SpecilKNY
Bluelighter
Well I always read long posts that you guys put on and sit and envy - why don't I have anything interesting to post - well now I have .
A bit background - I moved from israel a few month ago to the USA which is a hard move and you leave all your friends behind - someone like me who left house when 17 - dad left when I was 5 didn't really know what Love is and being Loved is
then I ran across Bluelight - I don't even remmember how - at first i checked out all the pill reports then the messages and then i started meeting people - the first time i met peopel (tigger,tshirt,drgnfly,climber,sunflower) I really understood the meaning of PLUR !! Bluelighters is my family now !!!
well back to the story and how it has to do with anything .. last night i went to Silly Potty 3 - from NYC - Eddie - a fellow bluelighter which i never met in my life came to pick me up from home !! (I love you guy) and he came with to friends.
We arrived there at 12:30 a.m and the cops were at the door - not letting anyone inside and saying the party ends at 2 - well we tried looking for something to do - but reqally couldn't find, eddie's friends has made arrangments to chill out with a girl in a small town in Conn - so we joined hem - after picking a few pills - from the kulest girl - who's her name i can't remmember !!
after driving forever we finally arrived in this small town in Conn (there was a cow and horse around when we got there - the coolest thing) - there we met this girl J - and her sister Jes and we dropped a few pills and took some Tabs (2 + 1) every one of us !! the weird thing is that he's friend never met this girl - he knows her threw the net - and we came four people to her house and had a great time - today afternoon - they were in a hurry so they dropped me down in the train station somewhere in upstate NY - who remmembers and i got home .
now why i wrote all this - as i said i never felt love - but yesterday while candy flipping (i usaully like to play mind games - put heads together and try to connect) i totally connected with Jes - it was like she took the trip with me - and when it ended - we both felt awsome like this weird connection iv'e known her forever - i done this a lot of times - this never happend b4 !!!
One prob - jes is 15 !!! i'm 23 - i sware nothing sexualy happend and i didn't even think that way (so no coming down on me) but I can't get this girl out of my mind she is amazing !! - what should I do ???? Help Please
Bluelighters - I love you all and i promise i will make every effort i can to meet as many as possible - this is my family and i love you guys !!!
Plur (and totally understanding it for first time in my life )
K
A bit background - I moved from israel a few month ago to the USA which is a hard move and you leave all your friends behind - someone like me who left house when 17 - dad left when I was 5 didn't really know what Love is and being Loved is

then I ran across Bluelight - I don't even remmember how - at first i checked out all the pill reports then the messages and then i started meeting people - the first time i met peopel (tigger,tshirt,drgnfly,climber,sunflower) I really understood the meaning of PLUR !! Bluelighters is my family now !!!
well back to the story and how it has to do with anything .. last night i went to Silly Potty 3 - from NYC - Eddie - a fellow bluelighter which i never met in my life came to pick me up from home !! (I love you guy) and he came with to friends.
We arrived there at 12:30 a.m and the cops were at the door - not letting anyone inside and saying the party ends at 2 - well we tried looking for something to do - but reqally couldn't find, eddie's friends has made arrangments to chill out with a girl in a small town in Conn - so we joined hem - after picking a few pills - from the kulest girl - who's her name i can't remmember !!
after driving forever we finally arrived in this small town in Conn (there was a cow and horse around when we got there - the coolest thing) - there we met this girl J - and her sister Jes and we dropped a few pills and took some Tabs (2 + 1) every one of us !! the weird thing is that he's friend never met this girl - he knows her threw the net - and we came four people to her house and had a great time - today afternoon - they were in a hurry so they dropped me down in the train station somewhere in upstate NY - who remmembers and i got home .
now why i wrote all this - as i said i never felt love - but yesterday while candy flipping (i usaully like to play mind games - put heads together and try to connect) i totally connected with Jes - it was like she took the trip with me - and when it ended - we both felt awsome like this weird connection iv'e known her forever - i done this a lot of times - this never happend b4 !!!
One prob - jes is 15 !!! i'm 23 - i sware nothing sexualy happend and i didn't even think that way (so no coming down on me) but I can't get this girl out of my mind she is amazing !! - what should I do ???? Help Please
Bluelighters - I love you all and i promise i will make every effort i can to meet as many as possible - this is my family and i love you guys !!!
Plur (and totally understanding it for first time in my life )
K