lalapanda
Bluelighter
- Joined
- Jan 30, 2013
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- 160
I'm a benzodiazepine addict and I went to rehab but then I left after six months bc I was sad and depressed and COVID-19 made rehab impossible. (Canceled classes, getting in trouble bc some girls im not even friends with, did something stupid and I was standing next to her)
Anyway! I'm smoking a bowl rn, wishing I had a xanny and a corona....ha ha)
I know you're probably all like, omg you're not sober if you're smoking weed. And I get it but I'm never out of my mind while stoned. Weed makes me feel okay. I'm taking mirtazapine, gabapentin,and Venlafaxine and sorry I sound stupid right now. I just can't stop thinking about benzos rn and I'm not sure what to do. I don't wanna call a sponsor bc I feel like a burden.
I don't think I've posted here in like 5 years!
I love you all!!!! please stay safe. Its a cruel world out there.
Anyway! I'm smoking a bowl rn, wishing I had a xanny and a corona....ha ha)
I know you're probably all like, omg you're not sober if you're smoking weed. And I get it but I'm never out of my mind while stoned. Weed makes me feel okay. I'm taking mirtazapine, gabapentin,and Venlafaxine and sorry I sound stupid right now. I just can't stop thinking about benzos rn and I'm not sure what to do. I don't wanna call a sponsor bc I feel like a burden.
I don't think I've posted here in like 5 years!
I love you all!!!! please stay safe. Its a cruel world out there.