BeautifulSADNESS
Greenlighter
So i frequently attempt to discontinue the use of Crystal meth. I do well for the next 2 days until my cravings for sweets and junk food get out of control. I'm also a waitress at a restaurant so this is more difficult to overcome. And hate the image or thought of gaining weight so bad i would fall back into my bad drug habbit. My family or my closest friends have no idea of my 'addiction' cause i'm too embarrassed but more ashamed that im slowly falling into my mothers footsteps who clearly mentally would never come back to earth even if her own life depended on it
., So many eyes on me as well and too much risk on loosing what i worked so hard for in order to keep my little sister in my life
., So rehab or recovery program is out the question. It may seem ridiculous how weight gain is my main concern but it really is my image that keeps me successful in this image based world we live in today.
., So rehab or recovery program is out the question. It may seem ridiculous how weight gain is my main concern but it really is my image that keeps me successful in this image based world we live in today.
