of really good friends who, at that time, were gung ho about acid, shrooms, and bowl after bowl of weed. One of them
ended up spending two years in state prison for selling acid. He ended up homeless at 24. To this day, he was the greatest surfer I've ever
seen in person. He was pulling aerials like Christian Fletcher back in 1990. He'd gotten sponsors and could have gone pro if it weren't for the
prison thing.
I'd had friends try meth and end up in jail, losing their drivers license, losing jobs, apartments, girlfriends, kids. The friends who thought it
would be a fun idea to try heroine, ended up either living at home (to this day) at 40 with no car, no girlfriend or wife, or dead. I guess I
wasn't brave enough to go with them downtown during that first trip when they were going to "score" for the first time. Scoring to me
meant getting laid. lol.
In general, everyone knows that drugs bring bad things: Jail, unemployment, lack of motivation, lack of interest in the world around you, loss of friends, family, and the ability to concentrate. I also realize that most who begin taking drugs are probably under the age of twenty, an age when it's commonplace to feel immortal, untouchable. Everyone thinks it won't happen to them. I've never understood it. My Mom
always said "if everyone was jumping off a tall building, would you do it too?" That's how I see it. You know it will fuck you, but you still do
it anyway. Is it weakness, lack of self worth, stupidity, or denial?
My brother is 34. Right now he's in LA county jail, tower 1 (the psych area). About six years ago, I realized he was exhibiting signs of
schizophrenia. It took me a year to convince my parents. Since then, he's been in jail over 100 times for things such as intoxicated in public, possession, annoyance of a minor, loitering, and several instances of 5150. He's been locked in several county mental facilities for as much as 30-day stays (until this time), and still refuses to take his meds (respiritol, etc sp?). He'll smoke crack like it was his best friend though.
He's been homeless off and on over these last six years, and basically ruined my parents' lives. My mom has gotten him on SSDI, and set up in a tiny trailer in a park in the ghetto. But my brother still tried to baptize himself in people's backyard pools and still wears gloves to
prevent spirits from gnawing on his fingertips. Only in the last year has he admitted that he has mental problems. Only because he can't
even hear the television over his voices. To make my point: he was a great kid, straight A student, began doing alcohol and weed at 11
when my parents divorced. OD'd on pills and alcohol that same year. In and out of rehabs, college hospital, drug camps in Utah and Idaho,
etc. Dropped out of school at ninth grade. Now he walks like an ape and eats like a caveman, a combination of never learning to hold
silverware properly, and his schizophrenic tics. The bottom line is, he'd be normal if he hadn't done drugs. I'm six years older and always had
way more disciplinary problems, but managed to escape the mental illness. Read many of the posts on Bluelight and Erowid. Many talk about
becoming schizophrenic like it was just an expected thing to them. As someone who is getting older and paying too many taxes, it pisses me
off that our country would have to support mentally ill people WHO CAUSED IT THEMSELVES.
Hopefully this post gets to someone and makes you have that epiphany. That enlightenment that you're so seeking through shrooms,
mescaline or peyote. Tell your friends that drugs are bad. Life doesn't suck that bad. Find a good hobby or a partner to spend some quality
time with between the sheets. Sex is awesome sober too. Remind yourself that once your mind is tricked into feel so fucking good on drugs,
regular life will feel lame. It's just a trick. Remind yourself that once you feel so amazing high, you'll need more next time to feel the same
way. Or just stick to NON addictive drugs. Drugs that won't put you in prison if you get caught with them. It just seems so obvious to me.
I guess I just don't get the mentality. I like knowing what I'm doing. Why be alive if YOU aren't actually living? I'm sure this post will piss
off some folks, but fuck it. If it helps ONE person, it served its purpose. BTW, I'm not proofreading this book, so there might be some
grammatical errors. That's nothing uncommon on a drug forum though. lol
was a pretty strong anti-drug campaign. Nope to dope, ugh to drugs, anyone?
I understand drinking alcohol, because it is nationally/internationally accepted. Maybe even weed. There isn't the negative stigma associated with it, other than the remnants of the reefer madness era propaganda. But cocaine, meth, opiates, and to a lesser extent
hallucinogenics? There is a high percentage that you will become addicted to amphetamines and opiates after only a couple of uses, and
more than enough anecdotal evidence that you will fry your brain and end up with flashbacks or worse, HPPD, after frequent use of
hallucinogens. Why take the chance?
