it doesnt matter what I do!

[needachange]

Please someone tell me how to handle things and what you can say because its no use. Im on methadone, i didnt know when i came off oxycontin back in jan 27/09 that my cycle gets reset and i can easily get pregnant. Fast forward, managed to beat down cas because im clean, have all my carry's all on a pam and a antideprressant. Living with what i thought was a friend. constantly belittles me. says all i do is sleep but must of all im still a fucking junky at that fucking loser place i need to go to every week. you can pm for more private details i have nothing to hide im not perfect. But I have my baby thats 2 and a half for a reason. Im moving out and now im getting such bad shit i cant explain.....Im a horrible mom, i do nothing, this person has raised her????? im pretty sure i went to the hosptial bank n forth for 7 weeks to breast-feed on the ttc and had my own place untill she was 8 months old then this brilliant idea. i dont even care anymore but what can i say when these people are not perfect but insult me always...........I dont care anymore, but i just want a comeback thats says fuck off leave us alone. butt i dont want to make enemies cuz people are evil.???

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[spork]

Hi needachange, I'm sorry you're going through such a difficult time right now. Have you checked out The Dark Side yet? I think you'll find a lot of support there for the problems that you're having and a lot of compassion in the mods and regulars over there. I hope things get better for you soon.

 

[needachange]

thanks im going to try that out right now!

 

[XTC_fiend]

People often put others down to make themselves feel better..
In highschooler terms just for fun ill put it this way. The "friend" seems like she mad jelly lol.

but for real i would either see a therapist and if that is not an option bluelight's the dark side if a free therapist in a way with many options and great advice.

BTW i bet your a great mother. Just make sure you stay clean for your child. As long as your doing no wrong in life you have nothing to worry about and you should know none of those accusations are true because after all you know your actions and your morals and values.

Depression is a nasty thing even with medication. First hand experience gives me such empathy toward you.
good luck in your future endeavours and make sure you give your child all she needs as she is dependent on you and if you slip into bad habits chances are her life will turn to hell and no child deserves that. But im sure you know this and care for her.

 

[Danny27]

Hey I'm new to this and I just wanted to say it sounds like your having a hard time. I am on subutex at the moment just got out of jail for the first time i dont drink anymore or do cocaine so that's a bonus at least. I know exactly how you feel I was getting told I was a shit dad by people I slept all day due to my use of heroin but I am more level now and have truly found inner peace whilst in prison, i had to have it all taken away from me to get what I needed, but thats what worked for me. Don't worry what people say because opinions are like arseholes, everybody's got one. all the best