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is this considered "suicidal?" give me ur opinion...

That not a bad idea actually. Only problem would be snow, I'm terrifiied of driving in it, now that all I have is a small car and not the mans' ram..hell maybe even get tattooed togethr or something, I know you were thinking about it. I know I want to do it, I'd like the pain. Be a nice relief for the mental.
 
That's a great idea, hun. I'd love to get inked with you. <3 Let me know when and we can do it. :)
 
sconnie420 said:
That not a bad idea actually. Only problem would be snow, I'm terrifiied of driving in it, now that all I have is a small car and not the mans' ram..hell maybe even get tattooed togethr or something, I know you were thinking about it. I know I want to do it, I'd like the pain. Be a nice relief for the mental.
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lol on the small car sconnie. i have a little ford aspire (not much bigger then a fiestiva lol ) and i have been driving it in this wonderful snowy state of ours for years now. its quite simple. dont go too fast, hit your brakes too hard and give yourself a little more time all. never been in a accident with the little car(knock on wood lol) last winter as you know was mild and dry. who knows this winter might be the same.
 
Spork~ soon, and if not def. @ tax time..

Flower~ thnx man, ud b the only 1..

Boarder~ I'm just not use to a small car yet.. Its so weird going from a large truck to small car.
 
The thing with unconditional love is that we all want it but rarely do we give it. I didn't even know what it looked like until I had my kids. When I saw what it was, the acceptance of a whole person, love that did not need to ever even be returned to exist, I was blown away. What if we all did that for each other? Love is so often confused with getting your existential loneliness masked.
 
I know you posted this a while back, and I hope your situation has improved since, but I'm fairly sure what you are describing isn't considered as clinically suicidal. It's called suicidal ideation, distinguished by whether you have an active plan or not.

I've often times simply wished I was dead, ceasing to exist, but never contrived a suicidal plan of action. While I know I was suffering various circumstantial calamities during those times, I didn't consider myself suicidal then, and do not now.

It's like the difference between situational depressions and chronic depression.
 
Hey, thnx for your reply hun. I appreciate all the input I can get. My situation has improved a little. I've since, been semi regulated on a medication so that does help quite a bit, but shit still creeps in every now and then, especially when times get tough. I'm not good @ dealing w/ stressful situations.

On the othr hand, I did attempt suicide a few weeks back. I know this is going to sound irresponcible but, plz dnt judge me for what I'm about to say.
I had ACCIDENTALLY od on a lg dose of xannex.. I blacked out for about 18 hours(which has NEVER happend to me b4 and not what I was going for). Well in the mist of my blackout I ate a bottle of sleeping pills, tried hanging myself twice, and slit my wrist.. Some1 was here w/ me and surprisingly didn't call the police. I'm assuming this is how I survived, but these are all 2nd hand accounts from the person as I don't remember anything.

Makes me wonder if, you know.

My counselor did mention the suicidal ideation though..

Its exhausting being such a head case, leme tell ya.
 
Oh damn Sconnie, I'm glad you're alright. Xanax even 2-3 mg knocks me into amnesia. There are things I've done on bars that I have no recollection of. It scares me too. I've been sectioned for "suicidal idealation" as well and waking up in a psych hospital is never fun. I'm trying to keep myself together and this time of year is especially hard. Being I have a teenage boy expecting presents for Christmas and I have no job. How can I let him down like this? I had a small stroke over Thanksgiving weekend and I feel better now but a little unsteady and these headaches are pissing me off.

You can get through this. Thank goodness you had a friend there to help you. You really don't wish to die, you just feel like shit. I've been told "this will pass" and just said fuck it and gave up. But I can't live like this anymore and you can't either. Changes have to be made but I don't know how to get started. Just know you're not alone. <3
 
You're not alone eithr, least we have each other and TDS. Its nice talking to people who know what you're going through, it helps just getting the shit off my chest..
Are you ok from your stroke? I hope you @ least get some sort of disability.
This time of the year sucks so bad, makes the depression worse. I can relate to not being able to afford shit for christmas. I take care of my nieces and nephew and I can't even afford to get them anything. Going to the goodwill today actually to pick up our gifts that were donated to us for them.. Thank god for that or they wouldn't get anything.. Imagine santa not showing up @ all. How do you explain that to 3 little kids, ya know?.. It makes me so sad. My parents, grandparents,sister,nothing for no one. :' (

You ever wana talk, pm me please. I can relate to you very well.
 
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