I guess I'm a nerd because I was afraid to try that line I was offered in high school, or to drop that hit of acid at my first Grateful Dead
show. I had a couple of really good friends who, at that time, were gung ho about acid, shrooms, and bowl after bowl of weed. One of them
ended up spending two years in state prison for selling acid. He ended up homeless at 24. To this day, he was the greatest surfer I've ever
seen in person. He was pulling aerials like Christian Fletcher back in 1990. He'd gotten sponsors and could have gone pro if it weren't for the
prison thing.
I'd had friends try meth and end up in jail, losing their drivers license, losing jobs, apartments, girlfriends, kids. The friends who thought it
would be a fun idea to try heroine, ended up either living at home (to this day) at 40 with no car, no girlfriend or wife, or dead. I guess I
wasn't brave enough to go with them downtown during that first trip when they were going to "score" for the first time. Scoring to me
meant getting laid. lol.
In general, everyone knows that drugs bring bad things: Jail, unemployment, lack of motivation, lack of interest in the world around you, loss of friends, family, and the ability to concentrate. I also realize that most who begin taking drugs are probably under the age of twenty, an age when it's commonplace to feel immortal, untouchable. Everyone thinks it won't happen to them. I've never understood it. My Mom
always said "if everyone was jumping off a tall building, would you do it too?" That's how I see it. You know it will fuck you, but you still do
it anyway. Is it weakness, lack of self worth, stupidity, or denial?
My brother is 34. Right now he's in LA county jail, tower 1 (the psych area). About six years ago, I realized he was exhibiting signs of
schizophrenia. It took me a year to convince my parents. Since then, he's been in jail over 100 times for things such as intoxicated in public, possession, annoyance of a minor, loitering, and several instances of 5150. He's been locked in several county mental facilities for as much as 30-day stays (until this time), and still refuses to take his meds (respiritol, etc sp?). He'll smoke crack like it was his best friend though.
He's been homeless off and on over these last six years, and basically ruined my parents' lives. My mom has gotten him on SSDI, and set up in a tiny trailer in a park in the ghetto. But my brother still tried to baptize himself in people's backyard pools and still wears gloves to
prevent spirits from gnawing on his fingertips. Only in the last year has he admitted that he has mental problems. Only because he can't
even hear the television over his voices. To make my point: he was a great kid, straight A student, began doing alcohol and weed at 11
when my parents divorced. OD'd on pills and alcohol that same year. In and out of rehabs, college hospital, drug camps in Utah and Idaho,
etc. Dropped out of school at ninth grade. Now he walks like an ape and eats like a caveman, a combination of never learning to hold
silverware properly, and his schizophrenic tics. The bottom line is, he'd be normal if he hadn't done drugs. I'm six years older and always had
way more disciplinary problems, but managed to escape the mental illness. Read many of the posts on Bluelight and Erowid. Many talk about
becoming schizophrenic like it was just an expected thing to them. As someone who is getting older and paying too many taxes, it pisses me
off that our country would have to support mentally ill people WHO CAUSED IT THEMSELVES.
Hopefully this post gets to someone and makes you have that epiphany. That enlightenment that you're so seeking through shrooms,
mescaline or peyote. Tell your friends that drugs are bad. Life doesn't suck that bad. Find a good hobby or a partner to spend some quality
time with between the sheets. Sex is awesome sober too. Remind yourself that once your mind is tricked into feel so fucking good on drugs,
regular life will feel lame. It's just a trick. Remind yourself that once you feel so amazing high, you'll need more next time to feel the same
way. Or just stick to NON addictive drugs. Drugs that won't put you in prison if you get caught with them. It just seems so obvious to me.
I guess I just don't get the mentality. I like knowing what I'm doing. Why be alive if YOU aren't actually living? I'm sure this post will piss
off some folks, but fuck it. If it helps ONE person, it served its purpose. BTW, I'm not proofreading this book, so there might be some
grammatical errors. That's nothing uncommon on a drug forum though. lol
