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Jwill45

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I'm in a sticky situation like a lot of people on here addicted and about to quit is there a few people out there willing to help and give me advice for the next month ..going thru a tough time lost my girl and I feel like I have nothing going for me she was my everything she isn't completely gone but for some reason I feel like she is ..Idk the most important thing is getting clean then I will have her back but I have so many questions I have detoxed a lot in the past but this time is different I have school I need to get to and work and this is the most I've ever been doing I will explain what I'm on once I have a few people in my corner but please not sarcastic people or people who want to dwell on useing I really want to be and get clean for myself and I need help anyone out there?
 
So I am a week off the dope.... See I am a sniffing addict trying to recover also with 7 days strong. And I also wason the grip of losing my lady. Like hankjones28 has said. HOLD HER bro. Dont let her go. Does she know your addiction? Now if not thats sticky but its mind over matter and you control your mind not th3 dope. If shes in your corner just go to her and tell her you need her and you dont want to lose her. And you arw getting straight first for you then for you two... im in your corner. ... Were in the same boat
 
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Yeah she knows what's going on that's the problem she's clean herself and I am ducking up but I never once used around her I kept it a secret and lied but we are working on things and she said she wants to be with me and work it out I guess so I'm in good spirits today but it is still so damn hard cause we aren't together Idk I'm just confused I guess
 
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This is the third time I'm gonna get clean ..the first time at home though it's the first time I'm doing it cause I want to not cause I have to. My girl has said she is there for me and that she is gonna help me and stick by my side but I need you guys help
 
So I'm not worried about the girl I'm worried about me now I've gotten clean be for so I can do it again ive just never been on this much so how much were you on and how bad were the seven days ?
 
I'm in the same boat, except it's my husband... I swore on our wedding day I would never use again(I'm an all opiate addict) or he would be gone. Exactly one year later, I'm trying to decide whether to go to medical detox or detox, then inpatient; I don't even know why he's still here(he does understand more than normal people since he's a recovering addict of over 15 years...).... But regardless, he's been sick of it.....he feels like he escaped that world only to get sucked back in it..... I can't blame him; I just hope he hangs in there long enough for me to get it..... I did have a year once; we were the happiest we'd ever been and I can be there again, just need someone to help me help myself, lol.... Hang in there.
welcome to bluelight!
Ziebug
 
We're like in the same boat I know we can do this together and she says she is here and wants to be with me and today I changed my phone number and the only people I have in there are her and my family and a few sober friends but it feels like she isn't there and this is when I need her the most and I'm hoping she will be there I know no matter what would ever happen I wouldn't leave her I'd always be there for her cause that's what love is I've always been loyal to her but she thinks that me doing drugs is cheating on her and maybe she is right but all I know is I love her way to much I'd never cheat on her or hurt her again ...but if I was you I'd do impatient detox so you onow you can't go out and use
 
I'm in a sticky situation like a lot of people on here addicted and about to quit is there a few people out there willing to help and give me advice for the next month ..going thru a tough time lost my girl and I feel like I have nothing going for me she was my everything she isn't completely gone but for some reason I feel like she is ..Idk the most important thing is getting clean then I will have her back but I have so many questions I have detoxed a lot in the past but this time is different I have school I need to get to and work and this is the most I've ever been doing I will explain what I'm on once I have a few people in my corner but please not sarcastic people or people who want to dwell on useing I really want to be and get clean for myself and I need help anyone out there?

Hiya, you've come to the right place. There's a lot of help n support here. The recovery sub-forums (the dark side n sober living) are full of people in similar situation who are very good with support n they are very informative. Other Drugs also has a lot of good information n well-experienced users of various substances.

Take care n hope you enjoy the site.

