never thought I'd say this but I am TRYING to get into the Methadone clinic! hurts to even write that but I give up! although I was able to throw together some clean time (not much, only days) I cant STAY clean; I am still blowing ALL MY CASH! I see/have nothing left; I give up! I was using around 2G's/day about 2 months back but now down to only 1G/day. splitting my shots into half shots and both are .5 and have me feeling "good". sometimes I will only use .5/shot for the day and be able to get by and save the other half till the following morning (thats if I am busy, or pass out early, or am able to somehow stop myself which is usually NOT the case).
I actually have a trip to San Diego at the end of the month to see an old friend; somehow afforded the tickets (well, put it on a credit card) and will be staying at his house not doing much and not spending much; going to have to bring 7 Suboxone w/ me just to get by; hoping all goes well for me and I feel OK enough to get by; I will probably be able to handle it since I have no connects and know I cannot be getting dope; we'll see, tho.
I actually have a trip to San Diego at the end of the month to see an old friend; somehow afforded the tickets (well, put it on a credit card) and will be staying at his house not doing much and not spending much; going to have to bring 7 Suboxone w/ me just to get by; hoping all goes well for me and I feel OK enough to get by; I will probably be able to handle it since I have no connects and know I cannot be getting dope; we'll see, tho.