Now...I have misplaced maybe even lost my cell phone. So now I can't call Sean, can't even tell him to call the house phone until I find it. I've looked. Stupid, stupid, it will teach me to zip my god damn purse. The weekend is all we REALLY have. Its just one more thing to try to push me over the edge. My anxiety level is so high and now this. I cleaned my car the other day and went out in pjs in the cold to try to find it. Its likely dead. jesus fucking christ why do I ever even fuck try. I fail at everything, at getting a job, at doing enough for my family...my brother felt the need to call me a cunt today because I didn't understand him...I wanted to go cry but had no where to go.
But now I can and I have been on and off for hours. I HATE THIS! god damn it!
But now I can and I have been on and off for hours. I HATE THIS! god damn it!