Evey
 
Wow... I never imagined that there'd be so many other people out there who are goin through the same stuff I am....you guys pretty much summed up my history with addiction/spousal support issues. It gives me hope, fer shure
 
Yeah it's terrible for sure but I spoke to soon and got to worried to soon she loves me way to much to leave Me when I need her the most...but I need to get clean and stop lieing or else I will lose her so I got like 3 weeks and 15 subs how should I do a taper I've read so much and I'm just curious to hear other peoples experiences I've quit be for all being cold turkey I am obv scared I hate withdrawals and I'm on the highest dose I've ever been on so let me know what you guys think ..last time I switched back to subs I went into precipitated withdrawals and holy craps that sucked I dont ever want to do that again
 
I feel you man. Same situation here. I'm no expert by far, but I'd like to say that I've educated myself through the years to get by. Can I ask first what your r.o.a.(route of administration - I had to ask too lol) is on the subs and what your normal daily doseage is? The hardest part for me was to stop the IV. When I first went sublingual & just started weaning myself down by cutting the strips into smaller slivers, week by week. But even after a month of doing that, the wd's when I went 100% cold turkey on the subs were a bitch. I had to go to work & function, & the only thing I could find was the Fent...thats where I F'd up. The wd's from the Fent were TERRIBLE!!! So I'm just coping now with my "green medicine" lol (it really helps with the stomach cramps). I'm getting ready to order online something I've been researching... It's a 100% natural herbal extract called Krantom that comes from the Mitagyna plant. I've heard that the red variety is best for withdrawals, but idk yet. It's a powder or capsule you can make tea & whatnot with. I can keep you posted on its efficacy if you want.... Stay strong my man, you can do it....
 
Well right now I am still doing all varietys of opiates and I pretty much do them however I can except iv ..I'm terrified of needles which is good but the problem is switching from like pills and what not to just subs I hate it cause I always put myself into precipitated withdrawals but right now I do whatever I can get I can easily do like 300 mgs of Oxy in a day and not feel high every time I do some it's crazy but soon I'm gonna have to do the withdrawals for 24 hrs and switch back over to the subs then work my way down then jump off I just don't wanna be on subs for to long cause I rather withdrawal hard for 7 days then withdrawal not so hard for 14+ days you know ?
 
Thanks Cap'n! ? Bluelight has def been my most go-to site for accurate & informed information & seems to have some very educated and knowledgeable people on board!! Keep fightin the good fight & feel free to let me know if there's ever anything I can do to help/benefit the collective if I can. Thanks again Boss...
 
My first post here, I successfully switched from snorting 200 mgs oxy a day to subs, then tapered the subs down to nothing...stayed clean for 4 years and am back up to swallowing about 150 mgs oxy a day...luckily I've only been back on for about a month, but I'm still looking at some shitty withdrawal days ahead of me....if u have any questions about subs lmk because I did it pretty successfully...you have to take your last oxy dose in the morning then not dose subs til the following morning or else you'll go into precipitated withdrawals.
 
Aye man look if you truly love your that you lost you'll do anything in your will to get her back, but first of all clean yourself man then try to approach her and show her that you've changed your habit life is hard at times man but you never give up say you clean yourself and she doesn't get back with you ? Are you going to quit on life ? No you don't you go find someone els and live a wonderful life man if it's meant to be it's meant to be but focuse on getting cleaned man it's not healthy
 
You hit the nail on the head Hitman...I've seen such a big change in my wife since I've quit. I didn't realize when I was on the shit just how much of a selfish asshole I was being! Now that I've been clean for almost a month & a half (except kratom), I can really see what she was/is going through. I've definitely got more empathy for her now. I've found that the more consideration I give her for having to deal with me and my situation, the more she's willing to give back ( I know, common sense...but I just didn't see it when all I was worried about was my own high). Great advice Hitman!! ??
 
Hey jwil..welcome to bluelight..a friend of mine recently quit a bad roxy habit..he tried using subs to taper off but in the end he just traded one addiction for another..ending ip being hooked on the subs..he actually said the wds from the subs were worse than the roxy..he did finally succeed and has now been quit for 6months..the way he did it was ...first he told work a family emergency haf come up and that he was going to need 5-7 days off..then he wentbout and got some pedialyte and xanax and valium..it was still rough..but it was ALOT easier getying thru the initial 3 days..the worst of it..by simply sleeping thru the wds..just wanted to throw another alternative out there for you..altho ziebug probably is goimg about it the right way..by getting professional help..detox is probably the smartest safest MOST COMFORTABLE way to go thru this..you can do this!!
 
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