So, I'm a 48y old male, been full time( never heard of any part timers hahaha) iv heroin addict for 10y , up to 2012, when I hit the bottom, went on 30days methadone detox, then 2y in rehab, and since last dose of methadone , never touched any opiate, I have aversion towards them, one time doctor wanted to prescribe me Tramadol for back pain, I refused to take it. During my heroin addiction, tried coke few times as speedball, was not impressed, probably it was low quality, and when you are heroin addict in Eastern Europe, coke is a bit too expensive for you....
Since 2017, I live in Ireland, have good job, well paid. Coke here is very good, if you know right people,I'm assuming that I'm getting stuff that's around 60%. Anyway, here I use coke only when i party with friends, if i go to see an escort, and I always sniff. Let's say once in 2 weeks i do coke .
Anyway, 2 days ago,my retarded addictive part of my personality decided to do one IV sesh alone . Got 1.5g, divided that into 10 shots(cca 0.15 each), got me a tray of 1mg Xanax, as i've heard that comedown after iv is much worse then after sniff. Coke was good, dissolved completely in cold water, added a bit of citric, just to feel if I'm missing, filter, and good to go.
First shot was awesome, that feeling" fly me to the moon, bellringer...). I was spacing out at least 45min between shots, as i thi nk in that way hits better.
Around 2am, I had 2 shots left. I say fuck it, time to finish, i'll do both in one. Pile looked big, so i took one big line of it(greedy cunt), and instead of throwing it down the toilet, sniffed it......Of course, didn't feel almost anything.
45min later prepared that last huge shot, registered, and slowly slammed it. Then it started......first bellringer, then my entire body started to shake uncontrollably. I thought I'm gonna die. had Xanax in a drawer in front of me, couldn't get up to reach it. After 30sec or so, shaking ease a bit, i took Xanax and chewed it in my mouth(not swallowed).
This was so fckn scary, I mean i had 2 heroin ODs, but with it, you just pass out, and wake up when narcan kiks in......This, like you know that something horrible is happening, you are fully aware, but unable to do anything.
I think that that line i separated from that last shot, saved my life
Since 2017, I live in Ireland, have good job, well paid. Coke here is very good, if you know right people,I'm assuming that I'm getting stuff that's around 60%. Anyway, here I use coke only when i party with friends, if i go to see an escort, and I always sniff. Let's say once in 2 weeks i do coke .
Anyway, 2 days ago,my retarded addictive part of my personality decided to do one IV sesh alone . Got 1.5g, divided that into 10 shots(cca 0.15 each), got me a tray of 1mg Xanax, as i've heard that comedown after iv is much worse then after sniff. Coke was good, dissolved completely in cold water, added a bit of citric, just to feel if I'm missing, filter, and good to go.
First shot was awesome, that feeling" fly me to the moon, bellringer...). I was spacing out at least 45min between shots, as i thi nk in that way hits better.
Around 2am, I had 2 shots left. I say fuck it, time to finish, i'll do both in one. Pile looked big, so i took one big line of it(greedy cunt), and instead of throwing it down the toilet, sniffed it......Of course, didn't feel almost anything.
45min later prepared that last huge shot, registered, and slowly slammed it. Then it started......first bellringer, then my entire body started to shake uncontrollably. I thought I'm gonna die. had Xanax in a drawer in front of me, couldn't get up to reach it. After 30sec or so, shaking ease a bit, i took Xanax and chewed it in my mouth(not swallowed).
This was so fckn scary, I mean i had 2 heroin ODs, but with it, you just pass out, and wake up when narcan kiks in......This, like you know that something horrible is happening, you are fully aware, but unable to do anything.
I think that that line i separated from that last shot, saved my life
