It's been a while for me.

I've been away from BL for quite a while. I started a Suboxone program just about one year ago this month because I got a job. I worked for about 6 months, did way too many drugs and got myself fired.

I just had a job interview yesterday for something that I feel like is a dream job, at least for me. I have yet to hear back. Honestly, I'm not sure how confident I am about hearing back, but I can hope. I will be making way more than I ever made before.

I don't want to fall back into old habits though. I am still with my girlfriend. We're doing a lot better than we were before. I just relapsed with some birthday money, which I hate myself for. I don't want to let myself slip any further. I guess we'll see what happens. I don't know how much I will be on Bluelight because I do get a lot of cravings from certain forums and threads.

All I can do is my best, right?

sigh

I guess we'll see what happens from here!

 

Good to hear from you! Relapse is a part of it. Don't let it diminish all the progress you have made,

 

Good to see you! Taking it one day at a time is a little easier and less overwhelming. I totally get not wanting to be on Bluelight too. There are a lot of triggers around here!