Cloudsurfer
Greenlighter
- Joined
- Nov 9, 2011
- Messages
- 31
I'll make it brief, I don't want to waste you guys-es time.
-I get annoyed and anxious when I am around friends. I usually feel pressured to be interesting and I hate it. I feel like I can't carry on a conversation because I have this bad feeling in the pit of my gut, and anyone who is talking to me I want them to go away. I prefer being alone. Basically people suck. One day out of the week I'll be in a good enough mood to want to talk to people.
-I have to force myself to do anything productive. Most of the time I don't end up doing anything. The only thing I don't feel like I'm forcing myself to do is go on the computer or eat.
-When I get up in the morning, even with 8 hour sleep, I feel like udder shit, and the thought of the day ahead makes me cringe.
-I have random bouts of suicidal thoughts (playing over various scenarios and ways of killing myself in my head) for some reason they make me feel a little better.
-My self image and body image is terrible. I basically feel like I'm a complete lose/failure/ugly/dumbass. I also hate the fact I'm homosexual.
Are people supposed to feel this way? Cause honestly if this is what its gunna be like for the rest of my life then I don't want to be alive for any length of time.
-I get annoyed and anxious when I am around friends. I usually feel pressured to be interesting and I hate it. I feel like I can't carry on a conversation because I have this bad feeling in the pit of my gut, and anyone who is talking to me I want them to go away. I prefer being alone. Basically people suck. One day out of the week I'll be in a good enough mood to want to talk to people.
-I have to force myself to do anything productive. Most of the time I don't end up doing anything. The only thing I don't feel like I'm forcing myself to do is go on the computer or eat.
-When I get up in the morning, even with 8 hour sleep, I feel like udder shit, and the thought of the day ahead makes me cringe.
-I have random bouts of suicidal thoughts (playing over various scenarios and ways of killing myself in my head) for some reason they make me feel a little better.
-My self image and body image is terrible. I basically feel like I'm a complete lose/failure/ugly/dumbass. I also hate the fact I'm homosexual.
Are people supposed to feel this way? Cause honestly if this is what its gunna be like for the rest of my life then I don't want to be alive for any length of time.