I've finally kicked my lurking habit

[CashmereCat]

I've been lurking for over a decade and finally decided to join. I'm not much of a joiner but I'll make an exception for Bluelight, it's a place I've always come back to. I've done lots of different drugs, from common street drugs to obscure research chemicals. I struggled with opioid addiction from my early teens to my early twenties. I managed to get myself a fairly short adult prison sentence at 17 and a not so short one at 22, both for drugs. I stopped doing drugs entirely at the start of my second prison sentence and have been sober (not counting caffeine) for over 6 years.
I'm joining Bluelight in part because I've always liked the community vibe and also because I'm considering what my relationship with drugs might be in the future. I'm completely disillusioned about opioids, benzos, and sedatives generally and won't touch them again. I don't really have the same negative feelings towards psychedelics, empathogens, etc and I'm trying to work out what my relationship with them will be in the future. I don't know if I want to stay completely sober or moderately use some of the substances I enjoyed without addiction issues. I have a few years to figure it out and I think I'll mostly do it here. Anyway, I'm glad I've joined.

 

[ShulginsReincarnation]

I've been lurking for over a decade and finally decided to join. I'm not much of a joiner but I'll make an exception for Bluelight, it's a place I've always come back to. I've done lots of different drugs, from common street drugs to obscure research chemicals. I struggled with opioid addiction from my early teens to my early twenties. I managed to get myself a fairly short adult prison sentence at 17 and a not so short one at 22, both for drugs. I stopped doing drugs entirely at the start of my second prison sentence and have been sober (not counting caffeine) for over 6 years.
I'm joining Bluelight in part because I've always liked the community vibe and also because I'm considering what my relationship with drugs might be in the future. I'm completely disillusioned about opioids, benzos, and sedatives generally and won't touch them again. I don't really have the same negative feelings towards psychedelics, empathogens, etc and I'm trying to work out what my relationship with them will be in the future. I don't know if I want to stay completely sober or moderately use some of the substances I enjoyed without addiction issues. I have a few years to figure it out and I think I'll mostly do it here. Anyway, I'm glad I've joined.

Weclome. Glad to have you here especially after hearing what all you've been through in life thus far.

There are a lot of good people around here, but I am still a bit new to all the political this and that myself specific to this organization. I can assure you, if you can get passed that aspect of things this really is a lovely community.

I, myself, am a huge advocate for the use of psychedelics in healing from trauma after having been told for so many years that something was "wrong with me" for treating myself using perfectly natural compounds. That led me into exploring the vast avenues of the human mind, body, and spirit on so many different levels. I was just earlier listening to a quite profound lecture being given by Dr. David E. Nichols regarding the fact that he had inadvertently created so many of these research chemicals around today in an attempt to better understand the human mind, body, and spirit himself in essence. I honestly don't even know if he himself recognizes how brilliant it is to listen to such a man explain such paradoxes to someone such as myself who has always aspired to comprehend things to his capacity.

Anyway, yes, I like to ramble a lot but I am full of useful information and rumor is I'm actually a kind of tolerable person once you get to know me.... Or something like that... Idk...

 

[CashmereCat]

Hi, it's good to virtually meet you! I've always striven to be at least borderline tolerable myself, I think I've just about got there. Thanks for taking the time to give such a nice welcome. I've spent a lot of time IRL around dedicated drug users, but Bluelight is the only community I've ever come across where I can mention 4-ACO-DMT and expect people to know what I'm taking about, lots of people do drugs but far fewer study them.

I think a lot of drugs can be really useful tools, even opioids helped me survive a period of my life where suicide was something of siren song. I'm thankfully past the struggling to hold on years and now that I am I'm interested in psychedelics as a tool to aid me in further personal growth. I'm so much more mature and have so much more self knowledge now than when I used psychedelics very frequently in my teenage years that I think I can get a lot more out of them today. I don't see myself going back to daily consumption of any substance, but I do think psychedelics can be kind of a booster to the process of seeing and learning to love myself that I've been working on for a while now.

I'm completely ignorant of chemistry, but I really admire the chemists who've created some of these great substances. It's almost magical to make a substance like LSD, intentionally or not.

Anyway, I also sometimes ramble. Thanks again for the welcome. I hope I'll be able to navigate the politics alright, looking at the bright side, if I do piss anyone off they're much less likely to stab me over it than some people I've been around.

 

[nekointheclouds]

I've been lurking for over a decade and finally decided to join. I'm not much of a joiner but I'll make an exception for Bluelight, it's a place I've always come back to. I've done lots of different drugs, from common street drugs to obscure research chemicals. I struggled with opioid addiction from my early teens to my early twenties. I managed to get myself a fairly short adult prison sentence at 17 and a not so short one at 22, both for drugs. I stopped doing drugs entirely at the start of my second prison sentence and have been sober (not counting caffeine) for over 6 years.
I'm joining Bluelight in part because I've always liked the community vibe and also because I'm considering what my relationship with drugs might be in the future. I'm completely disillusioned about opioids, benzos, and sedatives generally and won't touch them again. I don't really have the same negative feelings towards psychedelics, empathogens, etc and I'm trying to work out what my relationship with them will be in the future. I don't know if I want to stay completely sober or moderately use some of the substances I enjoyed without addiction issues. I have a few years to figure it out and I think I'll mostly do it here. Anyway, I'm glad I've joined.

Welcome to the community!

It is a place many of us keep coming back to over the years for different reasons. I know the community is the main reason I’m here now. Sometimes only another Bluelight member can get you.

 

[CashmereCat]

Theme for the welcome! It's a cool community and definitely provides a place to discuss interests and experiences that aren't all that common. The chances of meeting someone who shares an interest in obscure psychedelics in everyday life are pretty low. They're not exactly dogs or NBA basketball.

 

[nekointheclouds]

When I joined I was in graduate school and doing student teaching for public schools, There was nobody around me I could talk to about drug related subjects and I had a MDPV problem.

I needed the understanding and empathy of this community just as much as I needed the actual advice.

 

[CashmereCat]

It's definitely a place where you can mention any drug related problem and receive acceptance and advice instead of looks of either horror or incomprehension IRL. An MDPV problem sounds pretty terrible, it's the only drug I've ever flushed. I don't particularly like stimulants and I didn't like it but I felt an intense compulsion to do more. I think that's kind of it's signature. I found it even fiendier than crack and much easier/cheaper to buy way too much of.

I've been at a loss before trying to think how to tell my mother I was not only addicted to elephant tranquilizer but using so much that neither detox or MAT were realistic options. And she knew I was an addict. Your situation must have been even harder to navigate.