Mental Health Is there something wrong with me?

[Salvinorin A]

For a while now things have been rather strange, I just haven't felt the same in a long while. some background information, i'm a heavy cannabis smoker and I smoke almost everyday, iv'e done various other substances ranging from opiates and salvia. Ive also done many legal highs such as spice blends and OTC drugs. I was prescribed ssris at one point and ive OD'D on many different occasions. One time i smoked spice and i was on luvox cr and i thought i was going to die. If i could go back in time i would stop myself from smoking it or just smoked enough to were it would of killed me. Ive felt pretty fried since then. I do not have any hobbies, any interests besides drugs. Nothing gives me pleasure anymore. Everything is boring and i feel "empty". I feel like something may be wrong with me but i dont know what. I feel hopeless and bored with life. My drug use has mellowed my out pretty significantly but i dont care about anything not even myself. Ive had serotonin syndrome atleast once(ssris+1250mg dxm). Am i fried from drug (ab)use?

 

[FnX]

Am i fried from drug (ab)use?

This is a very tricky question and it is not possible to answer it just like that. It could be that you 'fried' yourself with drug use or it could be that you were 'fried' to begin with and self-medicating with drugs. It is possible that, you weren't even aware how fried you were before doing any drugs and that eventually with the change of perspective drugs tend to provide you merely realized your own brokenness. Right now in my mind the most important thing for you I'd say is to recover and to do that it is imperative to keep drug use to bare minimum. I am familiar with a sense of emptiness quite similar to what you describe and you can rest assured it can be abolished even if it doesn't feel that way at all. Stay strong my friend.