Hi,
I am a male 27 years old 6'3 185lb and for the past 4.5 years I've drank three 10% 500ml beers a night. I work full time and I am highly functional but I know this alcohol everyday is a problem. I am currently prescribed clonazepam 0.5mg BID for unrelated reasons, and I don't abuse them. I am now on day 6 of quitting drinking cold turkey because it has started to impact my cognitive function and I can tell it's starting to do some damage. The problem I'm feeling is that; although I have to quit, I don't want to. It's a weird feeling cause it feels like i'm just counting down the days until I start drinking again. I always drink alone, never have with others, and I've done this ritualistically after work every night without missing a day. I'm sure the clonazepam is contributing in subsiding any withdrawal I may have from alcohol, but I'm not sure if I'm physically dependent on it. The reason I quit was from a really bad hangover I had last weekend. I try to keep busy after work but the boredom is starting to become a real hindrance. I've attended one NA/AA session about a year ago, and I found it made me want to drink even more, so I did not continue to go to it, and it also contradicted my social phobia.
So it is now New Years eve, not drinking, just in a cycle thinking about it. Is this normal or do I have to hit rock bottom before I can quit? Just feels like a ticking time bomb at the moment..though I seem to be having some control over it.
Any input is greatly appreciated.
Thanks.
I am a male 27 years old 6'3 185lb and for the past 4.5 years I've drank three 10% 500ml beers a night. I work full time and I am highly functional but I know this alcohol everyday is a problem. I am currently prescribed clonazepam 0.5mg BID for unrelated reasons, and I don't abuse them. I am now on day 6 of quitting drinking cold turkey because it has started to impact my cognitive function and I can tell it's starting to do some damage. The problem I'm feeling is that; although I have to quit, I don't want to. It's a weird feeling cause it feels like i'm just counting down the days until I start drinking again. I always drink alone, never have with others, and I've done this ritualistically after work every night without missing a day. I'm sure the clonazepam is contributing in subsiding any withdrawal I may have from alcohol, but I'm not sure if I'm physically dependent on it. The reason I quit was from a really bad hangover I had last weekend. I try to keep busy after work but the boredom is starting to become a real hindrance. I've attended one NA/AA session about a year ago, and I found it made me want to drink even more, so I did not continue to go to it, and it also contradicted my social phobia.
So it is now New Years eve, not drinking, just in a cycle thinking about it. Is this normal or do I have to hit rock bottom before I can quit? Just feels like a ticking time bomb at the moment..though I seem to be having some control over it.
Any input is greatly appreciated.
Thanks.